Jessica’s POV

When I heard those words, those crashing words, it torn my heart into thousand of pieces, I thought he love me too, but I was wrong. Those things he showed and said to me are just lies. I must be strong for me to move on. I don’t know where I would lead to start a new life. After that incident I couldn’t sleep, I just cried for the whole moment till the sun comes up. 

One day before strong heart

I must be professional. I must show to the audience and people who will be there that we are all okay. Our relationship was smooth sailing; in short I need to pretend. I’ll just stay in my room; I didn’t eat and drink anything. I have no appetite to eat. All I want is to be alone, away from everybody, I just sat on a chair facing the window, I see my friends having a good time. They are playing. I looked at them and memories went back to my mind, the time when we all had fun. No worries and no problems. I wish it will happen again. But when? I don’t know. I said as I shrugged my shoulder. Suddenly I looked up the sky and it was going to rain, I thought they will all went in to the house but they still stay there and cheer for the rain to come down. Mother earth didn’t disappoint them, it rained that hard, but I saw how happy they are. I smile a bit when I saw Fany running because he was chased by TaeYeon. Again I feel the loneliness in my heart. I missed my friends, but I’m the one who pushed them. Now, I regret it. I need them for me to say whatever I want for me to have a shoulder to cry on, but I insist to them that they must not mind me. Especially Fany, I must not did that to her, I cried again like hell. i went to my bed when I can take the pain anymore. i cover my self with my comforter and hid my sadness. I heard my door open and I pretended that I am sleeping.

“Sica Unnie, want to join us? “ Seohyun asked me

I didn’t reply

“unnie, Shindong oppa saw you watching us”

“he told me to go up here and invite you to join”

“ wanna come?” she asked like a little kid

Still I didn’t answer

She slowly approached me as I saw her blurred image under my comforter

“unnie???” she said while tapping me gently

“unnie, are you sleeping?”

“get out the hell on my room” I shouted to my beloved maknae

“oh, mian he unnie”

“I didn’t mean to disturb you” Seo Hyun said before I heard her sobbed and before she runs out to my room

I heard the door shut 

“mian he, seo hyun” I said before I cried again

Meanwhile

Seohyun is running downstairs covering her face, Kyuhyun and Ryeowook is waiting for her before they went back to play

“what’s the matter, seo??” the boys said in unison

“no it’s nothing…” she said while still covering her face

“are you crying???” kyu asked her

Seo hyun looked at the two with watery eye

The two boys hugged her

“seo, what happened? don’t cry” Ryeowook said while tapping her back

“Sica unnie, shouted at me” 

“and said that I leave her alone” she said while crying like a baby

Suddenly the other members went inside

“whew, that was fun” Sunny squealed 

“yeah, I miss this kind of bonding of ours” Sungmin said while wiping some water on her cheeks

“erm, yeah…” she said while blushing

“what happened Kyu oppa?” Tiffany said in a worried tone

“Sica shouted to our beloved maknae” Kyu said in a low voice

“Sica, did what?” Yuri asked angrily

“well, Shindong instructed us to ask Sica to join because he was sure that he saw Sica peeking outside her window watching us” Ryeo said while still hugging Seo

“And then” Soo Young and Hankyung said in unison before they blushed

“she shouted to me like hell” Seo said while wiping her tears

“oh, no!!! she didn’t” HyoHyeon said while punching in the air ready to fight

“Hyo, calm down” Eunhyuk said to her 

“oh, no, HyoHyeon is right”

“this is enough”

“I can’t stand this situation anymore”

“ I need to do something I’m the leader” TaeYeon said before she grumpily run upstairs heading to Sica’s room

“Taeng… Taeng… where are you going?” Kang In said while following her

“oh, no, I think she was going to Sica unnie’s room” Yoona said in a worried and sincere tone

“oh, no this is going to be a cat fight” Snsd said in unison and before they run to follow TaeYeon

“oh, no… let’s go, let’s help them” Suju said in unison before they also followed their girls upstairs

At Sica’s room, Sica heard her door slammed

“Sica, get up!!!” Tae Yeon shouted

“Get out the hell here!!! Sica shouted back

Tae Yeon went near to Sica’s bed and pulled the comforter out from her

“yeah, what are you doing” Sica said before she pushed Tae Yeon, good thing Kang In was there to save her

Everybody saw what Sica did to Tae Yeon

“oh no, you are dead!!! Yah!!!” Tae Yeon said as she went to Sica and grabbed her hair

Sica also grabbed Tae Yeon’ hair

“Unnies please stop!!!” Seohyun said while crying

The others try to pull apart the two but they can’t

“yah!!! Stop now” Lee Teuk said while pulling Sica but she is still holding Tae yeon’s hair

“let go now!!!” Yesung said to Tae Yeon but she didn’t let go

The other Snsd also went to them to stop them and when they succeeded to pull the two apart

“YAH!!! Why are you fighting???” Soo Young shouted while crying

“we are sisters right???” Yoona also said while crying

Sica laughed from what she heard on Yoona

“sisters??? You called our relationship sisters?”

“what about the thing you do to me slapped me just because of a guy?”

“is that what you called sisters” Sica said while holding back her tears

“that’s why I want to talk to you Unnie”

“I want to apologize…” Yoona said while still crying

“ apologize??? It’s too late Yoona”

“you know that this is my first time to fall in love”

“but what did you do??? You ruined everything” Sica said and now she is crying

“Sica stopped it now!!!” Ki Bum shouted at her

“stay out of these!!!” Sica shouted back at him

“Sica please forgive us, forgive me, Yoona and donghae”

“the more you keep the pain in yourself the more the wounds won’t heal” Ki Bum said while hugging her

Sica pushed him and slapped him

“ I trust you oppa…”

“I know you love me but I didn’t expect a selfish love from you”

“you know that I don’t want to hurt you… I didn’t expect you threatened me like that” Sica said in a low voice

“I know I’m wrong that’s why I want to apologize and I wanted us to have new beginning” Ki Bum said while also crying

“oppa, it’s too late…” Sica said in a low voice and just looking at the ground

“so you are just trashing our friendship to each other like that?” Hee Chul said in a strong tone

Sica didn’t ansered

“okay, we get it… you don’t need us…” Yesung said 

“being alone is what you want” Eunhyuk added

“Fine!!! Then we don’t need you also” Si won said while dragging the others to get out of the room

“we can’t believe that you just end our friendship like that”

“Sica, I’m your best friend I never imagine that because of the pain you have, you will hurt us like this”

“you know that we are here for you but you just pushed us away”

“now, I know where would placed ourselves from you”

“thanks for the memories we had” Tiffany said before she also exited

“Sica, I know I hurt you”

“but it’s not alright to blame it on the others”

“if you are mad at me put it all to me”

“cursed me, slapped me or even forget me”

“but the Sica I saw a while ago is not the Sica I loved, full of revenge and hatred in her heart”

“I’ll try to say that I was just forced to be with Yoona because she was blackmailing me and you”

“and the one that I love is you” Donghae said before he went out her room

Now Sica is alone again and more pain is now in her heart

To be continue…