Down the hall earlier in the night, in the Changkyu room. Changmin lay in the bed with Ky smiling about what they had just experienced.
“What do you think we will have Minnie?” Ky asked.
“Hmmm well, I think we will have a beautiful, happy baby with a beautiful Umma and Happy Appa who love each other beyond the limitations of the world” Changmin smiled.
Changmin placed his finger under Ky’s chin who turned away at his touch. Changmin frowned. He didn’t understand why suddenly him touching KY was so wrong. He knew he shouldn’t be angry but he was more hurt than anything. Why couldn’t KY find comfort in his touch? He knew he wasn ‘t one to talk. He had done something that could potentially undo everything. And it scared the out of him. He never meant it to happen, but it did. And he could not change it.
I had to get away! Away from all the lovey dovery couples. It hurt too much, me and KY should be right beside them. I know they hide things from me to not hurt me but I still see it. The loving touches, the quick kisses. I decided to go stay on the beach for the night there was a small hut down there. Just one night I wanted to get away. I packed what I need ed to get through the night maybe two. Sungmin woke up and looked over.
“What are you doing Min?” he asked.
“staying down at the hut for a while, I can’t be here it’s too much!” I replied
“Well..I…I can come too so your not alone, we can drink some Soju and have a fire maybe? Just forget the world?” he said.
“Sure, that sounds just about right, grab some stuff and lets go” I replied.
Sungmin grabbed the alcohol , and I brought a huge box of food and our stuff. It took 3 trips to the house and back to get it there. You would think we were women they way we packed.
We got settled and about that time it was dusk, so we started a fire and sat outside drinking our worries away. It was really nice to just numb the pain. And it was nice to have someone there to vent to.
“Everything is going to be ok hyung you know that right?” Sungmin said partially intoxicated.
“I know, but the hurt is like so unforgiving, like someone stuck a white hot umbrella in my heart and then opened and closed it countless times” I said.
“It will go away when he comes home? So don’t worry deh?” he said patting my shoulder.
We ended up stumbling into the hut laughing about a bug that looked like an alien that had tried to make it’s home on Sungmins pillow.
“YAH, KILL IT”
“HELL NO IT WILL EAT ME”
“SUNG IT’S A BUG HOW CAN IT EAT YOU”
The bug jumped on his shirt and he dove into my arms. I wont lie it was akward, but in a sense it was comforting to have someone so close. He looked at me like a deer in the headlights, and I am pretty sure I had the same expression. Something in me snapped. I pushed him away hard, I didn’t hurt him but, I knew it was wrong.
“Minhae Min, I was just startled.” He said backing away.
I didn’t say anything and just crawled into my makeshift couchbed. He climbed to his own version of it on the loveseat. I fell asleep at one point or passed out im not sure. But I woke up still very drunk. It was that kind of drunk where you knew what was going on but didn’t care cause it didn’t make sense. (A/N like hugging a tree)
I saw him sleeping on the loveseat and felt instant guilt. I got off the couch and went over poking his cheek.
“Yah, what im awake, what’s with the poking” He said.
He sat up and I plopped down next to him. It was akward but, I had to make it funny.
“you didn’t giggle like that dough dude epic fail on your end” I laughed.
Without warning he straddled me and attacked my lips. All reason and rhyme went out the window. I knew this was so wrong, but I couldn’t bring myself to stop him. My body was numb from the pain and the booze. I squeezed my eyes tight I thought if I tried hard enough it would be a bad dream and I would wake up, I tuned out this surprise kiss with thoughts of My Ky, my handsome, beautiful, loving KY. Until I was taken back to reality as Sungmin was embedding my in his mouth.
“Min…let me stop your pain for one night please” he ed away.
“Sung …..we….I…ca n’t…stop….oh….god…..more” I mumbled out I couldn’t think anymore.
“use me Min” he whined and bent over in front of me.
I let the world collapse and into him with massive force. I wanted to stop but I couldn’t. Why was I doing this. Was it because I missed KY’s loving sweet touch, or the way he smiled crookedly at me in the morning. Or how he felt in my arms late at night? Damn I had to stop NOW.
“Sung….we can’t do this” I said still ing into him like a beast.
“Use…me…. me harder min….let it out” he ed.
Then I pulled out, and released my seed all over his backside. I was shameful, disgusting a pathetic human being. He did this to comfort me or whatever, and I just wanted to run away. Rescue my Ky and run far away from the world. I fixed my clothes and he nodded at me, he knew I was sorry and I had to be alone. I ran to the farthest end of the island. It must have been far because once I was there my watch said it was 2 hours since I left the hut.
I feel down to my knees in the sand and cried. Not like any other cry before this was a cry of self hatred. I hated what I just did, Ky would hate me for what I did. Why did I let myself weaken. Those s have hurt everything I love including myself. What would the hyungs think of me? Yes me Shim Changmin, the guy who managed to not only let his love get kidnapped once but twice, and pretty much just cheated on him while his love was being held captive and abused.
I cried until the world faded to black! I woke the next day it was warm and sunny. Only I realized it was not the next day but the day after that. I got up and headed back to the hut. When I got there I needed to apologize to him and swear to him to never tell a soul. Because I had to tell KY first. I got there and he was acting like nothing ever happened.
What the is wrong with this kid? He lets me use him like a puppet and now he’s like normal. What is this ery? He and I didn’t speak much, until I stopped him and looked right at him.
“Sung, Im sorry that should not have happened. Let’s just forget it ok. Ky is suffering enough” I said.
“Agreed” Was all he said.
We packed up and headed back to the mansion. Everyone was stirring. And Buzzing. Omg what is going on. I grabbed a cold chicken leg and that’s when Umma called me.
HEY GUISE HERE IT IS THE BIG SECRET MIN IS HIDING THE NEXT CHAPTER WILL BE CHANGKYU FOCUSED. I WANT YOU TO BE FULLY AWARE OF EVERYONES POSITION AND MINDS BEFORE I CARRY ON I HOPE YOU ENJOY
I LOVE YOU ALL (DONT HATE ME FOR THIS CHAPTER *DUCKS FROM BRICKS*)
AND I SEEM TO BE OVER BANDWITH ON PHOTOBUCKET SO BARE WITH ME WHILE IT SETTLES ITSELF OUT I WILL POST PICS FOR THE STORY AS SOON AS IT LETS ME IF NOT SOON ILL MAKE A NEW ACCT