When the day grows old

Something feels empty

When we come back to that place

Something feels different

And I know what it is

It’s the sight of you

It’s the way you act with others

It’s the way you look at her

It’s the way how no one notices your pain

For her who isn’t yours

Alone and unvoiced, I want to help you

Alone and crying, I want to hug you

Alone and dreaming, I want to sleep next to you

But I can’t

I hear you say her name

She’s in your dreams

And you in mine

I leave you alone

But only for now

It hurts to hear your love

It hurts to see your love hurt you

I go to her

The one you love

The one that I call my friend

But is she really?

After what she had done to you

I can’t see her in the same way

Neither can you

But you love her regardless

I see her

I see a sheep

I see her

I see a demon

Both in one

We talk

We yell

We whisper

We cry

Now I know

But I can’t tell

No

She has to do it herself

I see you wake up to the cold reality

A reality too complicated for all of us

Why can’t you love me?

Why her?

Why?

But it doesn’t matter

You will always love h