i'll post chapters randomly 

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i finished my classes and now the time for private lessons came, he was waiting in class when i looked for him "come to the front" i said still avoiding his gaze, i connected two tables and sat beside him "so lets review last year's stuff, did you maybe take a look" he shook his head, this time he was in his old pose but his hand was closed and his face was tilted

he stared at me waiting for something while i was lost in his stare, this tutoring is not going to work i thought and snapped back "okay then lets try translating stuff first" i noticed he wasn''t the type to talk a lot but listen "what are you looking at ?" i asked because of his quite stares "you" now that kind of answer was unexpected, as a teacher it disturbed me but as me it was very different 

"why ?" i continued asking, now i'm going to win .. he didn't seem frustrated though or move his gaze "because you're my teacher and you're going to explain stuff" you know at that second i realized what i did made no sense and was completely stupid, it's like he kept on shooting me until i lost a lifespan, i'm losing this game "don't look me look at the book" what was i even thinking 

"okay" he said annoyed and looked at his book, there went another lifespan he hates me, but did i want him to like me ? i already decided to not think about anything or crossing the limits, which would still do nothing because i mean in what world would he like me

i just translated the first parts and explained then he remembered the stuff he took and started explaining them to me to see if he was correct and used right words "isn't that the rule when you multiply everything and the overall number comes first and these stuff" he was so cute when he explained with his hands, i slapped myself and could see his expression, he was frightened 

"a bug .. there was a fly" he just sat there "anyway yeah you're right" i don't even know what he said but from hearing the first part i knew that i needed to study more, what if i was wrong .. i checked the book acting like i was just reading and he was actually right "let's take a break" i left the class

i left thinking about how i'm going to survive these classes that i don't even know when they're ending, he is fast so we'll probably end quickly ? i was good but i forgot everything, was i as good as him ? he was really smart and that was better, yet worst

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is it good ? until now ? should i change something ?