CHAPTER 8

Minzy's POV

Since halmoni died, I can't help but think about the last message she told me.

'If it really what makes you happy, do it. Don’t do a thing if you just want to do it half heartedly, do it because you're happy & you like what you're doing. mingkki, you grew up a lot. I know how perfectly aware you are on what you really wanted to be.'

I thought I can never found the exact definition of what was halmoni was trying to say but now, I knew. 

Before leaving, I talked to the only person I am so comfortable with. she's the person I usually went to whenever I got emotional because of peoples judgments, every time Sajangnim  scolds me, when I don't like what I’m doing & when I feel so down about what I am right now. She's the one I knew who understands me more than anyone else in YG. Chaerin unnie.

'Are you sure about this?' 

She asked me while hugging me tight. I wasn't supposed to be but, I always end up crying on her. I didn't say any words instead I nodded. Instead of scolding me, she hugs me tightly.

'I know how hard it is for you mingkki but, I believe you'll get through this.' She told me then makes me face her & gave me her sweet smile.

'You’re a strong girl right? I’ll let you go but, can you promise me one thing?' She asked then I nodded.

'Be back! Promise me that you'll never give up & will be forever at your unnie's side. Alright?' That was the hardest deal I ever receive from her but yes, I agreed. I agreed even I don’t have any idea if I can be able to fulfill that deal.

Weeks ago since halmoni died and still, I’m here at our hometown relaxing or maybe, finding myself will be the best description why I’m here. YG allow me to leave because I have a valid reason which is my grandma's death & chaerin unnie allow me because she believes that I’ll be back when I personally doubted about that.

I never wish to be this popular. yes, I’m popular but, why do people still keeps on sending false judgments about me, that I don't deserve 2NE1, that my looks doesn't deserve to be popular that, I’m not a good dancer.

I love to dance but, I never wish to be part of 2NE1, to be a singer nor to be a celebrity. I just wish to dance & I don't know what brought me to YG. Maybe because of the pressure from those people who keeps pushing me to do this & that. YES!

What I did wrong maybe is that, I listened to them. & here I am now.

Honestly, being part of my group was nothing but great, I’m having fun, always, with or without camera. Not until everything changes, not until now that I got tir