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Chunji POV

as i was about to enter d droom...my heart beating soooooooo fast...it was this feelin....feelin of scaredness...worries...curious!!!! this bad feelings make me felt my leg was been glued on d floor...i'm not dare to face him...i cant face him...totally cant see him..after everything that i've done to him!!

"hey wont u come in???"

i snap from my thought as i heard myungie talking to me

"i am..." i nodded slowly

i'm soooooo scared..I only have a few feets away from seeing my wifey beautiful face....but I even couldn't move my hand to spun d door knob...n again...i just stand there staring at the door.

"chunji...." a voice seem to b calling for me again

i opened my mouth saying something as my eyes start forming tears... "i....i'm not ready to face him yet hyung..."

"don be....he need u chunji ahhhhh"

"but i....i was a jerk!!!!"

"he never thought so...beside he luv u even more although u hve been so cruel towards him..."

my eyes alredy flooding with tears...as some memoriable screamin in my head again...

flashback

chunji POV

i just got home...but this is truly disappointed me...

"he's not home...yet???" i sigh heavily

i took out my phone as i called d familiar number

truuut...truuut... truuut...truuut...

"yeobosaeyooo?"

"ahhh anyeong....may i talk to dr lee???"

"i'm sorry sir...he got an operation running..."

"ouhhh i see..."

"do u want me to pass him any mesagge sir???"

"ummm...it's ok...no need..."

"btw...may i know who's talking rite now???"

"i'm dr lee husband...chunji"

"ouhhh....mianhe chunji-ssi...maybe d operation will b end about an hour later...so u can call him at that time..."

"alrite then...thanks for d information..."

"ur welcome..."

i hung up d fon but start to opened it again as i called another number

"hey darling" say d women on d phone

"hey baby...wanna hang out together???"

"hang out??? did i hear it correct...??? well...where's ur wife?? will he not getting mad???"

"who's him to be mad at us...btw...i just get bored being home alone while him just bz with his job..."

"ouhhh really...even him currently with u...ur still keep contacting me...is he sucha boredom person??" *laugh*

"ummm...yeaaa he is..n ur my happiness now...so minzy baby...come quick...i miss u..."

"ahaksssssss...just wait okiess...i'll b there in 15 minutes...arasso"

"alrite...i'll wait....anyeonggg"

"bye..mmuahhhhhh"

Flashback end

"chunji....chunji...." 

i inhaled a huge amount of oxygen as i released it slowly... i don know why....but i got this feelin...d bad one..

"i'm comin..." i said as slowly begin my first stepped entering d room...

my heart pounding as fast as jet as i saw surrounding me...a white room with machine placed beside d person who's lying on d bed...as it was connected on him...d sound of d machine aching my heart....as it is showing that person heartbeat rate...

more painful thing is that person is my wife...d umma of my daughter...d only person who i luv sooo much..n d one who i hurt d most....

his sight was sooooooooo horrible...his face looks pale..as he was connected with many wires....one is connected on d bottom half of his arm for giving him water n another one giving him blood...while on d another hands...they'r clamping his index finger with wire as well n i found it connected to that stupid ECG machine....there is a tube in his mouth as well n a wire in his nose...i believe it's purpose to help giving him oxygen...

i walked near to d bed...my legs shaking...as i reached there...i fell on my knees....as my hands holding his cold hands....i cant bare seeing him...i'm scared of facing him....i'm scared to face d reality....as i was crying...crying like there's no end...

"chunji ahhhh..."

myungsoo hyung tried to comfort me...n was trying to explain...but i don wanna listen to him....i don wanna to hear about my wife horrible conditions...all i know...i want him...i want him back to normal...d well n healthy lee byunghun....

"chunji....."

"myungsoo hyung...please...don tell me anything...i don dare to listen for it..."

"chunji...please...u need to be strong for him..."

"HOW CAN I HUHHHHHH!!!!" i yelled

"cc~~chunji ahhh...pleaseeeee...i'm begging u..."

"i cant!!!" my tears streaming down over n over "i'm not strong yaaa know!!!!" *sobbing*

"u must be...please...for hunnie n hanney sake"

"how can he turned to b this way???" *stand up slowly but fell again* "he looks horrible...what's with that wires!!! tube in his mouth...n this DAMN LOUSYYY MACHINEEEEEEEEE!!!!" i formed a fist as i smacked on d floor

"this is his fate chunji..."

"WHAT???? WHAT DO U MEAN HYUNGGGGG???"

"he lose too many bloods dongsaeng ahhh...too many...n d excessive bleeding during hanney birth can occur him to b this way...hunnie is now in coma..." tears dripping from myungsoo hyung eyes 

"WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" i got shocked as i heard d word 'coma' 

he was in COMA!!!! how could that be!!! he was just talking to me last 2 nite ago..but...but...i...i never thought that was his last conversation with me before turning to this condtion...how could i do??? how can i??? now...hanney was born...how can i took care of her without u hunnie....how...how??? i need u....i really really need u....i mean it!!!!!!!

"when will he awake???"

"we'r not sure..."

"DON GIV ME THAT ANSWER!!!!!!!!!!" i yelled as i grabbed myungsoo on his collar

"chunji....he didn't gve any respond yet since last nite..."

"SOOOOOOOOO...R U TELLING ME THAT HE GONNA TOOK A LOOOOOOOOONGGG TIME TO WAKE UP!!! THIS IS WHAT U MEAN!!! HOW LONG HUH??? A WEEK??? A MONTH???? A YEAR???? OR PROBABLY FOREVER HUH!!!! TELL ME HYUNGGGGGGG!!!"

"mianhe chunji..." he looks down on d floor

i can understand what is that mean....hunnie will not gonna awake in this kind of short period...

"he need u chunji ahhhh...."

i cant stand to stay in d room in any longer as i ran out....

i'm running as fast as i can...to where my legs will took me until i finally falled down to d ground....crying nonstop!!! screamin out loud as i didn't care people surrounding looking at me weirdly....

i took out my phone....turned it on....i found it there's many many missed calls n mseg from GTOP n myungsoo hyung....

"i'm paboooooooooo!!!!!!!!!! if i'm with u last nite....u'll not be in this condition hunnie!!!!!!!! i'm pabo!!! i'm a jerk!!!!!! i don deserve to be ur husband!!!!!!!!" i yelled again...

i pressed d keypad on my phone...search for d menus n press it ok as i opened d photo album....

i stared on my phone...with my tearies eyes...as i laying myself on d ground with now only pictures of hunnie that companying me...