When you finally give up and acknowledge after all these years the fact you are gay and in love with your best friend is freaking you out. You manage to act normal but your inside is in turmoil. You know the fact she is in love with somebody else’s and that’s a bummer. Now you’re besides her trying to console her being broken hearted as she found out her love will have to serve the army. You got no choice but to listen to all of her dramas and kept wiping tears away. You want to kiss her red nose that you find cute but you can’t. This is already killing you inside the fact she will never be yours. You want to run away but at the same time you wanted to be beside her and be there for her. How pathetic you think. You are helpless and then she asked you are you listening to her. You have this blank look and you just nodded. You told her 2 years is short and in no time he will be back. You even suggested that you will go with her to visit him. Lame, you said that but your heart felt being pricked by a sharp object. You think you are now a masochist, you like being in pain just to see her smile and happy. You are helpless but you can’t help it. You smiled and tucked her hair. She looks beautiful even crying you thought. Nah, she is always beautiful and stunning in your eyes. She puffed her cheeks, she looks like a chipmunk. You can’t help but to pinch her adorable cheeks. Her eyes shot you daggers for pinching it and you can’t help but laugh. You prot