Unnoticed Desires ft. Kim Hyun Joong

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She was a girl with a history that brought scars to her heart. She didn’t dare to love after that incident and when she did the outcomes were not what she wanted. Lastly, she was broken, just like everyone else if they had been through what she had.

It was spring, April, where cherry blossoms bloomed and couples stood at the Han River having the best time of their lives. And her? She was, on a Saturday night, working late hours baking pastries for tomorrow. She not knowing the danger opened the door to a stranger and went back to work.

“Excuse me, miss,” the man walked to the counter, “May I have a piece of strawberry cake and a piece of mango mousse?”

“Yes sir.” She carefully placed the cakes into the box and tied it with a red ribbon before giving it to the customer, “$4.95 please.”

He walked out the door and she decided to close the store after a day’s work. She also wanted to visit Hana on her way back home and took a piece of strawberry cake, just in case.

Ji Ra drove towards the hospital and took the elevator to the seventh floor. She arrived she placed the cake on the side of the table and pulled a chair next to Hana, her best friend.

“Don’t you think it’s kind of sad how every time I came to love a person they would always disappear or leave me? And now you are in the hospital all because of me,” she signed as she took a piece of strawberry cake out, “I always wondered why you did what you did. Was he really worth your life, enough to create these scars on your arm and leave you in a coma? I guess I’ll never understand, Hana, because I’m incapable of loving now.” A tear slipped down Ji Ra’s eyes as she blamed herself for being a bad luck charm to her best friend.

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Later that night, Hyun Joong brought his cake and placed it beside Ji Ra’s. There’s always someone else bringing cake, he thought. Although he never saw her before he couldn’t help but be interested in whom this person is. Probably a friend of Hana’s, he thought.

“Hana, was I really worth it?” he asked himself, “Would you forgive me for leaving you just this once to let me make it up to you? Can you hear me? Hear my sorrows and regrets of my actions? If it wasn’t for me you wouldn’t have hurt yourself. Sorry, Hana, sorry.”

He sat there reminiscenting in the past while taking out his piece of mango mousse cake. But little did he know that she could here every single one of his words and hers.

{You weren’t.}

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The next few weeks Hyun Joong bought cake from the story every day. Ji Ra and him became fast friends as they talked and learned more about each other. The more she learnt about him the more she wanted to know about him. She found out he was actually a mafia drug dealer despite that she still held interest in him.

He was here on a Sunday to buy more cakes and Ji Ra needed some from him so they exchanged what they needed and Ji Ra pulled her courage together to ask what she desperately needed, love.

“Could you,” she looked up to him, “go out with me?”

Ji Ra rubbed her fingers together as her nerves took over. Hyun Joong tried to process the idea of declining her considering he’s waiting for someone else, but, he thought, I could use something to kill time. I mean Hana would never know, would she?

She was looking at her feet when Hyun Joong was going to reply to her answer so he gently lifted her chin up to his face and pecked her nose.

“Definitely.” He said, “Want to go out tomorrow?”

“Yes!” Ji Ra said as she couldn’t contain her happiness and giggled.

“’Kay I’ll come pick you up then.” He walked out the door as he waved back to her.

Ji Ra delighted by what just happened went to the hospital to tell Hana the good news.

She went on and on at the hospital telling Hana of how Hyun Joong was like, how he talked, what he did, how he looked. Plainly said, Ji Ra did not leave of a detail of him as she blabbed on. After awhile she took the piece of strawberry cake and placed it on the table beside her bed and walked out the door.

{He would not betray me, not again and not with her. He still loved me didn’t he? After what I did wouldn’t you love me? Wouldn’t you look at me again?}

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The day was finally here. Well Ji Ra only waited a day yet she couldn’t help but giggle and laugh at times when she remembered him saying yes. My first date, she thought. And it was, she never had successful relationships before there were wrecked and everyone that loved her always left her. This one would be different, she hoped. But would it be?

He picked her up from the cake shop and brought her to a lane full of cherry blossoms and couples walking down and scenery that’s only beautiful. He held her hand as they strolled down and chatted about their lives. Ji Ra laughed and smiled at his jokes and he noticed her innocence, something he never saw in Hana.

A kid ran up to them yelling, “Mommie! Daddie!”

Both of them were shocked at the little kid as people passing by started to stare at the commotion. They tried to calm the frightened kid so they decided to bring him to the ice cream shop and buy him a waffle cone.

“Mommie, daddie, what is your favourite ice cream?” The kid asked.

They both stared at him and replied at the same time, “Mango!”

“I want mango!” The kid said to the person scooping ice cream, “I want to be like mommie and daddie!”

They brought him out to a seat and stared at him eating ice cream. It was like the old times, Ji Ra thought, where lies didn’t matter and the only that was important to me was being by Hana’s side. Hyun Joong seeing Ji Ra look at the kid smiling made him smile too and felt an emotion he never felt being with Hana.

The little kid’s real parents soon found him and brought him home since he slept after eating the ice cream. They apologized and went their way as Hyun Joong sent Ji Ra home.

During the next few months their relationship developed stronger than ever and Ji Ra would always visit Hana to tell her every single detail. Though Hyun Joong started to visit less often and talked in a different manner. She was at her journey’s end but who would prevent it? Hana’s finger twitched as Ji Ra walked out the door but just as she was about to walk out Hyun Joong walked right in.

“Hyun Joong?!”

“Ji Ra!?!”

“What are you doing here, Hyun Joong?” She almost yelled in his face. It couldn’t be, she thought, it just couldn’t be.

“I came to visit Hana.”

“You-‘r- e…” Ji Ra stuttered, “You’re the Kim Hyun Joong that Hana told me about?”

Unable to take reality in Ji Ra almost feel to the ground before Hyun Joong grabbed her and pulled her back up. She pushed his hands away from her and immediately stepped back.

“You the man who caused her to be in a coma, you who left her for her to be kidnapped and , you who broke her heart and caused her to suicide why did it have to be you? And you who I fell in love with, how could I?” Ji Ra ran up the stairs onto the rooftop and sobbed until her final tears dried up.

[Ji Ra]

How could I be so stupid? How could I hurt Hana like that? She loved him so dearly she lost her way in life. And I told her of all this while she was in a coma! How could I? Why do I bring all my bad luck onto her? Come back, Hana.

I betrayed her, I never thought I would. I’m so sorry Hana, it was all my fault. I know he toyed with me, someone like him would never love me. I should have listened to you, Hana, I should have realized who he was. I should have, I should have.

I gazed into the starry night and felt something in my bad, the . Hesitatingly I pulled it out of my pocket and sniffed some. It was time to end it because I’m unloved, uncared for and only a hinder to those around me. Before losing her senses she thought her last thought, I’m free from you Hana, finally.

And I jumped.

[Hyun Joong]

My heart ached like a knife through my heart as I stared at her run away from me. She ran away like all of them never able to fully accept who I was but why does my heart ache like this? I feel in love…with Ji Ra. Who would have thought me a powerful mafia would fall for an innocent Ji Ra and have her run away from me.

She’s mine. Mine.

I walked back into the room to find Hana awake from her slumber. I was about to call the doctors but she rose from her bed and tried to walk. Unconsciously, I ran to her side to help her up.

“We need to talk, Hana.” I said.

“I heard everything,” And I looked up into her dark black eyes, “Just as I expected.”

Suddenly I felt a pain through my heart and saw red blood ooze out of my heart as Hana pushed the knife in further.

“Why?” I asked and before I could receive an answer my vision faded.

[Hana]

Slowly, I stretched my legs and my arms after staying in the hospital for such a long period. I looked out the window to see my best friend flying through the air and onto the ground. I grinned. You always had all the boys looking at you, you always were the center of attention. I was the one that should have had that. So I was the cause of them leaving, what a dumb girl.

Hyun Joong walked in. You don’t even know how much I changed after the incident of you leaving me and letting me get kidnapped. You had no clue what I had to go through. None of it. And now it’s your turn to face the consequences.

I tried to stand up but after being on a bed for so long I fell but Hyun Joong came running to me.

“We need to talk,” he said. Not after this happens, I thought.

“I heard everything,” he looked at me, “Just as I expected.”

And in one swift movement I took the fruit knife from behind me and stabbed it into his heart, a heart that should belong to me, but no you lied. I pushed it in more as I laughed at his face.

“Why?” he said.

Gone, I thought and let his corpse fall onto the ground.

“Mom?” My boy came running to me.

“Mommie, I ate mango ice cream with the people you told me to. It was yummy.”

I patted his head, “Want some strawberry cake?”

He gladly took it and put it into his mouth.

[End of POV]

And so instead of loving her he fell in love with another girl. Instead of being deeply in love with him the only meaning in her life became revenge. And the last girl? She went unnoticed and ended her life. And who would have known that all our lives were intertwined?

[End]

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Oh boy, are you all confused? Let me talk about some points of the story just in case since a friend of mine read this and well she didn't realized everything I put in.

First, the little boy is Hana's son. If you realized it good, if you didn't you're like my friend. I just thought that would add some creepiness to the one-shot. Second, Hana was behind everything, don't ask why she just was. Third, Ji Ra knew what Hana was really like unconsciously which was why I had that drug effect written in. I actually wanted Hyun Joong to be part of the process of killing Ji Ra but it ended differently.

Old too.  sighs.

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