Chapter 7: I wish you well and thank you for sharing this. Makes me wish my most precious friend(family but she obviously doesn`t feel the same) could at least try to understand and support me just by being there. She`s gone though. I see her every other day for a little and we laugh and stuff but she is gone. I`m leaving for uni in 2-3 months. I don`t know if I can "get over" it, her. I love her in all ways, including romantically/ually whatever, but most of all she is the most precious person for me and she left me, blaming me when all I did was withdraw because she didn`t really care. After 12,5 years. Thanks. And a bunch(ton) of other crazy and maddening stuff happened during the last three years and I`m left struggling not to break down or freak out. Gonna find some friend/s(just anyone I can have a mind connection with, really) and if it doesn`t work I hope I will still be up for going to a psychiatrist and not in the pit of depression. Tried the psychologist, can`t do more than this. Sorry for writing my summary, better and easier than diary to comment on stories like this. Good luck!