Now. I need to do it now.

Procrastinate this moment, would have only granted me nearly zero more chances to succeed. Just like the mixed feeling of waiting the day before a date with your boyfriend or friends, nervous and excited, yet worried at the same time that they might back out at the last minute. I felt like they would have ditched our date with scripted and lame excuses If I had not grabbed that one first last chance. Sincerely speaking, I was legit tired and unwilling to end up in that eerie cell-like studio room one more day. One thing was to be another thing was to live. And I had enough of being purposely darkened by this void inside my chest. It was either time to lighten things up again or just end it already. 

Do or Die.