KrisYeol's Love - Part II (FINAL)
Somebody's Chanyeol
"Then why would Chanyeol not notice it? He should be the first one to notice it." Kris felt a pang of pain in his heart. He thought that maybe, Chanyeol just really sees him as his brother. Maybe for him, the love he showed to him was just a brotherly love. Maybe, that's the kind of love that Chanyeol's giving him too.
Tao thought for a while before giving out his thoughts. "Maybe he's afraid, or maybe, you didn't make it clear enough for him to understand..."
"N-not clear enough?" Kris stuttered. What does his actions really meant for Chanyeol? Does he think it was just because we're friends? Or what? Kris brushed his hair in frustration.
"Uh-huh. Maybe you're giving him some mixed-signals.. You know..." Tao answered as he gulped the last drop of his beer. He was about to open another one again when Kris stood up.
"I.. I'll go in first. Goodnight, Tao." Kris bowed then he started to walk in back to his house, to his room where Chanyeol was sleeping. To his room where the source of his happiness was sleeping, and also the reason why he's in pain and confusion right now. Tao just shook his head in disbelief as he watched his friend walking like a zombie; a heartbroken zombie.
"He's just too stubborn to not follow what his heart is saying... You believe what you want to believe, and what you believe is obviously the wrong choice..." Tao told himself as he shook his head and a single drop of tear escaped his eye and immediately wiped it.
Kris walked back in his room and found Chanyeol still sleeping. He looked uncomfortable though, as he was hugging his pillow with his eyebrows furrowed together. Was he having a bad dream? Kris lied beside him, carefully releasing the pillow from his arms, replacing his body from it. Now he was hugging him. He did what he thought would calm Chanyeol in his sleep: he brushed his hair gently with his hands until he also fell asleep, not able to see the contented smile that escaped Chanyeol's lips...
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Kris woke up with the smell of food filling his nose. He rose up from bed and saw the empty space beside him. He looked at the clock. It was already 9 in the morning. He smiled. He must have had a good sleep because he slept hugging Chanyeol. He decided to went down and saw Chanyeol cooking. They smiled at each other.
"Goodmorning, sleepy head!" Chanyeol greeted while turning off the stove and prepares the syrup for the pancakes. "Your mom and dad left a note, they said they'll be back in the evening."
"Do you want to spend you day here?" Kris asked, looking straight into Chanyeol's eyes. He thought that he should spend more time with him now since he won't know until when they can still be together. He won't know when Baekhyun will prohibit him from staying close with him, right? That idea was one of the hundred thoughts that filled his mind.
"Oh, sure! But I'll be leaving at night because I'll be meeting with Baekhyun to answer his unanswered question," Chanyeol said as he chuckled, his cheeks blushing. Kris felt that undescribable pain. He had this gut feeling about what question Chanyeol was talking about. And he didn't feel good about it.
"W-what did he ask you?"
"If... I want to be his boyfriend."
"W-what will you answer?" Kris asked, holding his breath. He felt suffocated, he can't breathe. His heart felt so tight, like anytime he will collapse. Like anytime when Chanyeol will answer "I'll say yes", his shattered heart will be buried, along with his body.
"I-I don't know... I don't know yet." Chanyeol answered as he confusedly look onto Kris' eyes, unsure as to why he was acting that way.
"Please say no..." Kris said in a painful, hoarse voice. He felt like sanity was going to escape him if Chanyeol will agree. He thought that it will be okay, that it will be okay if he let him go. But coming in this situation, he realized he can't. It's hard. And painful. He thought that when the day like this came, he can give him a fake smile, that he can show his support on them. But he was so wrong. His heart won't accept it. In the near end, his selfish and loving heart prevailed.
"But why?"
"B-because I love you.. Oh, w-what am I even saying. Forget it, if you're happy with him, just... Go. I'm sorry for causing a ruckus," Kris said as he turned around to leave the stunned Chanyeol. In the end, the coward part of him still won.
"Just that? After you said you love me, you'll just leave me without hearing my response? Don't you want to know what I feel?" Chanyeol said with a hurting voice. If Kris was facing him, he could see the tiny droplets of tears escaping his eyes. If Kris was facing him, he'll also see the happiness clearly shown on his eyes. Too much emotions that Chanyeol couldn't even comprehend...
"I'm sorry... I just know I wouldn't be able to handle it once I hear from your mouth that you don't love me..."
"What if I say I love you?"
"No, don't lie. Don't pity me. I can survive the rejection, the pain." Kris turned around, preparing to give his genuine smile to Chanyeol. But he was surprised when Chanyeol ran towards him and hugged him.
"You..idiot. It's you that I love. I've been waiting for this since forever..." Hearing those words finally made Kris realized how much of an idiot he was. Tao was right, he must just be giving Chanyeol mixed-signals. Tears of joy started damping Kris' cheeks. A laughter of relief escaped his mouth, making Chanyeol join him on his "relieved" state.
"W-what about Baekhyun?" Kris voiced out what was bugging him since yesterday. He was still afraid, though he already clearly knew that he owns his heart. Chanyeol cupped his face anf gave him a genuine smile, a smile that can bring Kris to heaven. The smile that he wished he could see every time he wakes up.
"Since we started dating, he already knew about the feelings I have for you. So rejecting him will be easy," Chanyeol answered with mischief on his eyes. Kris grinned and hugged him tightly.
"Please just love only me... I can't live without you. I thought when you started dating Baekhyun, my sanity will be taken away from me. I thought I'll just live watching my love on another man's arms..." Kris sincerely said, his eyes never leaving Chanyeol's. "But I want to thank Baekhyun. If it wasn't for him, I wouldn't have the courage to say what I feel for you..."
"I love you a lot. Just you, and I won't eat any bacon anymore." Chanyeol said while grinning.
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