Taemin Pov;

During these days, I don’t know really myself. I can’t understand myself why I am always sad like this. I think inside my chest like something is burning. But I now realize that strange is because of Key Umma. Not real umma but my friend who cares me so much and so naughty but so cute. So , other  friends called him my umma and he and I also liked that nicknames. He is the one who helps me so much and care me since I transferred to this school in my first year of high school. He is the one who always encourage me whenever I am happy or sad. He is the one who I think the first whenever I have good news or bad news. He is the one who I can tell all my problem and solve my problem, may be because he is the “almighty”. He is the one who I can feel the safe in his embrace .But I thought that it is because he is my best friend, only best friend I think. So, I always said he is my best friend when only he and I only, at that time, I always saw his eyes brightness and I really like his eyes at that time. But I acted like he is only just as normal friend for me not more than others because I also wants others friends too because I am still a new student in that school. But in real for me, my mind is always around Key. Although I am laughing with others or talking with others, I am still thinking about him.

 Minho hyung is Key best friend, he know with him since elementary school, Minho knows all about him more than me, sometimes I really envy Minho and angry my parents why didn’t come back Seoul since I was young, If they come back early I will meet with him early and know him more. Sometimes, I really afraid Minho because he glared whoever approached Key. But Key always tell me it’s ok Taeminnie but Minho glared and always frowned me behind the Key. In these years, Minho manners changed and he really nice me later and I am so happy that because I don’t want the one who hate me. But my happiness can’t last, because I felt Key and I were far away. I think the happiness I got is much smaller than the one I lost. I can’t feel love and worry and care from him like usual. I really sad when he acted coldly me when I go near, I felt my heart stopped when he pulled away my hands when I hug him. I felt my tears started to drop from my eyes when he don’t say me cute and hug me. I really now crazy by checking my phone and without seeing any message from him and miss how he always send me every night in the past time. I didn’t know the value of him and I didn’t know his feelings. I am really so stupid idiot , why I can’t get his love from him like always. Now I realized that I love him so much , so madly in love although I didn’t realized. I think now he hate me . I can’t see any brightness in eyes long time. Now I can’t even see his eyes because he is now not looking my eyes. Why he change like that? He hate me? He think I don’t love me? I hope I can get a chance to get his love again and to show my love him… Key ,Wait and Give me only that chance, I will try my best because I can’t live without your love and care because your are the one who unlocked my heart, You know you are my only one precious Key….    For my heart