He was absorbed in his own world. Lost in his every thought. He stood in the middle of the studio. His head down, bobbing his head along the music. As if he was counting for the exact beat to begin weaving his story. It was quiet haunting watching him. He could hypnotized you. He could move with such power and grace that you couldn't help but to be pulled in by his magic. It was the way that he would put so much feelings and honesty in the way that he danced that the audience can connect with him. He was a superb artist. He was beyond more talented than any of the idols in Korea in your humble opinion. You've never encountered any idol that could move the audience on stage the way that he could. You watched him intently from the small window that seperated you and him. You hadn't seen him since the SMtown concert in Seoul, nor have you and him have spoken a lot. You couldn't be angry at Kai since you knew being an idol was very demanding. Though it seems like he has been avoiding you the last three weeks. He barely calls or even text you anymore. 

He began moving along the music. The way that he moved right now was much more raw. It was much more personal. He wasn't dancing as EXO-K's Kai with his haughty stares and constant lip and crotch grabs. He was dancing as himself. He was dancing as Kim Jong In. The guy that you fell in love with. The guy that you were to marry. The guy that still takes your breath away even to this day. You studied his face and his expressions. His eyes were sharp but it had a hint of vulnerability in them. With every steps and moves he created, you knew he was weaving his inner conscience. You dared not to look away from his performance. You wanted to absorb his every movement. He incorporated his smooth ballet skills with some heavy hitting popping. He finally ended his exhibition with a dramatic pose. You stared at him perplexed. You had never seen him dance like that. It was so beautiful and complex. You couldn't help but walk in the studio clapping. He looked up from his heavy breathing. You and him lock eyes. He smiles at you and it makes your heart beat loud.

"That was beautiful," you say smiling back at him.

"Did you see all of it?"

"I saw the whole thing. It was so honest and raw.... I could feel that there was much more to the choreography. I could tell the piece meant a lot to you. But I felt that you were expressing a certain type of frustration. Also like you were trying to protect something."

Kai took your hand and led you to the other side of the studio. You sat down next to him. Silence filled the room.
 

"I'm sorry," Kai begins to say.

You stared at Kai's brown eyes. He looked distressed. "I know I haven't been a good fiance. I have been selfish. I just needed time to get my mind together. I created that routine to express the turmoil that has been eating me up this past couple of days."
You stared at him, listening to his every word. Trying to decipher everything.
"That choreography was the most honest and personal piece I've ever done. You were right there were a lot of frustration in that routine. I'm frustrated at the fact that I can't give you everything that you deserve. I can't be there for you all the time. Just because of my career. I'm angry that I wasn't even there with you when our child.. our child. When it happened to you  I- I  couldn't comfort you. I wasn't even there to hold your hand. I was in the car hiding from fans. I'm angry that I let you go through it alone."
"Kai. Don't blame yourself. We didn't know that was the cause of my stomach pain."
"No. I should have stayed with you from the start. You were in pain. I should have been there. I was hiding from fans. What kind of man am I?"
You touched his face, trying to make him stop.
"You are an amazing man. Kim Jong In, I love you."
"No. You sacrificed a lot for me. I've put you in danger especially from my fans. You've suffered enough because of me. You always stood up for me when the high class socialetes would belittle me. Even when your father does it, you don't even hesitate but to stand up for me. What have I done to deserve someone so amazing like you? But here I am making a lot of mistakes. I have been dishonest with you and not giving you the happiness you deserve. You deserve the world and someone who can give you all the love and affection everytime. And I can't give you that right now. I think we should call off the engagement and stop seeing each other."