As time passes by I learned to communicate and share my worries and concerns to my members.

Everytime I had the chance to share it to them, it feels like all the burdens has been slowly lifted up from my shoulders.

I'm quite relieved knowing I have the nicest people on earth around me.

I looked at my phone whose been beeping for nonstop it's Hayoung then I answered the call. 

"Neh Hayoungie" I said.

"Unnie we're gonna be home late apparently Bomi and Eunji Unnie are all enjoying themselves here" she reported.

I smiled at the thought that they're having fun.

"It's okay just get home safely, and make sure to drop your Bomi Unnie safely" I said to them.

"Are you okay by yourself Unnie?" she asked with a hint of weariness in her voice.

I sighed and chuckled a bit to her question.

"I'm fine, you know me I'm a homebuddy" I reassured her.

After a few nags and words, Hayoung ended the call because of Bomi's call.

I sighed and lumped myself and looked around to my room.

The members are having fun while I choose to lock myself at home.

This is the way I had to relieve some stress unlike them.

Namjoo goes out with her friends while Nangni is somewhere in abroad because of her hectic schedules.

I sighed and smiled a bit.

'There having a good time' I thought.

I looked at the frame at the bedside table and saw a picture of us when we had debuted.

I touched the frame and gaze particularly at one person whose smiling.

"Yookyung-ah" I whispered as I felt a little bit emotional unlike before I'm slowly moving on.

Just like Hayoung said we don't need to live from the past we have to move on.

I went through my social media as an idea popped to my head. 

I searched for Yookyung's name on instagram to know her whereabouts 

Since her departure we cut off ties with her because she's gonna be busy with her studies. 

I went through the social media and saw her for after so many years. 

"Yookyung-ah" There she is our beautiful maknae growing up so well. 

I get teary eyed as the incident of her leave came into my mind. 

"I'm so sorry Yookyung-ah" I said and whimpered. 

"If only I knew, I'm sorry I failed you" I said as I choked at my own words as th