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Group: NU'EST 

Ship: Minhyun x JR 

Plot: JR's anxiety and depression is getting worse, and his younger boyfriend, notices. 

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JR was a good leader, actually, good was a understatement. He took care of the members, always putting either Ren, Baekho, Minhyun or Aron first, or the group first; always putting himself last. His boyfriend, Minhyun, had noticed a long time ago, and they were all worried sick about their precious leader. They knew what was going on, and currently, he was not here at the dorm; he was in studio, only worrying his boyfriend and members more. 

Sitting in the studio, JR tried to actually get their album produced, trying to find on some lyrics. He thought over everything, and he thought, told himself; that he was okay, and there was nothing going on; it was just his brain that was going on. He was going to be fine, right? Yeah, he was. But the struggle to find just one ing lyric to write on the papir between his elbows, he swallowed and blinked away a tear that slipped down his cheek, sniffling. He sighed, and he wanted to cry; he felt like he was going insane, wishing his brain would stop with this. He let another tears slip, and they hit the papir, his phone vibrating in his pocket, seeing a text from his lover. He closed his eyes, reading the text as he layed his phone down on the table, sobbing lightly to himself. 

Baby, I have bought some food for you, and I'm on my way to check on you. I have a feeling you're not doing too good. Love you. 

He leaned his head back, not texting back. He put his head on the papir, his two words making his tears let go completely. Love you. Yeah, he knew he was loved; he knew it, he ing knew it. Minhyun loved him, their fans loved him, his family loved him, his friends and members loved him. He was loved, then why the hell did he feel like this? He sobbed as his brain bombed question after question in his head, and he only felt being choked by devil's hands as he sobbed on the papir. "Jonghyun? Baby!" JR looked up, and he broke down when he saw the younger composer running towards him, setting the bag of food down. Minhyun placed his hands under his thighs, lifting him as the rapper sobbed loudly into his neck, legs wrapping around his waist tightly, arms around his neck. Minhyun was the only one who ever saw their leader like this, no one had ever seen his like this (expect when he read the letter he had written to them a few years ago). Or else, he was the only who had seen him like this. He sat in the chair, letting the silver haired boy cry his heart out, as he tried to speak while crying. "JR, calm down, calm down baby. Tell me a little a time, what you're saying." He let the leader's head up, one hand on his cheek; the other on his back as he saw the tears rolling down his cheeks. "I.. Know I'm loved, I know I'm wanted; then the hell is my my-" he sobbed, and Minhyun pulled him back in, hugging him close, rocking him side to side. "We don't know baby, we don't know. We know it's not easy, but on thing we do know; your depression, is a shapeshifter between a flame and a bear. One day, it's the flame, and the other, it's the bear. And when it's the bear; we'll ao anything, I'll do anything to make it into the flame the next day. We all struggle mentally, but you, out of all of us, are worse than us. You take care of us, comfort us and make sure we release something with quality, wether it's variety shows, music, lyrics; everything, you do, you put everyone else but yourself  first. You are admireable for that, baby." He held the back of his head, as JR sobbed loudly, his shirt in his hand, tears running nonstop. 

Minhyun held him, knowing how to comfort him as he talked praising words, sweet-candy-like words as he felt the older start to relax. "Jonghyun-ah, listen here. It's okay, because you know what? I love you, and I will do anything to make you the happiest person alive. I will try and give you the world, when I can. You are the best leader, best boyfriend and an amazing, strong person." He cupped the sniffling leader's face in his hands, and pulling him closer, he kissed him softly and lovingly. JR sniffled against his lips, kissing back as Minhyun's hand found his, lacing their fingers together as they kissed. They pulled apart, and they locked eyes; and he knew, he was safe, and he was okay. He was gonna be okay in the end.