2 days later…..

Kyuhyun and SUJU members were back to their dorm from Japan… They were so tired after the 2 days concert, but they felt really happy that the concert tickets were sold out! Kyuhyun was happy to be back though..  He kind of missing her… He still mad at her, but he missed her too at the same time… He didn’t feel good the whole time… he think about her a lot.. He was worried all the time… He wanted to call her but he still kept her phone!!

They looked puzzled as they entered the dorm… It’s… It’s so clean….. It’s even sparkling clean…. They checked each of their room and they found that their rooms are equally clean and sparkling….

“Yahhhh, she did a good job” everyone nodded and agree

“But she forgot to cook us dinner” lee teuk said looking at the empty table

“Henry-ah, told her to cook us dinner” he said

Henry walked to Nana’s room, but no one answered. He opened the door, and found that she’s sleeping.

“Hyung, she’s still sleeping” Hendry said, he went back to the living room

“Yahhh! Wake her up!” Lee teuk answered

“Let her sleep!” Dong Hae said, “She got a fever two days ago” he continued

“I… I’ll just try to wake her up a bit” Henry said, he got confused when he got orders from different hyungs

She got fever? Kyuhyun sighed… Why she’s so weak?????  I should check on her! He was about to walk to the room, when Henry rushed out from the room….

“hyung…..” he said, terrified

They looked at him, confusedly.

“She…. She didn’t move” he said, really scared, he looked so pale

“I … I don’t think she’s…she’s breathing either” he said again

Degh! Kyuhyun feels that the whole world just fall on the top of his head, blood rushing to his head. He run to her room, he could feel that everyone rushing to her room as well.

Dong Hae reached her first, he put his hand under her nose to feel her breathes.. Kyuhyun waited on the side, few seconds felt like hours…

 Kyuhyun looked at the girl lying in front of him. His heart sank, She looked so white, pale, motionless…. Her lips were so white, she looked so fragile… as if she could snap into two in any time…

“Hyung!!!!” he yelled at Dong Hae and was about to grab her from him

“Ssstttt” Lee teuk stop him

“She’s breathing… but I think it’s hard for her to breathe! She has a high fever too” Dong Hae said

“Let’s called ambulance! Paliii paliii (hurry…. Hurry….)…. “ kyuhyun freaking out, looking for a cellphone

He grabbed her from Dong Hae, trying to reposition her so it’ll be easier for her to breathe… He could feel her skin burning… He called her few times, “Naaa-yahhh wake up! Paalliii… wake up!” he said, but the later never answered

“Hyung did you call the ambulance?” he asked just anyone in the room every seconds

“Yes, we call them! Stop freaking out already! You’re making everyone nervous!” Lee teuk said, snapped at him

“Hyung! She could die any minute now!” Kyuhyun said desperately

Lee Teuk sighed, “I know…I know Kyuhyun-ah, they’ll be here soon! I’m sorry I yelled at you!” he said

The paramedic came right after that and they moved her to their gurneys, and picked her up, rushed her to the ambulance. Kyuhyun went in with them. They asked him questions.

“How long she had the fever?” they asked

“Since… since 3 days ago?” he said

“Had she been taking any medication?”

“I…. I don’t know…”

“How old is she?”

“she’s just turn 20”

“Does she has any allergy to medication?”

“Hm.. I… I don’t know”

“Does she has any history of chronic illnesses?”

“I… I.. don’t know…”

“Did she eat something before she fainting?”

“I… I don’t know…”

“Did she vomit before this?”

“I…. I don’t know…”

“How long has she been unconscious?”

“I… I don’t know… we…”

“What’s your relationship to the patient?”

“I’m her husband!”

“Do you think she committed suicide?”

“NO!” he almost yelledat them

The list went on and on, but Kyuhyun can only said that he doesn’t know most of the time. God! There’s so many thing that I don’t know about her! He looked at Nana, he’s really scared, he couldn’t think straight. His heart hurt so much, what if he never saw her again? What if she never open her eyes again?

They put oxygen mask on her.

“How’s the heart rate?”

“weak”

Degh! He could feel that his heart just drop to his feet. He held to her hand tightly. He screamed, “Yaaaah! Naa-yah! Don’t ever let go okay! Please! Wake up! Please! I have so many things to say to you! I haven’t even told you about my feelings yet! I haven’t told you that I love you yet- Naaa-yahhhh”

“Sir, please get a grip of yourself! We’re trying to save her!” the paramedic told him, telling him to let go of her hands

He refused, “Please… please save her.. please save my wife” he’s half screaming half sobbing, he gets dizzy, he doesn’t know what to do.

They arrived at the hospital; they rushed her to the emergency, and forbid him to enter.

He waited in front of the emergency room, he got really scared. He was crying by himself.

“Kyuhyun-aahhh!” he saw all the members were running towards him, they just arrived

“Kyuhyun-ah what happened?” they asked, seeing him crying

“SHe… she was rushed in there.. her heart …. It…. It stopped beating….” He started crying again

“Calm down.. calm down Kyuhyun-ah, she’ll be okay…. Ssttttt” Lee teuk hugged the magnae tightly

They all waited in silent. They could feel that as the time passed, more and more sobbing were heard.

The Doctor came out thirty minutes later. “Nana Lee’s guardian”

They all stood up. The Doctor looked confused, “are you all her guardians?” he asked

They all nodded, “I’m her husband” kyuhyun said

The doctor faced Kyuhyun, “Your wife is contracted with pneumonia. I don’t know how she becomes like this when she has so many guardians. She’s also malnourished, that’s why she also got anemia, and the pneumonia. We gave her antibiotic, blood transfusion and IV fluid. She’s too weak right now, but we hope her fever to go down” he said “We’re moving her to ICU so we can monitor her closely” he continued

They all went to ICU. His hyungs waited outside, since only 2 persons at a time can come in.

Kyuhyun looked at Nana, lying on the hospital bed, she had not regain her conscious yet. She lay there, motionless with an oxygen mask covering most of her pale face. But Kyuhyun could still see how pale her cheeks are. Those cheeks usually blushed with redness whenever he talked to her…. There were one blood and two IV bags sticking to her arms. She looked really fragile, he took her hand, she’s so thin. He kissed her hand deeply.

There were so many people pointing at me that you’re losing weight, but I chose to ignore them. I… I’m sorry Naaa-yaahhh, I failed to be your husband. I.. I didn’t take a good care of you! I didn’t even realize that I love you until the last moment when I thought that I’ll lose you for sure…  YES! I do love you… do you know that? I fall for you, I didn’t know when it started, but I did…. And I know that now… Please wake up! I need to make it up to you! I need to tell you that I love you! I need to be a good husband to you! Please wake up? If you wake up, I promise that I’ll do anything for you! I’ll never be mad at you! Please…. Wake up will you?

Tears were coming down his cheeks, he wished that he could just turned back the time, there were so many things that he wished he didn’t do, but at the same time lots of things that he wished he did. He regretted everything!

Looking at her like this killing him inside and out. I’m just the worst person in the whole world!

God! Will you please save her? Please save her… please tell her to wake up…

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Nana was standing at the edge of a cliff, she looked so calm, walking one step at a time.

Kyuhyun looked at her from a distance, he called her, she turned and faced him, she was already at the very end of the edge

Kyuhyun wanted to shout at her…. He wanted her to come back, to stay away from the edge….

“Kyuhyun-ah, don’t you believe in me?” she asked in a very soft voice, she looked really sad… her eyes were teary…

Kyuhyun wanted to yell at her, letting her know that he believes in her, he wanted her to walk away from the cliff…. But his voice came out differently than what he had in mind….

“Nana Lee, marrying you is the worst thing I ever did in my life” he said. He was shocked to hear his own voice… what had just happened? Why his mouth saying different thing than his mind??

He tried again, he tried to shout that he loves her, but another voice came out of his lips, “Don’t ever show up in front of me again” he yelled at her.

He was at total lost, he screamed and screamed, trying to let her know that it was a mistake, he didn’t say all of those stuff, but nothing came out of his mouth – no sound at all..

Kyuhyun stared at Nana, she looked so sad hearing him saying that. She turned around, looking at the cliff beneath her… she turned around to face him again… she’s crying… “Kyuhyun-ah…..” she said in a very low voice and turned to face the cliff again…

Kyuhyun screaming on the top of his lung, “Naaaa-yaaaahhhhh…. Noooooooo….. Naaaaaa-yahhhh pleaseeeee!!!” but no sound came out from his mouth.

Nana jumped off from the edge of the cliff... in seconds, she couldn’t be seen anywhere…. Kyuhyun fell down on his knee… he couldn’t believe what had just happened…

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Kyuhyun woke up from his dream, he’s sweating a lot… He fell asleep, sitting beside his wife’s bed… He looked up to Nana, he checked the heart rate monitor.. it’s stable…. He rubbed his chest slowly, trying to calm himself….

He looked at the girl laying there, looking as lifeless as she could… He grabbed her hand, buried his face into her palm.. and he started to sob…

“Naaa-yaahhh…. That’s right… that’s the last thing I ever said to you. That marrying you was the worst thing that I ever did, I told you that I never wanted you to show up in front of me again.. Yah! Are you pabbo (stupid)??? You listen to everything I said??? I was just mad at that time Naa-yahhh, I’m so disappointed that I said things that I didn’t mean to…. Can’t you see that??? You really are a pabooo! Do you know that? Do you disagree with me? Do you think you’re smart??? If you think you’re smart, then wake up and tell me that I’m wrong! Tell me that you’re so smart, that I’m the one who is a papbo! Tell me Naa-yahhhh!” he said sobbing in her hand.

“Kyuhyunaahh….” He heard someone calling him and taps his shoulder. He looked up, Leeteuk was there, he looked as he was crying a lot

“Hyung… you’re still here?” he asked, “You’ve been here for hours, you should go home!”

Lee teuk shook his head, “How could I go home knowing she’s laying here Kyuhyunahh?” he said, “I caused all of these, I should take responsible for it!” he said “I’m sorry Kyuhyun-ahhh”

Kyuhyun shook his head too, “It’s my fault hyung! I told her to never show up in front of me again! And she’s such a papbo that she always does everything I said!” he started to sob again

Leeteuk hugged him tightly, giving him support, they  were sobbing in each other arms…

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Ji-hoon was heading out from the library when he received the call from Siwon.

“I’m sorry hyung, I don’t think I’ll go to the gym anymore” he said quickly

“I’m busy, can we just end this call?” he said, he’s been avoiding Siwon, he doesn’t want him to ask about Nana or it could be that Nana wanted to talk to him, but he wasn’t ready!

“JiHoon-ah, there’s something important that I need to tell you about Nana” Siwon said

“I don’t think I’ll be interested…” he cut him before he finished speaking

“Jihoon-ahhhhh, she’s in the hospital” Siwon said quickly before Jihoon hang up the call

“Ho… Hospital?” Jihoon felt as if he was just smashed by a car

“She…. She contracted with pneumonia, she hasn’t regain conscious yet…. The doctor said that she’s still in critical condition….Jihoon-ah” he said

Jihoon dropped his phone..

“Never shows up in front of me again! I’m sick having to see you every day” The words ringing in his head… the last words he told her…

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There’s nothing really change in the past 2 days, the member finally went home except Kyuhyun… Her fever hasn’t gone down…  She becomes weaker as the day passed….  Kyuhyun never leave her side… he talked to her a lot… he told her every minute he can that he loves her…  Things that they would do once she got better, he wanted to take her for a honeymoon trip, just the two of them…

Kyuhyun was forced to leave Nana when there’s a concert that he need to attend, and because it’s his solo performance, he couldn’t pass it to other member… He left her with very heavy steps.. He doesn’t feel good leaving her just like that… but he man up and do what he’s supposed to do…

He couldn’t really concentrate but he tried his best to sing.. It’s only 1 song, so he was able to leave really quickly… he told his manager that he won’t do any schedule for the next couple of days.. He run back to the hospital as he has a bad feeling..

He went in to her bed in ICU………..

He couldn’t find her in her bed… !!! His heart just stopped, he was shocked and frustrated…

“Where….. where’s my wife?” he grabbed one of the nurses harshly

The nurse looked at him, terrified, “A….. a….. her family came from the States and insisted that they’ll fly her to the US to get a better treatment” she said

Kyuhyun dropped on his knees…. He lost her… 

THANK YOU!!!!! Sorry it took me a long time to up date... just started my clinical rotation in the hospital... things get bussy^^