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A cutting edge procedure allows the patient to learn the date of their death. When Baekhyun finds out he only has a short while left to live, he begins keeping a daily journal to leave for Chanyeol to read after he dies. 

Foreword

May 10, 2018

 

I had some time to myself today. Chanyeol was at work for most of the day busy with meetings and Kyungsoo away on some business of his own. I did a lot of thinking, some good, most bad. I can’t help but wonder how I’m going to die. I imagine I’m fairly healthy so I don’t think it’ll be a disease that does me in. It’s kind of scary, really. Not knowing.

 

How did I go, Yeollie? Was it quick? Did I die in pain? Were you there to hold me? To say goodbye? Maybe I should hide away from everyone I care about on that day, just to be safe. If it’s a car accident that kills me, I don’t want anyone to be there to suffer with me. Ah, it’s too much to think about. I should sleep.

 


The idea for this story came to me a while back when one of my favorite bands released their new album. Something about all the songs just really stuck with me and gave me the right kind of sad vibe to write this. 

This song specifically inspired a lot of the plot. Give it a listen before you read to put you in the right mood for this wonderfully depressing story! Enjoy!

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anneber
#1
Chapter 1: I don't even know what to say. This was GREAT but so scarily "honest". It gives me a bit of insight about what my older brother might have thought in his last days. Watching him dying of cancer was indescribable; the finality of life being played out before my very eyes. We both knew what was going to happen, but we had no "expiration date" to work with. He left the hospital after being told that there was nothing more that they could do and came to live with me. We spent time talking and reminiscing. I got the chance to thank him for helping me raise my two daughters....OUR two daughters....and I got to tell him everything that he means to me. I took leave from teaching to spend all of my time with him; my principal at that time was not happy, but he understood and held my job for me. Ron died within a month of leaving the hospital. I actually watched him take his last breath, so this story is kinda personal for me.

Don't get me wrong, though. I miss my best friend, but he is in Heaven now....and I just am patiently waiting my turn. No, I'm not suicidal (anymore), sick or dying or anything or anything like that and this story has not triggered any of those feelings, so don't worry, my friend. I know that your story is a pure , artistically written piece of fiction, but, for me, it gives a "fictionally true" perspective into what the dying might be thinking, if you understand what I am trying to say.

I had every right to be scared of this story. It is a FABULOUS, compelling read. I thank you for that.

There are so many thoughts going thru my head and I have no real words for any of them except to say thank you for the ending. Losing Baekhyun was my biggest worry; I am so glad that it was a bogus call and Kyungsoo did his "homework" and he and Chanyeol got to Baekkie in time. Just the thought of a government run population controlled agency like that gives me the willies!!!

Do you think that, with the rate of uncontrollable, overwhelming population growth that we have now, that the government might actually....????? I honestly would not put it past them!!

Well, it's 12:46 AM and I have work in the morning; first day back in the classroom after the winter break.

Happy New Year and thank you for this awesome and inspiring read!!
anneber
#2
I appreciate you so much, but I am almost afraid to read this. Just let me bolster myself, because it looks like it will be a good read. I just hate the thought of my babies dying
Bbhcloube
#3
Chapter 1: i really love this story it's great!!! thanks for writing this :)
DiamondDustK
#4
Chapter 1: Hello. I just wanted to thank you so much for such a masterpiece. Wonderfully written with incredible detail and clarity for the situation. The concept was fascinating and the writing exceptional. You are indeed very talented and it is such a selfless act to share that gift in this forum. I hope that you are staying safe and that you have a very blessed day :)
bbbrdwngs82
#5
Chapter 1: And bam! I remembered what happened before it actually happened. So I still cried but it wasn't the same as the first time
bbbrdwngs82
#6
Chapter 1: This sounded oddly familiar and when I saw that I'd already upvoted it, I realized I'd read it. It was so sad but I guess I grab my tissues and read it again
Rb2012 #7
Chapter 1: Thank God it ended this way . I was preparing myself for heartbreak
foyezza91 #8
Chapter 1: Now I just want to burn the company.
twinklenoob #9
Chapter 1: Omg thank God that he didn't die! I read this on the bus on my way to work and I'm fighting hella hard to not cry my eyes out. The way you write his thoughts makes them feel so painfully real. Usually I don't really read angst stories cause they get me really down, but your stories are always so well written I couldn't help myself. Thank you for giving them a happy ending<3
heungsoonshipper
#10
Chapter 1: Wow. This story is amazing. Just.. amazing.