Mourning Heart

Description

It does me no good to finally acknowledge the fact that I was the world's stupidest boyfriend

I drove him out of my life believing I was doing him best.

The day I told him that I never loved him, I lied.

And I bet you ask Why?

It's ironic to me now, because my father once told me "you don't know what you have until you lose it"

How right he was, I used to think you would be better off without me but I was wrong.

I have never regretted anything in my life up until the point where I closed myself from you, Taemin, and drove you away.

 

Foreword

 It would seem as if it was just yesterday when we met and I asked you out. Such glorious days those were, just knowing that you were mine and I was yours. 

Waking up early in the morning to sneak a peak at your sleeping form. You were still are the most beautiful sight I have ever laid eyes upon. I dont even remember why  I lie, I do remember, it all started falling apart when we both got accepted at working at Immagine Perfetta Agency. 

I should have seen it coming. Shouldn't have been a surprise to me but you have always been able to shatter my expectations you always have been an over achiever. We both loved what we did. You have always been an amazing photographer, capturing images that noone has been able to. Your images leave people speechless. What can I say you have an eye for things. Always bring out the beautiful in any one and anything.

But me being the over protective boyfriend I was, hated other people praising you and all those small lingering touches our coworkers gave you, they drove me all insane. No one should be able to touch you like that other than me. I always saw red but never once did I take an extra look to see that you always pushed those touches away. You unerstood me all too well, knew that I didn't like anyone else touching you.

I over thought the smallest things. I saw things that weren't there. All in all I was an A'hole of a boyfriend and my overbearing and posessive character didn't make things any easier. 

I drove you to the brink of breaking. Made you leave me, because I was too much of a coward to leave you. How could I if I have always loved you more than myself. I couldn't leave you so I chose the coward way out and made you leave me.  

Now I want you back, but I have no idea where you moved to and certainly Key won't tell me where you went. 

If it's something I've learned so far is I'm not going to make the same mistake twice. I'll find you and make you mine again. Give you the freedom that you have always deserved. Show you that I have changed because for you I'd bring down the stars just to see you smile. That adoring smile that I have longed for.  

Our Love Story was once put to a halt by me but I ask of you to forgive this fool. I ask for a second chance, I know that you deserve better but can I ask for just one favor? When you see me again please don't run away from me. I know I have hurt you, but I promise to take things slow, to show you that no matter how long it takes I'll wait for you. This time I'll let you decide our future if we can ever have a future again......

So yeah this will be mostly in Minho's POV and some Taemin as well but we'll see how this one turns out XD  

 

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