Jeongyeon’s POV

I opened my eyes slowly ‘Am I dead?’ the only thing that came to my mind … yes I threw myself from the bridge… the cold air that was touching my skin while I am falling was the only thing I remembered and the way I drowned into the water … the dark water … I was letting myself drawn , everything was coming to my mind like a flashback… and I lost my sight

But I realized now that I didn’t die , I looked at my right and saw the serum connected to my hand and there is the sound of the heart beat monitor , I saw someone coming into my room … someone I didn’t expect at all .. I stood up immediately while looking at him in shock

“What the are you doing here?” I asked

“Hyung calm down, you can’t-“

“I SAID WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?” I yelled at tao , who was wearing a white robe putting a black specs , he slowly removed them and put them in his pocket and locked the door

I got up and removed the serum from my hand roughly and walked to him , I pinned him against the wall while holding his shirt collar

“Hyung calm down ! I saved your life” he said

“I hope you didn’t! I hope you let me die instead of saving my life and making me thankful to you”

“no you have to be alive! We deserve to be dead “ he replied ‘not you’ he thought

“I KNOW! That’s why I committed suicide “

“YOU WERE DEAD WHEN YOU CAME I DID EVERYTHING TO SAVE YOU!” he yelled at me

“WHY?” I yelled back

He pushed me away and fixed his shirt and robe “it’s just , because you were always a good hyung to me”

I glared at him and he looked back at me “hyung I feel disgust of myself , I hate myself just like you”

I looked away and gritted on my teeth

“momo did-“ he didn’t have a chance to continue his words I pinned him again against the wall and choked him 

"Don't say her name" i said angrily

His face turned red and he pulled off my hand

“she didn’t deserve what we did, I was the third one that her “ he said “And you were the fourth”

“I DIDN’T TOUCH HER!” I yelled

“YES YOU DID!” he yelled back … tell me the lie i refuse to believe

I rubbed my face with both hands “fine let’s say that I her , I can’t sleep or even eat well since that day ! but the three of you are living your life normally!”

“I am not ! I swear hyung ! “

I looked into his eyes and saw him getting teary eyed … tao was always different he was like my young brother and I always took care of him .. I loved him the most …

I turned my face “leave the hospital so they won’t see you , I will tell them to call mikyung noona she must be worried about me “

“hyung can you apologize to her?”

“tao leave before I kill you” I said

He nodded and left my room .. I sat on my bed … the nurses came and re-put the serum on me

I rested my back on the headboard and I saw mikyung unnie coming into my room along with mina and chaeyoung

“noona I