"What are we even doing?" Byulyi asked while tracing the mark on my chest, I couldn't see her face as she laid on my shoulder but her voice sounded too drained,

The mark hurt so bad but I felt so ing fullfilled, so unbelievably happy, like the best possible thing had happened to me and I just wanted to have her with me everywhere and forever in the closest way possible, so maybe that's why I couldn't register her question properly, In my head she was already mine.

"What do you mean?" 

"Yong..." she lifted her head and looked at me, her lip trapped between her teeth as she looked away and I felt so many emotions hit me altogether I wanted to hug her so I did,

"Hey, what is it?" I asked,

"I think I love you." She whispered, her voice was hoarse from before and it just made it all much better, I smiled making her look at me,

"Me too, I love you so much I've been going crazy since the day we met."  

How was it even possible? I constantly wondered those days, how was it true that I felt this way for her? Did I even know her enough to feel so much? To do the things that we did? 

But then again, I couldn't imagine not loving her.

When she looked at me as if I had said something unbelievable, I laughed, kissed her and told her how much I loved her again and again until she was giggling and asking me to stop.

We were laying there in silence for a while and she turned a little so that she was facing me fully, she then kissed my mark, before laughing, "this is so silly." She shook her head, I was confused,

"What is?" I asked,

"What are we even going to do now?" She asked looking at me and I was scared, scared that she was having second thoughts, what we'd done, I knew it was all a little impulsive but it still meant so much to me,

"What do you mean?"

"I mean how- what are we going to do now Yong? How can I marry him, still?" Her laugh was gone and she was slightly panicking, I sat up, confused,

When I had kissed her for the first time, to me that was the end of her engagement, what I hadn't realised was that It was not the same for her,

"You don't, Call it off." I said as she sat up too and she looked confused,

"I can't, I told you that." Byulyi whispered and she was so close to me, as if she knew how much she affected me, I had to move away to have a rational conversation,

"Why?" 

She looked down playing with her fingers, "I can't." That's the only reply she'd give me before she started crying, I was helpless, I wanted to hug her but the betrayal I felt was immense, I got off the bed and went in the kitchen.

For maybe an hour the crying never stopped and my heart hurt