Sandara Park 

I'm Sandara Park , But my family and friends call me DARA 

After 5months when jiyong died, I decided to move out from my parents house. At first they disagree because they don't want to be apart from me. They're fully aware of what I'm going through right now. They know my pain & sufferings. But I've decided this the best for all, for me. That I needed to be alone for a while; to think, to relax, to be able to move on. I don't want to worry them, so I just told them to let me be.

2years without jiyong feels like a nightmare for me. Waking up dull & with dark aura. Wearing a beautiful smile infront of everyone even though i was just pretending to be okay and happy. Skipping meals. Overworking to keep myself busy. Drowning myself in tears until I fall asleep. It was my everyday routine for the past 2 years.

On my day off I usually stayed at home cleaning,cooking and playing with my guitar is what i always do, jiyong taught me how to play guitar that's one of our bonding before and  that's my Saturday routine, but sometimes Bom go here and asked me to took care of her 3 year old daughter because bom was to busy in her part time job every Saturday and That's not a big deal for me i love her daughter staying here in my house she's so adorable and smart her name is Scarlet Snow the one who always makes me smile right now and I love taking care of her.  Then every Sunday after I visited jiyong's grave sometimes I visited jiyong's parents too, Jiyong is their only child and iknow they are still in pain Like me, her mom always said to me that she’s felt so happy everytime I visited them because she treated me like her own child too. Then after I visited them I always go to my parents house and have a dinner with them That’s the only favor of my mom to always have a dinner with them every sun