If you asked me what would be the toughest part of falling in love with someone, I might answer: try to make the said person fall head over heels with you. Of course, if you aren’t sure if the person reciprocated your feelings. And that’s my case.

No one it’s prepared for a rejection, you know? Luckily I feel secure enough; I’m more excited than scared. At least he likes me in a friendly way, I thought smiling to myself. Jackson is one of those persons that everybody likes; he is nice, funny, sincere, lovely, charming, manly, talented, handsome… Ok, I think I should stop there, but really, who can hate him?

I snapped back to reality when I heard Yuju’s voice.

“Eunbi, you should smile more at his direction and initiate a conversation, don’t make yourself the difficult type” My friends nodded at her advice and I just could blink, twice, thrice and said.

“Got it”

Each tip that the girls advised to me were making me a little bit dizzy in some way. It was too much. Makeup, styled hair, feminine clothes, cute actions and laugh at everything he says.

Really?

I tilted my head to the side, seeing the girls got back again into business, doing a debugging in my wardrobe, looking for the best outfit for the next episode of Idol is best. Not like I could complain though, they are trying to help and I’m very grateful to them.

However, I couldn’t stop thinking that my best weapon is: be myself.

Your funny, beagle, boyish, sometimes cute, and talented self, Sinb, because why not?

 I nodded proud of my plan. Such a genius, Sinb.

But trying what my girls said wouldn’t hurt anybody, right? Right, so I decided to do a bit of everything.

And just like that I started to think about him, again, like always.

I wonder what Jackson is doing right now… Maybe practicing, doing a performance, at a fansign, maybe sleeping? Without realizing my mind wanders around all the moments we have had in that little segment of Weekly Idol that has gotten me to know him more and fall in love with him without realizing.

Like that one time when he danced around me when he made his entrance. I swear I was so flustered back then, and could only laugh at his antics while Dahyun and Heechul sunbaemin ‘protected’ me from him. It’s not like I wanted that exactly but we were on air, and we have an image to keep. At least I could catch his eyes for a moment, and now I remember what he made me feel in that moment. Butterflies in my stomach, knots forming on my chest, slightly flushed face, and nervous laugh, just like a person in love. Such a cheesy description, isn’t? But it was like that, nothing has changed since those days, only that now I can name it.

Love

Or am I being a little too much…? Maybe, but I don’t mind, I will realized about it along the way. Even if it’s painful, stressful, uncertain.

Also I remember when my girls and I were invited to the 5^th anniversary of Weekly Idol, alongside with other groups: TWICE, BTOB and GOT7. I remember clearly how Jackson shouted my name when we were making our entrance. He was looking at me the entire time. He raised his arms and called my name. I didn’t know what to do at the moment, for real; I was so surprised. I stared at him and couldn’t help but laugh and follow with the entrance ceremony.

He didn’t seem to care if everyone was looking at him, if there were cameras recording every single thing he did, if the other groups or s would misunderstand, if people would suspect something.

I seemed like he only could focus on me in that instant.

And now that I remembered all of this, I wonder, what does that all mean?

It’s not like he likes you, Eunbi… He is just friendly, I forced myself to think, to not make any illusion about his actions. I will try to decipher everything, even if I end up with a broken heart…

Suddenly, I was hearing a voice calling my name in the back of my mind, but I couldn’t recognize it until it shouted my name right in front of my face.

“Eunbi!” Yerin exclaimed, trying to grasp my attention. I flicked my eyes obfuscated. What in the world…

“What? What happened?” I asked her.

“I have been calling you for like 2 minutes, but you seemed so absorbed in your own world, what were you thinking?” She asked me looking at me with an amused glint in her eyes.

“Well…” I started but I was cut off by her question.

“Were you thinking about Mr. Charming Charisma?” I blushed at her question and all the girls laughed at my expression.

“N-No, why do you think that?” My face was glowing with embarrassment right now, like that wouldn’t state the obvious.

“Aw, our Eunbi is so in love” Said Eunha giggling.

“Ok, ok, let’s calm down” I pouted at them embarrassed “What do you have for me?” I smiled looking at the clothes they have in their hands.

Let’s get going with the plan!

Today we have the day off; it was a good thing until I couldn’t found what to do. I was lying on the couch surfing through some channels with BamBam and Mark, looking for something, anything to watch without falling asleep in the process. I swear, if I don’t find something entertaining, I’m going to die of boredom… I thought, yawning loudly, Mark and BamBam imitating me right after.

“Hyung, there is nothing on tv, let’s go out, please?” BamBam supplicated with a sleepy voice.

“Wait, let me search a bit more” I replied while pushing the button slowly till I saw something, or rather, someone that caught my attention immediately.

It was a presentation of no more and no less than Gfriend. They were performing to their latest song ‘Navillera’. Sharp and skilled moves accompanied their choreography along with clear and beautiful voices. They were all doing a great job. Somehow, I couldn’t help but focus only on their main dancer.

Sinb

It was impossible to me not to look at her gracious figure. Her moves have a graze worthy of her talent and practice. Not for nothing she is the main dancer of her group. She has this charisma that attracted me like a magnet. She is captivating, I thought, my eyes fixed on the screen.

“What’s wrong with him…?” I heard BamBam said to Mark, but it’s not like I could answer him in that moment.

“I’m not really sure” Muttered Mark confused.

The time seemed to be frozen to me, just looking at her expressions, her smile, her dance, hearing her beautiful voice. I felt like I was in some sort of trance. I felt how my lips were moving along with the song, humming lowly.

And suddenly everything was over. My bubble burst and I came back to reality. Wow… That was intense…

“Finally, you came back, are you ok?” Mark was looking at me suspiciously while grinning. That little , he knows…

“Hyung, you looked so dumb just now, you were like” BamBam imitated my face, doing a dumb expression. Mark laughed out loud and I stood up ready to punch BamBam.

“Ah, hyung! I’m sorry really” He cried while laughing loud.

“Show more respect to me, you little ” I laughed while ruffling his hair.

“But really dude, what was that? You didn’t even blink. You like them that much, hm?” Mark said and the grin was still remaining in his face.

“They are impressive, you have to admit it” I told them expecting to brush off the topic.

“Yeah, but it seems you were fixed on something else, hyung” BamBam said with a knowing smile.

“And you were singing along! Now, that’s weird” Mark remarked and BamBam nodded in agreement.

 “You two aren’t going to leave me alone until I said it, right?” I give them a look, waiting for their answer, which was pretty obvious.

“Yeah”

“Yes!”

I sighed given up. These boys…

“C’mon Jackson, you don’t trust us or what?” Said Mark calmly.

“Yeah! It’s not like you like one of them, right?” BamBam said.

I didn’t reply to them. I didn’t know what to say.

I opened my mouth, but closed it again. The seconds were passing and I could see how their eyes slowly started to widened in surprise. This is not how I planned to let them know that I like her…

“No way dude, you are kidding right?” Mark said in English, was he that shook? I think so. I suppressed a laugh at his statement.

“Omg, hyung, you like a girl! From Gfriend, omg!” By that moment BamBam was almost shouting the same thing over and over again. I hit my forehead with the palm of my hand and proceeced to shut his mouth up quickly.

“Shut up, idiot, the other ones will hear you” I shushed trying to shut his mouth with my hand.

Mark was sitting on the floor, looking in front of him, shocked. Apparently he is trying to process everything.

“But hyung, how can you want me to shut up with this news?” BamBam was rambling rapidly “You like a girl!“ He exclaimed maybe too loudly.

And soon I could hear footsteps coming near us. I’m so ed…

“Who likes who?” Youngjae popped out nowhere, looking like a curious puppy.

“What’s going on here?” Asked JB looking at us, trying to find an answer.  

I looked at my friends; they were all gathered around me, waiting for me to answer.

I think I don’t have a choice, eh?

“Fine, fine, I will tell you” I started; they all nodded motioning me to continue.

 “I like someone” I felt how the ambient suddenly was filled with anticipation. Nobody made a sound, nobody blinked, and they were holding their breath.

I took a deep breath and said with a small smile on my lips.

“Sinb from Gfriend” I dropped the bomb.

And all hell broke loose.

“WHAT?!” 

Hello! Chapter 4 here, guys, whoop whoop *imitates WinWin from NCT* Jk. This chapter is a bit more longer, how you requested :') I hope you like it. Huhuhu, Jackson finally admited out loud that he likes Sinb, now they have to make some kind of interaction, right? Well, that's coming soon n.n Thank you so much for suscribing and commeting! ;u; <3 You are all wonderful. Until next time, bye! 

~Mashu-chan