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Starry Night

Spontaneity is overrated. Movies and TV shows would like us to believe that life is better for partygoers who dare to jump into pools with their clothes on. But behind the scenes, it's all carefully scripted. The water is the right temperature. Lighting and angles are carefully considered. Dialogue is memorized. And that's why it looks so appealing - because someone carefully planned it all. Once you realize this, life gets a whole lot simpler. Mine did.

I am a hard-core planner, and I don't care who knows it.

I believe in schedules, routines, calendars, bullet lists in graph-paper journals, and best-laid plans. The kind of  plans that don't go away, because they're made with careful consideration of all possibilities and outcomes. No winging it, no playing things by ear. That's how disasters happen.

But not for me. I make blueprints for my life and stick to them. Take, for example, summer break. School starts back in three weeks, and before I turn eighteen and embark on my senior year, this is my blueprint for the rest of the summer:

Plan one: Two morning each week, work at my parents' business, WYWS Clinic. I fill in at the front desk for their normal receptionist, who's taking a summer course at Kirin College in Daejeon. Eomma's an acupuncturist and appa is a massage therapist, and they own the clinic together. This means that instead of flipping burgers and being yelled at by random strangers outside a drive-through window, I get to work in a Zen-like reception area, where  can keep everything perfectly organized and know exactly which clients are scheduled to walk through the door. No surprises, no drama. Predictable, just the way I like it.

Plan two: Take pictures of the upcoming Perseid meteor shower with my astronomy club. Astronomy is my life. Stars, planets, moons, and all things space. Future NASA astrophysicist, right here.

Plan three: Avoid any and all contact with our neighbors, the Jeon family.

These three things all seemed perfectly possible until five minutes ago. Now my summer plans are standing on shaky grounds, because eomma is trying to talk me into going camping.

Camping. Me.

Look, I know nothing about the Great Outdoors. I'm not even sure I like being outside. Seems to me, society has progressed far enough that we should be able to avoid things like fresh air and sunlight. If I want to see wild animals, I'll watch a documentary on TV.

Eomma knows this. But right now she's trying really hard to sell me on some sort of nature-is-good idealism while I'm sitting behind our clinic's front desk. And sure, she's always preaching about the benefits of natural health and vegetarianism, but now she's waxing poetic about the beauty of the great country of South Korea, and what a "singular opportunity" it would be for me to experience the wilderness before schools starts.

"Be honest. "Can you really picture me camping?" I ask her, tucking dark locks behind my ears.

"No camping, Suzy," she says. "Mrs. Kim is inviting you to go glamping." Dressed in tunic scrubs embroidered with the clinic's logo, she leans across the front desk and talks in an excited, hushed voice about the wealthy client who's currently relaxing on an acupuncture table in the back rooms, enjoying the dated yet healing sounds of Ina, patron saint of alternative health clinics around the world.

"Glamping," I repeat, skeptical.

"Mrs. Kim says they have reservations for these luxury tents in the Highlands, somewhere between Queen's Forest and Apsan National Park," Eomma explains. "Glamorous camping. Get it? Glamping."

"You keep saying that, but I still don't know what it means," I tell her. "How can a tent be luxurious? Aren't you sleeping on rocks?"

Eomma leans closer to explain. "Mrs. Kim and her husband got a last-minute invitation to a colleague's wedding, and they have to cancel their camping trip. They have a reservation for a fancy tent. This glamping compound -"

"This isn't some weird cult, is it?"

Eomma groans dramatically. "Listen. They have chef who prepares gourmet meals, an outdoor fire pit, hot showers - the works."

"Hot showers," I say with no small amount of sarcasm. "Thrill me."

She ignores this. "The point is, you aren't actually roughing it, but you feel like it. The compound is so popular that they do a lottery for the tents a year in advance. Everything's already paid for, meals and lodging. Mrs. Kim said it would be a shame to let it go to waste, which is why they are letting Seolhyun take some of her friends there for the week - a last-hurrah trip with the girls before senior year starts."

Mrs. Kim is the mother of Kim Seolhyun, star athlete, queen bee of my class, and my kind of, sort of friend. Actually, Seolhyun and I used to be good friends when we were younger. Then her parents came into money, and she started hanging out with other people. Plus, she was training constantly for the Olympics. Before I knew it, we just . . . grew apart.

Until last fall, when we started talking again during lunchtime at school.

"Would be good for you to spend some time outside," Eomma says, fiddling with her dark hair as she continues to persuade me to go on this crazy camping trip.

"The Perseid meteor shower is happening next week," I remind her.

She knows I am a strict planner. Unexpected twists and surprises throw me off my game, and everything about this camping - sorry, glamping - trip is making me very, very anxious.

Eomma makes a thoughtful noise. "You could bring your telescope to the glamping compound. Stars at night, hiking trails in the day."

Hiking sounds like something Seolhyun could be into. She has rock-hard thighs and washboard abs. I practically get winded walking two blocks to the coffee shop, a fact of which I'd like to remind Eomma, but she switches gears and plays the guilt card.

"Mrs. Kim says Seolhyun's been having a really tough time this summer," she says. "She's worried about her. I think she's hoping this trip will cheer her up after what happened at the trails in June."

Seolhyun fell (I'm talking splat, face-plant) and didn't place in the Olympic track trials. It was her big shot for moving forward. She basically has no chance at the next summer Olympics and will have to wait four more years. Her family was heartbroken. Even so, it surprises me to hear that her mother is worried about her.

Another thought crosses my mind. "Did Mrs. Kim ask me to go on this trip, or did you hustle her into inviting me?"

A sheepish smile lifts eomma's lips. "A little from column A, little from column B."

I quietly drop my head against the front desk.

"Come on," she says, shaking my shoulders slowly I lift my head again. "She was surprised Seolhyun hadn't asked you already, so clearly they've discussed you coming along. And maybe you and Seolhyun both need this. She's struggling to get her mojo back. And you're always saying you feel like an outsider in her pack of friends, so here's your chance to spend some time with them out of school. You should be falling down at my feet," Eomma teases. "How about a little, Thank you, coolest mom ever, for schmoozing me into the event of the summer. You're my hero, Bae-Hwang Younghee?" She clasps her hands to her heart dramatically.

"You're so weird," I mumble, pretending to be apathetic.

She smiles. "Aren't you lucky I am?"

Actually, yes. I know that she genuinely wants me to be happy and would do just about anything for me. Younghee is actually my stepmom. My birth mother, who was Korean-American, died unexpectedly of an aneurysm when I was six, back when we lived in San Francisco. Then my dad, American, suddenly decided he wanted to be a massage therapists and spent all the life insurance money on getting licensed. He's impulsive like that. Anyway, he met Younghee at an alternative medicine convention here in South Korea. They got hitched a few months later, and we all moved here to Daegu, where they rented out space for this clinic and an apartment next door.

Sure, at the age of 38, Younghee is several years younger than my father, I've had to deal with genius observations from bigoted people, pointing out the obvious: that she's not my real mom. As if I wasn't aware, she's looked completely Asian and I'm a mixed and pale, I'm rocking an actual vitamin D deficiency. To be honest, in my mind, Younghee is my mom now. My memories of Life Before Younghee are slippery. Over the years, I've grown far closer to her than I am to my dad. She's supportive and encouraging.

But this time, as much as I hate to admit it, her enthusiasm about the glamping trip might be warranted. Spending quality time outside of school with Seolhyun's inner circle would definitely strengthen my social standing, which always feels as if it's in danger of collapsing when I'm hanging around people who have more money and popularity. I'd like to feel more comfortable around them. Around Seolhyun, too. I just wished she'd asked me to go camping herself, instead of her mother.

The clinic's front door swings open and my father breezes into the waiting room, freshly shaved and brown hair neatly slicked back. "Suzy, did Mr. Wang call?"

"He canceled today's massage appointment," I inform him. "But he reschedule for a half session on Thursday."

A half session is half an hour, and half an hour equals half the money, but my father quickly masks his disappointment. You could tell him his best friend just died, and he'd pivot toward a meet-up at the badminton club without breaking a sweat. Diamond Daniel, people call him. All sparkle and glitz.

"Did Mr. Wang say why he couldn't make it?" he asks.

"An emergency at one of his restaurants," I report. "A TV chef is topping by to film a segment."

Mr. Wang is one of my dad's bets clients. Like most of the people who come here, he has money burning a hole in his wallet and can afford above-average prices for massage or acupuncture. Our clinic is the best in Daegu, and eomma has even been written up in the Daegu Dairies as one of the South Korea's top acupuncturists - "well worth a trip in Korea." My parents charge clients accordingly.

It's just that the number of those clients has been slowly but surely dwindling over the last year. The primary cause of that dwindling, and the object of my dad's anger, is the business that set up shop in the adjoining space. To our shared information, we are now located next to a store that sells adult toys.

Yep, those kind of toys.

Kind of hard to ignore the giant l-shaped sign out front. Our well-heeled customers sure haven't. Classy people usually don't want to park in front of a shop when they are heading to a massage therapy appointment. My parents found this out pretty quickly when longtime clients started canceling their weekly sessions. Those who haven't fled our desirable location near all the upscale boutique shops on Mission Street are too important to lose, as Dad reminds me every chance he gets.

And that's why I know he's upset by Mr. Wang's cancellation - it was his only appointment today - but when he leaves the reception area and heads to his office so that he can stew about it in private, Eomma remains calm.

"So," she says. "Should I tell Mrs. Kim you'll go glamping with Seolhyun?"

Like I'm going to give her a definite answer on the spot without considering all the factors. At the same time, I hate to be the wet blanket on her sunny enthusiasm.

"Don't be cautious. Be careful," she reminds me. Cautious people are afraid of the unknown and avoid it. Careful people plan so that they're more confident when they face the unknown. She tells me this every time I resistant to a change in plans. "We'll research everything together."

"I'll consider it," I tell her. "I guess you can tell Mrs. Kim that I'll text Seolhyun for the details and make up my mind later. But you did well."

Her smile is victorious. "Speaking of, I better get back to her and take out the needles before she falls asleep on the slab. Oh, I almost forgot. Did the mail come?"

"Yeah, just the regular mail."

She frowns. "I got an email notification that a package was delivered."

Crap. I know what this means. We have a problem with misdelivered mail. Our mail carrier is constantly delivering our packages to the shop next door. And the shop next door is directly connected with item number three in my blueprint for a perfect summer: avoid any and all contact with the Jeon's.

Eomma sticks out her lower lip and makes her eyes big. "Pretty please," she pleads sweetly. "Can you run next door and ask them if they got my delivery?"

I groan.

"I would do it, but, you know. I've got Mrs. Kim full of needles," she argues, tugging her thumb toward the back. "I'm balancing her life force, not torturing the woman. Can't leave her back there forever."

"Can't you go get it on your lunch break?" I've already made the trek into land once this week, and that's my limit.

"I leave in an hour to meet your grandmother for lunch, remember?"

Right. Her mother, she means. Halmeoni hates tardiness, a sentiment I fully support. But that still doesn't change the fact that I'd rather have a tooth pulled than walk next door. "What's so important in this package anyway?"

"That's the thing," Eomma says, winding her long, straight hair into a tight knot at the crowd of her head. "The notification was sent by someone else. 'Ko Sunhee.' I don't know anyone by that name, and I haven't ordered anything. But the notification came to my work email, and our address is listed."

"A mystery package." 

Her eyes twinkle. "Surprises are fun."

"Unless someone sent you a package full of spiders or a severed hand. Maybe you jabbed someone a little too hard."

"Or maybe I jabbed someone just right, and they are sending me chocolate." She steals a pen from the desk and stabs it into her hair to secure her new knot. "Please, Suzy. While your father is occupied."

She says this last bit in a hushed voice. My dad would throw a fit if he saw me next door.

"Fine, I'll go." I say, but I'm not happy.

Summer plans, know I knew and loved you.

Sticking a handmade  AWAY FROM THE DESK. BE BACK IN A JIFF! sign on the counter, I drag myself through the front door into bright morning sunshine and brace for doom.


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baekyhoney
#1
Chapter 29: i LOVE this so much. thank you for writing this.
baekyhoney
#2
Chapter 23: i love this chapter. your little anecdotes are so cute. it’s amazing how you come up with all of these. jungkook and suzy are so well developed. this makes me happy. most underrated story ever.
stargirl0279 #3
Chapter 29: Wow, what a beautiful ending. I'm really going to miss this fanfic. It's been one heck of a journey. Honestly, I'd probably ship Suzy with anyone if you're writing the story. This was so well written and I love the character development with Suzy in particular. I feel like she really matured and let loose of the side of herself that felt she always had to be in control. Thank you so much for your dedication and investment in making this story come alive (especially with such frequent updates). I'm looking forward to whatever you come out with next!
stargirl0279 #4
Chapter 28: This chapter is absolutely adorable! I love the very stream-of-consciousness way this was written with all the doubts and questions Suzy has about her relationship with Jungkook. I feel like she'd never survive a long distance relationship. Jungkook was so thoughtful with their date at the observatory and I'm glad Suzy's mom and the Jeons are supportive. Also super excited about the SehunXSuzy fanfic you mentioned! Can't wait to read it
SkullMaki
#5
Chapter 29: Thank you for everything. Hope you will start a new story with Suzy as the lead one again
stargirl0279 #6
Chapter 26: Oh my gosh, happy birthday! So sorry, I'm a few days late.
I'm so glad the truth is finally out. Suzy's eomma really deserved to know what was going on with her husband and what an all around scumbag he is. But I respect her so much. She had to sacrifice her own love life to stay there for Suzy and keep the family together. That's dedication right there. Great chapter as always!
arnicutie #7
Chapter 26: Happy bday! Your stories are truly amazing.. :)
ellehzier #8
Chapter 26: Happy birthday!Thank you for writing this beautiful story. May you continue sharing your talent to others.
rainbowreader
#9
Chapter 25: I hate suzy's parents they are idiots . :) They don't deserve happiness, they don't deserve to have a child. I don't know why but i hate them so much lol. They only think about themselves.
stargirl0279 #10
Chapter 24: Oh boy. In comes Suzy's dad to mess things up again. And just when I thought they'd have a nice relaxing time at the Star Party. Suzy discovering that Jungkook has been drawing her this whole time is so sweet though. He had this nonchalant facade and cold exterior but he was really missing Suzy. Hopefully, we can just cancel Suzy's dad and call him out on his hypocrisy. I'm desperate for a Bae's and Jeon's reunion without him.