"Are you going to me and then throw me to the river?." i asked as his car stopped around a very silent and dark compound

"This is park you sill."Helaughed"Go first ill park the car."

       With a sigh,i step out and amaze on what i saw.  so his windows are tinted. the moon reflecting on the silent cool river, grass to sit on. stars. cold fresh breeze...ahhhh~~~

     I sat. one ruler away from the water,i removed my heels then gaze at the stars

           I wish love waslike stars...you be  can adore or focus on, without doing anything to be recognized. Ans it has break. theres always the sun and light to help.

     But i cant right? You'r giving you'r everything.yet you cant be happy. am i unsure? am i doubting? am i uncontented? or afraid? afraid to be hurt? afraid to hurt somebody? God. iam getting confused

"Are you cold?"He asked, sitting beside me

"Just abit." I emphasized, with my fingers

"Thanks" I said as he put his coat in my shoulders

"Welcome." He said the studied my expression for a while "Got a problem?."

I smiled then looked at the river

"Who will you choose?"I started "the one that you love, or the one who's loving you?."

Hae dosent now why but when sica said LovE. her picture came in his mind. and he hates to admit it. but sica's voice, sica's face, is hunting him. everyday. every night, is this what they called.. addiction?obssesion?

"Hmmm."He said "Let me think."

  For sure, as always, your going to choose the one who's loving you.

"The one that i love." i Stared at him, he's staring at me too, "wHY?" i asked. quite surprised

"Let's say, you want to buy an ipod." He started

"Okey?."

"Your on the 100th line and when its finally your turn. there stocks got emptied."

"And?."

"What will you do?."

"HMM. normally, youll seek for another shop right?."

"Of cource, some people will.."He smiled "But why would those 99 people, would wait for that shp? bEcause it's tested and gratified just like love

    If you'r willing to wait, the true happiness will come and stay depend on how you take care of it, But if you'r not and so eager to have him/her youll end up being crushed, because your the only one who's happy or maybe you havent got any chance to prove something with each other.."

"That's why it cause a heartbreak." i Added "I wish hell here that though."

"That's not for him at all." this time he's sure. its not addiction nor obsession... its LOVE

i ,looked at him

"I fell inlove with a girl who love a guy,whom the guy had his eyes set on a certain girl." Hae suddenly felt his chest become heavy. pain. It hurts.

"Dont look at me like that." He chuckeld. "You KNow who is it."

"Iam sorry." I said ,he pulled me, iam now leaning on his chest

I know. how it feels like. the jealousy. the pain.

"yOUR A good man."

"Dont say these kind of things."He said "If iam, you should have choose me over him."

"Believe me."I held his hand "I want to."

    then i look up again.

"Ill wait."

"Your hurting yourself."

:Why? have you decided to gave up ?."

"nO.not yet." i sighed

"SEE?." he said.

"ITS BETTER TO GET HURT THAN GAVE UP WITHOUT DOING ANYTHING."

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