Chunji POV

i'm here....beside my wife..it's painful seeing him like this...i hate to see this...all those wires...tube on him...i hate it...

but...i don wanna leave him...i wanna stay beside him..i wanna keep accompanying him...don matter how long will it takes for him to awake...i will gonna stay by his side...i promise...

"hey hunnie...how's ur feelin??? u tired??? i will let u sleep for awhile...but promise me...u'll wake up soon...alrite..." i tried to talked to him...with cheeries tone..i hold his hand...his cold hand...i'm intertwined our fingers...as i land a peck on his back hand....

thanks to ricky...for his advice...

i promise to myself..i'm not gonna cry infront of him...i don let he see my tears....coz i know...i absolutely know...he hate seeing me sad...he hate everytime he saw me crying...n i wont let he see it eventhough i'm soooo sad looking at him rite now...

"chunji ssi.." i heard someone is calling for me...it's dr choi

"ne..." 

"may i talk to u for a while???"

i nodded as i stood up from my sit...sadly let go of my luver hand..setting it beside him...as i walked out d room

"ne dr choi...."

"call me hyung...it sound better..."

"yes hyung..."

"chunji ahh...i'm sorry..."

"sorry?? for what???"

"actually...hunnie...he cant get pregnant from d beginning..."

"what??? what do u mean hyung???" ouhh crap...here another shocking news that i must listened to...just enough...i don wanna know anything....what i want is my wife...i want him back...i hate thinking of him in that pathetic condition

"i'm sorry if i didn't explained to u from earlier...coz u seem sooo confused...u looks miserable...so i can't tell u d truth condition about dr lee yet...actually chunji...hunnie...he's having anemia..."

"what is that???"

"he had low hemoglobin level when he's pregnant...he even had high blood pressure....furthermore....he lose tooo many bloods when he's givin birth...he even knew his condition from earlier..but he still continue to get pregnant..."

"i don understand it..."

"hunnie knew it chunji...he knew his life was in danger if he still want to keep his fetus...he knew that he might dying...he knew everything that will gonna happen to him n his baby..but he still wanna make hanney born...he still wanna be a mummy for ur child...he want to giv u a baby...coz he know...u really want it..." interrupting myungsoo hyung

"but...but...wae??? why he doin this?? i didn't force him to get pregnant...why...why!!!!" i'm again...lose my patience

"he got pregnant...it's a miracle rite...do u think he'll gonna abort it when d miracle is actually happen to him???"

"but..."

"chunji ahh...he luv u...he luv u sooo much...u know how happy he was when he told u that he's pregnant...how happy he was when he saw ur brightest smile when u got d news of his pregnancy...???"

"he was d happiest person in this world when he find out he was pregnant before...so please...don blame him..."

"it is all my fault!!!!" i'm crying hard

"no...don blame urself too chunji ahhh...this is all fate..."

"will he die???"

"let's pray for him..."

"nooooooooooo....i can't accept this anymore...just enough...i can't hold it..why is it sooo many trials that befall!!! just enough!!! d one who should be punish is me...not hunnie...nor hanney!!! hunnie need his life n my baby need her mother...just please...spare his life....save him...i'm begging u guys...please...please...i need my family...i need him....i want him rite now...please..." i'm choking in my own words...

i cant handle d pain anymore...i cant bare with d trials from GOD....i don bare letting hunnie to hold all d pain on him...i want all that pain been remove from him immediately...i just want my wife to be happy...let him happy...although just for a while...i don want him leaving me...me n hanney need him...we both need him....

i cursed myself...as i leaned on d wall...bumping my head on it hardly for several times

"chunji...stop it chunji...i tld u to be strng rite..u can't be weak rite now...they'r needing u"

"how can i...??? how can i huh????? i'm not hunnie..i'm not as strong as he is...eventhough i'm too cruel for him...i'm hurting him much...but he still luv me so damn much!!! what a pabo is he!!!! how can this fate be sooo cruel...how can it!!!"

"chunji...stop it chunji...stop blaming urself...stop blaming fate...it's a fate too that ur baby was born healthy...in his kind of situation...it wasn't only harm hunnie life...it'll harm his fetus too...but luckily...she's fine n healthy...so stop blaming fate as well..."

"if u want him to be happy again...just change urself..." i heard another voice interrupting as i my head to d side...i met an eyes with GTOP..as hanney was in seunghyun hyung

"jiyoung hyung...seunghyun hyung..."

"change urself chanhee..i command u too change urself....just bring us d old lovely chanhee back to us...hunnie need u...hanney need u...we'r all need u chanhee"

"me....back..." *sniffing*

"yeaaaa..we lost our chanhee for a long time...n we want him back..." i turned my head to look at myungsoo hyung...i see him smiling at me

"so...will u come back...chanhee???" jiyoung hyung ask

i'm crying again...although i've been sooo cruel towards their dongsaeng...but they still treating me nicely...i'm sooo grateful having all of them as my family....i'm sooo grateful meeting with hunnie...i should be sooooooooo much grateful that he is my wife...n i'm glad having an adorable hanney as my baby....

"i want me back...i will get myself back...from now on...that crueler chunji is dead...i'll be me back..." i said determinely

"good...be a good father to this girl ok..." seunghyun hyung handing hanney to me as i took her...scooping her in my arms

jiyoung hyung brushing his hand towards hanney cheek... "she resemble u both alot...look at her lips...her cheeks...hair...just like hunnie...n her nose...her eyes...similar as u chanhee..." he smile

i smile as i saw my daughter adorable face...she's opened her eyes as i finally can see it..both eyes of her...do resemble me...as my fingers touch her lips...making me felt d happiness...how glad i am touching these small lips of her...it's kinda like touching hunnie....how i miss it...i miss it sooo much...i'm regret on my behavioral before...i'm regret wasting my time without hunnie beside me before...n now...i wanna change it...i want to be with him n hanney for all time...i promise it...i will never leave them until d end of my life...this is my promise hunnie...hanney...

-a week after-

"i'm gonna take hanney home...n i'll come back at nite...so u need anything chanhee???" jiyoung asked

"ummm...no need...."

"so then...let's go home first ne my girl....let ur appa kiss u first..."

chunji land a kiss on hanney forehead as he scooping her...placing her beside her sleeping umma

"lets make u kiss umma before goin home baby..." setting d baby cheeks touch her umma pale cheeks...letting d baby get a touch of her umma skin...

"so then lets go home..." jiyoung took d baby from chunji arms...as he also giving a peck on his dongsaeng forehead...slowly pick up d cold hand of byunghun n place it on hanney face n her small hand for a second touch before he set d hand back on d bed

as jiyoung walk out d room...now leaving only chunji n ljoe...

Chunji POV

"pretty umma...our daughter is goin home...but don u worry..she'll comin back tonite...do u want her to stay here with us...wanna sleep beside her my luv??" i know there will be no answer....but still..i know how much u want hanney to be beside u...i know how much u luv it when we'r gather together as a family..i know it hunnie...i know it...

i'll be stay here with u...n i'll never leave hanney behind thou...we'r both will gonna be stay beside u hunnie...we will wait for u...just for now...i will let ur having more rest....it's ok if u don want to awake yet....i will wait for it patiently....n till then...when d time has come...ur open ur eyes...where i could see those pair beautiful eyes of u...i'll make sure...that u will b d happiest guy...n we will having our new family...a happy family life...we will stay forever together....3 of us...will stay happily together...

i stood up...as i'm goin out for awhile...i wanna find myungsoo hyung...i need to talk to him...i to apologize to him for my stpid behavior before....i need to say sorry for cursing him...for scolding him...it wasn't his fault at all...it was me...i'm d one who should be blame...not hunnie...nor myungie hyung...

i swung d oor knob...before stepping out d room...i turned back looking at my wife face....he looks peaceful....i really want him to awake...but for now...i just can only pray for it...i will pray for his awaken n in d sme time i'll took care of him...if this all that i can only do...i'll do it...i'll do anything for him....

i'm walking in d hallway...make my way to d lobby...but then...suddenly i'm standing froze...as i saw someone familiar stood infront me...

"oohhh chunji..." he look shock...well...not just him...me too...

"taemin???? is that him??? what is he doin here???" i thought to myself