I guess they think I’m happy because I’m smiling
Although my heart, my true feelings is still you

I’m losing my mind the more I stay here with Chen and his men, good thing there is Ahjumma who was assigned to look after me, at least there is still a sane one that I can talk to; Ahjumma is fixing the bow of my dress at the back, Chen always want me dolled up, its like I living with the life I use to have despite I was captive and kept miles away from my father, I eat the food that I was accustom to but the difference is even though I eat with somebody I still feel lonely; I, eating with Chen every meal in his long luxurious marble made table; guarded by his men while Ahjumma standing behind my seat and assist me like a baby whenever I need something, Chen doesn’t look at me or at least strike a conversation, its always me who took the initiative but he always shutting me off, the rest of my stay and eating meals, only the clings and clangs of silverwares are all just heard, He is not the Chen that I once knew as my bodyguard that I treated like a real friend despite of our differences

And here I am again, waiting for him to at least have an accidental glance at me once but he was busy with his sumptuous meal, I silently put down my spoon and wiped my mouth with the napkin I’m using and latter put it beside the plate with the food that I barely touch, I pushed back my chair and it cause a screeching sound that I knew Chen heard but never bother to take notice, I stood up and take my last look with the cold hearted man far away across from me, I feel lonely and knew him for a short period of time as my bodyguard give me the feeling that I and him somehow had a connection with each other but him treated me like a real hostage with an invisible string tie tight on my wrist

“That’s right Chen, You don’t even have the guts to look at me, Why? Does your conscience hit you or do you have any?” I mocked him and with this trying to have a bickering conversation with him

But he mimicked my actions earlier and sadly he still doesn't even look at me, He just left with his men tailing him and I didn’t realized I started to tear, being ignored by him all over again

Days passed and my relationship with Chen became worse, He was busier with his operation in Germany, him and his men were busy planning to attack the opposing mafia, they were too busy for their own comfort and I took the chance and try to escape from the hands of my kidnapper

I planned this for God’s know how long until the time I am here, I got the bunch of keys that Ahjumma has, I noticed she had a car key, her own car parked at the very back of the mansion near the lake where we visited once, I run as fast as I could; my long dressed trailing beneath the grass ground rustling against it, I must not waste anytime, this is my only chance

After I made a dead run, I almost got where the car parked is, I smiled knowing that I still have a chance to go back to my father alive , safe and sound; I wished.

I hurriedly went inside and revved up the car, I don’t know where to go but I’m praying that God will be on my side because when Chen found out, I know he may kill me as soon as he laid his hands on me, My hands on the steering wheel are fixed, As my eyes wandered where would the car brought me, the stupid mistake of mine is I don’t even know where I was, I was at Chen’s own dungeon and slowly the hope in me to escape slowly fades away

Then I heard cars, lots of cars honking behind me, this is where the scariest part, the part when Chen knew my sweet escape, I revved up and drive the car faster as I could but to my dismay I was cornered and sandwich 6 feet away between two cars, drove by XiuMin and D.O and another car bumping me from behind with one of Chen’s men of course, I leveled up the gear and hit the gas harder causing my car to screech louder against the muddy ground once more; where I’m having a deathly drag race with my own death, I didn’t noticed that the  road I was reaching is already the dead end and my death bed is by falling off the cliff, I tried to stop the car when it hit me but the breaks broke, it cause me to panic a bit, I tried to unbuckled my seatbelt but my hand was trembling, my tears escape from my eyes as I waited for my painful death and will sure turned myself into ashes once the car blew up, I closed my eyes and my life replayed in my mind from the memory I had as a kid until I met Chen

Chen, the last person i gave my trust and respect, believing that he will protect me but turn out to be the first one to hurt me in my own mere fairytale

A car hit my left side causing my own one to made a sharp turned and blocked me from throwing off the cliff, the car hit me stopped at my side, the impact cause my body to have a great shook and my head cause to bumped on the dashboard as I was showered with shuttered glasses

I looked at my side when I saw the other car’s door opened and it revealed Chen, Chen is the one who saved me, No let me rephrase that the one who stopped me from escaping and now will put me back to my own tower making me again as the damsel in distress, As I watching him walking around, his eyes are angry, he was beyond furious, He opened the passenger's seat of the car I occupying harshly, He unbuckled my be