http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Fv5ccPazQQ

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It was March 1st, a sad and somber day for everyone, especially Jongup.

You and Jongup prepared soju, fruits, and his mother’s favorite raspberry chocolate cheesecake. TS Auto Shop had closed for the day so the big oppas were home also. Yongguk came into the kitchen and calmly asked, “We have to leave early if we want to get the flowers.”

“We’re almost done.” You said. Yongguk nodded and went into his room to change.

You looked at Jongup and carefully studied his face. “Jongup oppa.” He looked at you. “Are you…all right?” You whispered. He smiled but his eyes were sad, “Of course I am. I’m happy to see my parents again.”

You nodded with a small smile. Jongup turned his back to you to get the plates. Your smile vanished and you silently sighed. *Even if you’re smiling now, I know when we are in front of your parents you won’t be smiling anymore.* You lightly squeezed his arm.

Jongup looked at you in confusion, “Wae?” You just gazed at him. He smiled and ruffled your head, “Don’t worry about me, Snoopy. Oppa is fine.” *I know you’ll be. Just know that you can always lean on me and cry.* You thought.

Everyone was ready by 3. The 7 of you rode on the bus to Seoul Station and took a train to the countryside. No one was laughing or joking. Youngjae wasn’t even making any sarcastic comments. You could tell Jongup was getting restless. He bit his nails and kept tapping his fingers on the window.

Yongguk gently grabbed his shoulder, “Jongup?” “Huh?!” He jumped, “Oh. I-I’m okay.”

Yongguk nodded and squeezed his shoulder. You and Zelo exchanged worried glances but didn’t say anything.

Three hours later the train came to its destination. All of you piled out and started walking towards the final goal. Jongup’s body was stiff now and he refused to meet eyes with anyone.

You gently grasped his hand, “Oppa…” Jongup gazed at the bouquet of daises in his hand, “Do you think my mom will like these? I think these were her favorite. She liked any kind of flowers though.” You nodded and squeezed his hand, “I’m sure she’ll love it.” He seemed to calm down by your assurance.

You and B.A.P. entered the open black iron gates. No one was at the cemetery besides the 7 of you. Finally Jongup stopped in front