Day 1 after Jeongyeon’s death.

Now is the new morning... I couldn’t get up from my bed, all the members too, not because I don’t want to wake up from my sleep which i didn’t get at all since we’re home but it’s hard to face the day realizing someone among us isn’t here anymore.

Even before 24 hours, I missed you already.

Day 6 after Jeongyeon’s death.

Congratulations, Jeongyeon. Really congratulations. Your leaving makes me couldn’t focus on doing anything for the past week. Your silhouette kept shadowing my day, each day since you’re no longer here.

What are you doing there?

How are you there?

Why you could be so fine even without us there? Without me?

Day 23 after Jeongyeon’s death.

Now there’s no one who will bring us patbingsoo and tteokpokki anymore. I’m tired, Jeongyeon. I need something fresh. I need someone fresh.

Day 47 after Jeongyeon’s death.

We’re shooting for sport apparel now. You used to like sport, Jeongyeon. I still remember how I couldn’t stop admiring you while you’re so cool at playing basketball beautifully.

I hate basketball now.

I hate how I wish the one I’m seeing on the court is you.

Day 61 after Jeongyeon’s death.

Two months since you left us... Do you know we just released a new single, Jeongyeon? That song is dedicated for you. I don’t want to remember the day we did the recording but, yes, I’m crying out loud. I’m singing it but it feels like I’m talking to you.

Because I really want you to comeback, Jeongyeon.

I want to say sorry. Million sorry.

I want you to know I’m thankful to be your friend.

I want to tell you, we could be more than a ‘friend’...

Only if you’re still here with me, Jeongyeon.

Day 77 after Jeongyeon’s death.

Members seem getting their courage again now, they’re all starting to smile again. Not only on stage, well we’re forced to smile whenever we’re on camera, but also in our daily activities. You can see this, right, Jeongyeon? I know you can. You’re always there, watching us from a far. I know you so well, Jeongyeon. Can you see me smiling by now? Please say yes. Even though you can’t see my smile, please just say yes. Even thought I’m not really smiling, please say yes.

Day 89 after Jeongyeon’s death.

Jeongyeon!!

Day 96 after Jeongyeon’s death.

Jeongyeon...

Jeongyeon?

Where are you?

Why do I feel like you’re