Present day

Junmyeon sighed. It was 4 in the morning, and he has to wake up the members so they could start the day’s schedules. He didn’t want to wake them up, they’re all running on 2 hours of sleep; but their managers wanted him to wake the rest.

Sehun woke up first, and he offered to help the poor leader out by taking up his responsibilities. “I’ll wake them up, hyung. You go wash up first.”

Junmyeon nodded gratefully and headed into the shared bathroom. He took a good look at himself for the first time that week. The bags were becoming more and more visible by the second. His face was pale, and his face was getting smaller. His smile wasn’t all that real anymore. Of course, when he was around his fans it was real. And his smile only shined at it’s best when he saw pictures or watched interviews with Yixing in them.

It’s only been a month. A long, agonizing month. He always thought he’d be his happiest when his dream came true. He never thought that he’d have to play out this dream without the one he wanted to spend the rest his life with. He always thought that they were going to debut together, not in two sub groups in two different countries. 

Sure, they’ve only been dating for 3 short months, but he is sure that he is in love with Yixing. He’s so deep in love, he can’t stop. Yixing makes him feel special, Yixing makes him feel like he’s flying. Yixing makes his heart beat too fast, he makes the palms of his hands sweat. Yixing makes his other half.

Junmyeon doesn’t know if he can continue like this anymore — not being able to see the one you love. He wonders if Yixing misses him too. Yixing seems to be doing fine on the interviews, but then again, so does he.

Does Yixing know that he’s all Junmyeon thinks about? Does Yixing know that he wishes to be in his arms again? Does Yixing know that his heart is breaking? 

Does Yixing still love Junmyeon as much as he loves him?

Unconsciously, tears stream down his porcelain face. He wishes Yixing was here to wipe the tears away and to hold him and tell him that everything will be okay.

He hears a knock on the door and hastily wipe the salty wetness away. “Almost done.” He calls and splashes water on his face. He quickly brushes his teeth and rubs on some BB cream.

Junmyeon opened the door to see the other 5 members staring at him. 

“Hyung, are you okay?” Kyungsoo carefully asks.

He nodded in reply. “Yeah, don’t worry about me.”

“Have you been crying again?” Chanyeol whispered.

“What?” The leader is taken aback. He always made sure that everyone else was already asleep before he let the tears out. He didn’t want the member to know.

“Hyung, it’s okay. We know.” Baekhyun softly smiled. “It’s okay to miss Yixing hyung. It’s okay to cry. You don’t have to hide it from us. We are brothers, remember? We’ll help you through this, hyung.”

Again, the tears cascaded down his face.

“Baekhyun hyung, you made him cry!” Kai flailed his arms, freaking out. Junmyeon shook his head furiously, quickly wiping his face.

“Junmyeon,” one of their deep-voiced manager called. The leader gave a small smile to the members and went to go see what their manager wanted.  

He jogged into the living room, where his manager was waiting for him. The taller — and buffer — man took one look at Junmyeon and sighed.

“Yixing wants to facetime with you before we leave for your schedules.”

He immediately brightened and took the phone from the man’s hand. The manager shook his head and sighed again. “Kids these days.” He muttered under his breath and went to go check on the other boys.

“Junmyeon!” Yixing happily grinned into the camera.

“Hi, Yixing!” Junmyeon scrunched his face, trying to hide two things: 1) That he was extremely happy to see him and 2) That he was crying earlier.

Yixing narrowed his eyes. “Were you crying?”

“What?” Junmyeon laughed. “No! What are you talking about?”

“You’re lying to me.” The other bluntly answered.

Junmyeon sighed. “Fine. Yes, I was crying.”

The younger man’s face softened. “Junmyeon, you can’t always be crying…”

“I know…” He bit his lip; he could feel the tears coming again. 

“Look, everything will be okay. I’ll be back in two months. Baby, don’t worry about me…”

Junmyeon looked down, not wanting to face his boyfriend. “You still love me, right?”  He whispered softly, barely audible. But his boyfriend heard him loud and clear.

“Of course I do, silly. What makes you think I’d stop loving you?”

“I really miss you.” He whispered again, and a few tears slipped. 

“You know, Junmyeon… one of the reasons I fell in love with you is your smile. The one that makes your eyes into half moons. The one that shows your pretty teeth? You know that one? I really need to see that one; your bright and beautiful smile. I need strength, baby.”

“You’re very cheesy,” Junmyeon giggled, smiling widely though tears were still falling.

The other members stood behind a wall, eavesdropping. 

“I never knew Yixing hyung could be that cheesy,” Chanyeol faked a gag. Junmyeon turned to glare at him. The boys scattered away as the leader got comfortable on the couch.

When he went back to looking at the screen, Yixing was crying profusely. 

“Yixing!” He gasped in shock.

“I-I’m sorry, baby.”

“Why? Why are you sorry? Don’t cry!” He was beginning to freak out, horrible thoughts swimming quickly in his mind.

“Do you know how much I miss you? The days seem to go my slowly without you by my side. I need to feel you in my arms again, Junmyeon. I really want to come see you, I really wish I could. I have to wait another couple weeks, and I don’t know if I can. When I come back, we’re going to spend time together, ok? Just me and you.”

Junmyeon blinked the tears away. “Yixing-ah, we could go to the fields again. And look at the stars.”

It’s been too long…

Yixing wiped his face. “Of course.”

The two could hear M’s manager calling for the boys to gather. “I have to go now, Junmyeon.”

He could only nodded. He was afraid that if he opened his mouth, his voice would start begging for Yixing to stay on the phone with him.

“Promise me that you’ll stop crying; promise me that you’ll continue to smile…”

“I-I promise.” Junmyeon muttered, barely audible. 

I’ll see you soon, baby. Wait for me.

Kim Junmyeon stood at the door of the dorm, his backpack slung over his shoulder. The others had already gone down to the waiting van.

He goes outside, and he fakes a smile. 

If they only knew just how many miles are between love so true. 

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otp for life c: thanks for reading! 

Hi guys! I decided I wanted to make a sequel and was inspired by the fact that EXO-M is back in Korea. EXO is finally reunited ;~~;

Anyways, check out the sequel, Cielos.