(Year 2018)

It's been a week since Chorong Unnie's visit. Day by day I'm trying to fight my negative thoughts away. 

We're about to go home after monitoring our Running Man episode.

I watched our tape and saw myself being quiet and gloomy then reacting to some scenes.

"Why so weak Namjoo-ah?" I asked myself

'Hang on there, I will be back and you will be bright as ever' I note to myself and followed my members.

I hang my head low as we walk out of the building while listening to some kinds of music

While I enjoy some music on my phone I gaze at my members and saw them staring at me. 

I sighed and picked up my earphones out of my ears and gave them a questioning look. 

I saw Chorong-Unnie sigh and put her hands on my shoulders. 

"Namjoo-ah, are you aware of your actions back there?" she asked me carefully. 

 I hang my head low and nod at her. 

"Ne Unnie" I said and she continued. 

"I know you're having a hard time maknae-ah but please give your best" she said with her leader tone. 

"I'm trying Unnie" I respond while little tears started to run down to my face. 

Without hesitations, she hugged me and comforted me. Whatever I do it's just not enough to cover myself, I'm too transparent. 

After such moments the other members came near and joined us. 

"I know it's hard for you Unnie but don't forget you have us until the end" Hayoungiee said with glassy eyes while hugging me tightly. 

I came to realized that I'm not the only one who's suffering from my own problems, even the people around me felt hurt at the situation. 

"Stay strong Jjoo your five brothers are here for you" Bomi-Unnie said and I giggled a bit at her statement. 

I looked at my left and saw Naeun-Unnie getting something from her bag and put something at my hair. 

" There it looks good on you Jjoo" She fixed the hairclip on my