K.SJ POV

I'm in love whit my member and I have a hanahaki diase because of him. The person who I'm in love is Jeon JungKook. I now. I'm a bad hyung. Oh yeah. I think you know who I am, but I will still tell you who I am. I'm Kim SeokJin. The oldest member, vocalist and visual of BTS. I'm in hospital right now... And my members are outside of this room. I fainted couple hours ago at dance practice, but I woke up sometime ago.

I think JungKook don't even care if something happens to me, because he is the colden maknae so why would he? I'm just a worthless hyung of his. But I still wanna die while loving him... Maybe while he know's that I love him. Just maybe. I don't know yet.

Oh yeah! You must have been wondering how long I have loved JungKook right? Well I don't now either. Maybe from that time when we were about a month before our depute I noticed the feelings that I have. But I though it was a brotherly love, but... After Blood Sweat and Tears consept I started to chough flower petals. HoSeok noticed me choughing them. I lied him that I had put them in my mouth and acted. And he belived it. I still feel bad for lying him. I heard knoking.

Ugh... I need to tell them to come inside, before NamJoon brokes the door like last month... I tought while remembering that NamJoon broke my room door.

"Come i- *choughs*" I stared the flower petails in my hand and lap whit blood around the edges of them. I smiled bittery. Then I heard that someone opened the door and I looked who opened it.

"HYUNG! ARE YOU OKAY?" HoSeok asked in panick as he came closer me. When he was next to me I nodded towards the petals. He stared them in shock.

"H-hyung... You ha-have hana-hanahaki di-diase... Who is it?!" He watched me in teary eyes. I smiled tiredly as I watched the other members to walk inside.

"HoSeok why were you screaming... Jin Hyung..." Namjoon said as his eyes traveled down my lap. I smiled at them sleepily and bittery at the same time.

"Jin hyung..." it was the person why I was in the hospital.

"What is it JungKook?" I asked. I saw him getting closer and closer until he was right next to me. He took one of the pedails and watched it. It was baby pink from the tip of it fading to a midnight black.

"You... Who are you in love whit? Who is it from us? Only two of our members like black!" Jungkook stated angrily. I just keep staring him.

"JungKook... Y-you... Really wa-wanna now w-who I l-love?" I asked while shuttering my wo