Never Getting Over You
Still Into You
11:11
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They were all hurt. The bond that seemed to be unbreakable reached it's vulnerable stage. It shocked the entire nation when 2 years ago, Jessica was reported to have departed from SNSD. It not only tore the fans apart, but also the girls who made inseparable bond and memories that could last a life time.
Despite all the beef surrounding SNSD and Jessica, Taeyeon still wanted to keep in touch with her. Now that the two of them have no more reason to meet and contact each other, Taeyeon's thirst for Jessica just got stronger. As if almost living with her for 10 years wasn't enough, she just can't get enough of her.
Taeyeon is sitting inside her waiting room. She stared at her reflection in the mirror. This year she's all alone. She's all by herself amongst a great deal of hoobaes and unfamiliar people. These days she's missing her noisy sisters, she's been attending end of year events by herself and it couldn't get any worse when she barely knows people except her label mates. Taeyeon was browsing in her phone gallery. Out of boredom she reached a deep end in her gallery. Photos with her is what she's staring right now. Group photos at Japan post-concert, selfies they took while sneaking out for quick coffe-muffin run, selfies they took in bed and just other random photos with her.
She thought she had deleted them all, after a fight with Tiffany who's acting like a crazy woman because Taeyeon kept insisting that Jessica hasn't left, that she just took a hiatus from the group to pursue personal endeavours. But Tiffany wasn't the crazy one, Taeyeon was. Tiffany was saying the right things all along. That she's gone, and there's low possibility of coming back.
She looked up on her phone browser, Taeyeon and Jessica and she was swarmed with photos of herself and Jessica together.
"Taeyeon-ssi, get ready. We're doing the opening stage soon and everyone has to come up for the shot."
The pd said politely as she closed her door after a mere chat with seemingly lifeless Taeyeon.
Taeyeon gained her composure back as she left her phone on her dressing table next to her personal belongings. She walked out of her waiting room, with smile flashed on her flawless, pale face to greet her juniors who have been adoring her for a long time.
She acted as if she had no problems. Smiled at the camera, greeted everyone and smiled at all faces she could possibly come across
Taeyeon watched the show as lively as she can, watched and cheered for other groups as they performed. Few performances before hers, she went back to her waiting room to get ready. She played 11:11 on repeat.
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Living as a singer, she must've sang a song at least a thousand times. But this one is seemingly different. This song reflected her feelings. Her thoughts, herself and everything about her.
She listened once more before going up to stage. She emotionally hummed na na na na na na na as she closed her eyes, drowning in to her own world while pulling out all the good things they used to do.
She heard the pd knock. "Taeyeon-ssi, standby please"
Taeyeon walked out of her waiting room, getting ready for her stage, finishing the sound and mic check. The pd was telling her of whereabouts she is standing on the stage, tucking in her earpiece as she walked out of the dark.
It’s 11:11
When there’s not much time left to the day
When we used to make wishes and laugh
Everything reminds me of you
The wind is as cold as the edge of your heart
When I open the window, you blow in
When this time passes
Will this break up be over?
Will I forget you?
Everything finds its place and leaves
You took all of me and left
But like the two hands of the clock in my heart
I keep lingering in the same place
Na na na na na na na
na na na na na na oh
Na na na na na na na na
I believe I will be over you
In the calendar
The date that we planned out long ago
If you forgot about it all
I guess I have to erase it
It won’t be a big deal after a while
Everything finds its place and leaves
You took all of me and left
But like the two hands of the clock in my heart
I keep lingering in the same place
Na na na na na na na
na na na na na na oh
Na na na na na na na na
I believe I will be over you
Like a strange flower that blooms in between seasons
Like the morning star that hangs between days
All of this, some day
Will pass
Everything finds its place and returns
If I finally smile as if nothing happened
Calling out your name
Won’t hurt as much as it does now
Na na na na na na na
na na na na na na oh
Na na na na na na na na
I believe I will be over you
Na na na na na na na
na na na na na na oh
Na na na na na na na na
I believe I will be over you
The dead silence of the crowd appreciating her chill, calm song soothe the seemingly nervous Taeyeon. The extreme lightning that focused on her blinded her, and she thought it was better. It was too bright that it seemed very dark. Pitch black dark. She sang as if she is listening to next to her, adoring the beauty as she once again sang in very calm manner that soothed the violent waves of the sea.
Her beautiful performance ended. It was the pacifier of the night, it calmed the violent waves of fans that were eager to see their idols. She wanted her. She wanted her to know that she is still waiting, despite Jessica who seemed to have moved on from her painful departure from the group that she dedicated more than half of her life to. The group who helped her think about what she wanted to be and what she really is. She seemed to have move on from the girls that she created a very strong bond with. She seemed to have moved on from Taeyeon who was there for her the whole time, the good and bad times.
Taeyeon left the stage with a lot of lingering emotions. It's been almost 2 years since she cut off her connection with the girls. It's been 2 years since she last stood with them, as 9 on the stage where they were dubbed as Nation's Girl Group. She walked to her waiting room, grabbed her phone and bravely messaged Jessica.
I miss you.
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I planned this to be a one shot but I feel like it'll be a good idea to write things on Jessica's side, maybe?
Tell me what you think please <3
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