"I always imagined that it would be the autumn breeze for my last breath along with the sound of falling leaves. But then again I remember, it is on summer when the leaves fade it's color."

I guess I'm still seeking for peace. I had this funny thought that goes like others are looking for motivation to go on while I'm looking for motivation to sleep. Seriously, there's only 2 routes but why does it feels like I don't have any choice? It's actually hard taking your time to figure things out coz time will never be in your favor, especially to those who aren't privileged. It may be common in your 20s to still be figuring things out but it shouldn't be normalized coz you're not only wasting time but also money and effort. It really when you finally figured out all those things and the only feeling there is regrets. Too much regrets. But hey I think am gonna do something I'll regret later. Coz those 2 routes, the ending is both regrets unless there will be some intervention but I think there's none. So I guess sayonara? If ever I'll succeed later, then... tbh I don't know. I'm free? No. I'll also be in peace.