A/N: Ok! so really fast before you read this chapter, the next two chapters are the same events from the previous chapters but from Taehyung's prespective. i took out the quotes from hate in this so each section is only separated by lines instead. and sense it's Tae's perspective i've formatted a few things differently. ALSO!! There is alot more strong language and a suggestive scene in this chapter so uh.. yeah if you don't like that then i'm sorry. it's not necessarily rated, just sugestive. anyways i really hope you enjoy!!

[Rewrite Taehyung POV] 

I heard Jin sigh in our bedroom from my spot on the couch. It was time to clean again, and like always he let me out of it. I felt bad that I never helped, but honestly I just think I’d make the mess worse. I pulled my phone out when I heard him start shuffling around with a trash bag and moving back on forth between the kitchen and bedroom. Two missed calls and four texts, all from Jungkook. I deleted the missed calls notifications before looking at the texts.

From: Kookie

 ‘Hey ;)’

‘Can you come over 2night?’

‘Taetae?’

‘are you ignoring me Taetae?’

I frowned as I typed my response.

To: Kookie

‘no im not ignoring you and no im not coming over.’

‘also don’t call me Taetae, only Jin hyung can call me that.’

I quickly rejected him. I wanted to stop what was happening between he and I. It wasn’t right, and I hated the fact that I was letting it happen. I couldn’t stop the scowl from making its way onto my face while I stared at my phone, waiting for his response. I was so engrossed in my phone that I hadn’t noticed Jin come into the living room until he tapped my head. I jumped and quickly locked my phone hoping he hadn’t seen Jungkook’s messages.

“Hey Taetae, what’s with the face?” he asked a small smile playing on his lips. I blinked at him for a moment.

I shook my head and smiled at him to let him know that there wasn’t anything wrong. I watched as he plump lips pulled up into a smile of his own. God, I loved his smile.

“Well, I’m almost done cleaning the room, no help from you I might add.” I could tell he was joking. “I just need to vacuum.”

I nodded as I watched him turn and head to the hallway closet where we kept the vacuum cleaner. I felt the guilt of what I let happen with Jungkook start to build up quickly and my body moved to follow him without a plan.

“Jin-hyung” I called from a few feet behind him as I rubbed my upper arm. He turned to look at me, the guilt getting worse.

“Yeah?” I watched his eyebrows scrunch together. “What’s wrong Taetae?”

“I…” I paused to swallow my saliva. “I’m sorry.” I couldn’t bring myself to specify what I was sorry for. I was sorry for everything, for not cleaning, for being a sarcastic brat half the time, for Jungkook. Everything.

“Jeez it’s just cleaning Tae.” he laughed. “You do this every time, I don’t really mind anymore.”

‘It’s not just cleaning though!’ I thought as I nodded at him.

“Just… cleaning.” I swallowed “Just cleaning.”

I stayed at my spot at the end of the hallway, watching him take the vacuum into our room. I frowned, it wasn’t just cleaning. I wanted him to know I was sorry about more than just cleaning but I didn’t want to tell him about Kookie and me, I was scared he would leave me if I told him.

“Tae!” Jin’s voice suddenly called making me jump. I hurried to the bedroom wondering what made Jin call me. “Do you know who’s sock this is?” he asked holding up a plain white sock, the only color on the heel.

I felt my breath hitch. That was Jungkook’s sock, he must’ve left it when he was over yesterday. I was panicking slightly; I mean what was a supposed to say if he asked why it was there?

“Maybe it’s Jimin’s? O-or Jungkook’s. I had them over yesterday while you were at work.” I cursed myself for stuttering but he didn’t seem to notice. I began picking at a hangnail I had on my left hand.

“Really?” he didn’t seem that surprised.

“Yeah, but Jimin had to leave a little early so it was just me and Kookie for an hour or so.” I grimaced slightly at the memory of Jimin having to leave. I continued fiddling with the stupid hangnail, I guess it was a sort of nervous habit.

“Tell him he forgot his sock then.” He sighed slightly.

I nodded at him and turned to head to the bathroom.

“Tae.” He called quietly before I could make my move to actually leave. I turned back toward him with a smile.

“Yes hyung?” I answered with a grin. I’m not sure why I was smiling, probably just because I was talking to Jin.

“I love you.” He smiled back at me. I felt my smile begin to falter slightly.

“I love you too.” I answered quietly, my guilt not allowing me to meet his eyes.

He smiled widely at me until I left and walked into the restroom. I saw myself in the mirror and stopped to examine myself. Three hickeys were visible in the loose t-shirt I was wearing. I really loved the two light fading ones, but I had to scowl at the third that was a few shades darker than them. Jungkook and promised that Jin wouldn’t notice one extra with the amount that I already had. But I saw the way Jin looked at it every so often. Every time he looks at my neck I can feel my stomach drop and my guilt increase, but he never said anything about it. I wish he would just address it already; I can’t stand him just looking at me sadly anymore but I also can’t bring it up myself.

“What just happened?” Was the only thing going through my mind as I walked. “What the just happened?” I couldn’t process it.

I let my feet lead me where ever they wanted. I didn’t know where I was going, I didn’t care, I just wanted to know what just happened.  I didn’t understand. Did we just fight? Is that what happened? I stared blankly ahead of me as I tried to remember why I was walking away from my apartment.

We fought – that’s all I remember – Jin and I fought. Over what? Something really ing stupid.

I was going out to meet Jungkook for… yeah, it was going to the last time before I ended things between he and I. The only reason that it had been going on so long between us is because Jin was never there to stop me. He was always at work, and when he was home, he just let me go. It was actually kinda getting on my nerves at this point. His stupid over time was the only reason it started in the first ing place.

“Jin!” I called into the kitchen as I walked to the front door. “I’ll be back in a little while!”

“Where are you going?” he asked before I could open the door. I turned toward him, hope rising in my chest.

‘Is he going to actually stop me for once?’ I thought excitedly

“I’m gonna go hang with Jungkook for a while.” I tried to mask the anticipation in my voice.

“When will you be back?” he asked, I could hear distaste in his voice but I couldn’t figure out what for. 

‘STOP ME!’ my mind screamed at him as I crossed my arms over my chest.

“I don’t know.” I sighed “Why does it matter?”  There are so many reasons why it mattered. Why did I have to ask such a stupid question?

“I need to know if I’m making dinner for the two of us or if I’m dining alone.” He stated.

What the ? That’s the only reason he could come up with? I felt my head drop in disappointment and stared at the floor trying not to get too angry. He could have just stopped me. He should have just stopped me. My mouth tasted bitter.

“I don’t know Jin.” I repeated with a sigh.

“Just text me then.” His voice was as bitter as my tongue tasted. This was the last straw before I snapped. I started it, the stupid fight that had me walking without a destination in mind.

“Why are you like this?” I bit bitterly.

“What do you mean Tae?” he looked surprised.

“You ask where I’m going and then you become bitter and…” I took a breath through my nose. I had to stop where I was, I saw where this was going. I didn’t want a fight. “Never mind.”

“Don’t” He demanded. “Don’t stop there Tae, what do I do?” his voice was stern, I didn’t like it.

“It’s nothing.” I mumbled out. It was the only thing I could think of to stop the impending fight. I just wanted to leave it.

“Bull.” I jumped at his sudden language. He never cussed, ever. “What. Do. I. Do. Tae?” he snapped, his voice emphasizing every syllable. I couldn’t help but cower slightly. He was never like this.

“You become bitter and it’s like you stop caring.” I blurted the truth out, once I started I didn’t stop. “You never ask me to stay or tell me when to come back.” That’s literally all I wanted. I wanted him to tell me to stay. I wanted him to want me to come back. I wanted him to want me.

“I thought you would want a little freedom Tae.” I watched his smooth eyebrows furrow. “Do you want me to set a curfew? Do you want me to tell you not to go out? Do you want me to be a third parent? I didn’t think letting you live your life how you wanted to was a bad thing Tae.” He rambled.

I didn’t want him to be a third parent, but I did want him to care enough to not let me do the things I was doing. I wanted him to care.

“It’s not but” I had to take another breath to keep myself in control, I couldn’t start crying, not now. I paused trying to find the right phrase. “But neither is too much freedom.”

“I’m sorry for trusting you to be a responsible adult.” He snarled.

I was honestly shocked. We never fight, we were never like this. I couldn’t say anything in response. We stayed like that for while I remember. Neither of us could say anything. I stared at the floor, scared to meet his eyes.

“You’ve been spending a lot of time with Jungkook lately.” He broke the thick silence.

Of course he ing noticed. We weren’t really all that discreet, even though I wish we were. I didn’t want to spend so much time with the younger. I honestly didn’t. But I felt lonely, Jin was always, and I do mean always, at his office. Jungkook was at least there. As much as I wish it was Jin, Jungkook did help. I felt wanted with Jungkook around. No, I didn’t love him, my whole heart belonged to Jin. I shouldn’t have let it start, I should have just waited for Jin to come home. But he did SO MUCH over time.

“Yeah well,” I couldn’t hold back a scoff “You’ve been spending a lot of time at your office.” I just wanted him to be home with me.

“I’m sorry that I'm working so hard on providing a roof over your head and food on the table, while still leaving enough for whatever the hell you do." I couldn’t help but cringe at his tone.

Did he think that we needed that much money? Why the does he think that? All we need is each other. Having each other is the only thing that should matter, not money, not where we live, not even what other people think of us.

“We don’t need the extra money Jin.” I looked at him angrily.

“Says the one who spends most of it.” He said half way between a scoff and a laugh.

“WELL WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO JIN?” I couldn’t keep my voice down anymore. I didn’t know what do anymore, I just wanted it to stop. I just wanted Jin to hold me like he used to and for us to be happy.

“IF YOU DON’T LIKE ME WORKING SO MUCH THEN WHY DON’T YOU GET A JOB TAE?” he yelled back at me.

My eyes widened as I looked at him. I felt numb. He never yelled at me before.
I couldn’t get a job; my class schedule wouldn’t allow me to, he knew that. I saw regret flash through his eyes as soon as the sentence was out of his mouth. I watched him take a deep breath. I wanted to apologize.

“Jin I-“

“I think you should go Tae.” he cut me off. “Just for tonight, please.”

“Jin” I could only stare at him. I was so confused; I didn’t understand what he wanted.

“Tae, please.” He practically pleaded “Just get out.”

I was angry, sad, confused, and hurt. What the hell? I just wanted him to stop me from going, and yet there I was being kicked out for the night.

“Fine.” I didn’t show any emotion as I slammed our apartment door shut.

I felt tears prick the edges of eyes as I remembered the events that had brought me here. I felt my phone buzz in my pocket and I quickly pulled it out, hoping, really hoping that it was Jin.

My hopes were shattered again as I read a text from Jungkook.

From: Kookie
‘are you still coming?????’

My mind went blank. Jungkook can help, I told myself. Jungkook always helps when I’m lonely. I normally go to Jimin with all my problems but Jungkook can help. I was so ing sure Jungkook could help. I put my phone back in my pocket and ran as fast as my feet would take me to Jungkook’s house.

I arrived within five minutes, panting hard with a slight layer of sweat on my temple. I held the tears in my eyes back as I banged on the door. Jungkook answered almost immediately.

“V-hyung I thought you weren’t gonna co-“ I crashed my lips onto his before he could finish his sentence. He didn’t question it, and quickly kissed me back. I didn’t let him start gentle, I kissed him hard and rough wanting to feel something. I needed to feel something, anything. I saw quickly pulled into his house and pushed against the wall, I only had enough time to see the front door close before Jungkook attached his lips to my jaw.

This all felt so wrong. This wasn’t what I wanted to feel. Not this. This was wrong. I didn’t feel good, or wanted, or loved. I just felt wrong. I was so caught up in thinking how wrong all this was that I hadn’t even noticed that Jungkook had already added a hickey to the expanse of my neck.

I felt Jungkook leading me to the bed, I didn’t resist even though I wanted to. I felt my phone buzz in my pocket again.

“Kook” I tried to stop him “Kookie hold on.” He paused allowing me enough time to check the message.

From: <3 Jinnie-Hyung <3

 'I love you Tae. I'm sorry for what I said... I'll see you tomorrow.

           -love Jin <3’

I read it over and over. Jin apologized, and told me he loved me. I couldn’t hold the tears back any longer. They flowed down my face in a steady stream.

“Taehyungie” Jungkook whined “What’s wrong?”

I could only shake my head at Jungkook while still staring down at my phone. I felt the youngers hand on my own, gently taking my phone from my grip. I tried to get it back, but he simply held it farther away.

“You don’t need to have this right now hyung.” He firmly stated putting my phone on the table a few feet from us.

“B-but Jin-hyung” I stammered out

“He isn’t here. I am.” He frowned at me.

“But”

“You can respond later Tae” he cut me off.

I let him have what he wanted, I knew I wouldn’t get my phone back until I gave in. It took hours before I finally got my phone back. I had to be fast before Jungkook changed his mind about being done.

To: <3 Jinnie-Hyung<3

‘I love you too -Taetae’

I typed quickly. Making sure that I at least spelled everything correctly and sent the message.

Jin sat stiffly beside me watching the TV quietly while I stared at my phone. Jungkook was texting me, and he would NOT take no for an answer. I had been arguing with the kid for almost ten minutes about how I didn’t want to come over. All I wanted was to stay with Jin, though that was kinda hard considering we haven’t had an actual proper ing conversation sense our fight. It was awkward, not the normal cute awkward that came with Jin that put me at ease. No it was the awkward that made it hard to breath and made you all fidgety and uncomfortable. My phone was the only thing that eased my awkwardness but Jeon Jung-ing-kook was pissing me off way too much. I sighed a locked my phone, placing it on the coffee table away from me, choosing to ignore the younger for the rest of the night.

“Tae.” Jin called next to me, sounding oddly distant.

“Yeah?” I asked softly, scared that if I responded louder he’d stop talking.

“What happened?” he asked

I felt my stomach drop as he asked the question. I didn’t want to answer. I didn’t want to have this conversation yet. I was scared.

“What do you mean ‘what happened’ Jin?” I played dumb. “What happened to what?”

“Us” he croaked. I could tell this was hard on him, but I wasn’t ready for this conversation.

His question made the whole room seem to still, I could barely breath. My hands were getting clammy and I just wanted out. I could see he was holding his breath, waiting for my response. I bit my lip trying to think of something to say. I only released it when I started to taste iron.

“I don’t know what you mean Jin.” I said finally. “Nothing happened to us.”

I felt his eyes on me. Not moving, not blinking, not saying anything. It made me nervous. I turned to face him again.

“Nothing happened to us.” I said again with more conviction “We’re fine Jin.”

“Tae…” I heard him sigh. “Something happened, we’re not the same.”

“We’re fine Jin.” I frowned at him “It’s just a rough patch.”

“Tae…”

“It’s late Jin.” I cut him off. I had to stop this conversation. “Let’s just go to bed.”

I couldn’t take it anymore.

“Hyung” I called from the kitchen “Can we talk?” I asked carefully.

“I don’t know Tae.” I heard him shifting in the living room “Can we talk? Or are we gonna get into another argument?” his voice was getting louder, I’m guessing he was coming to the kitchen to talk.

“Jin.” I sighed when I saw him “I don’t like this.”

“I don’t either.” I watched him lean against the counter top and cross his arms. “What are we even fighting about?” he asked quietly.

“I don’t know!” I could feel tears pricking at my eyes again. Jin was always better at holding his emotions in than I was, but he still looked ing terrible, I could see the shine of tears in his eyes as well.

“Maybe we just need a little time apart, Tae” he sighed after a moment “Just a day or two. Then maybe we’ll be better.”

My whole body stiffened. I couldn’t breathe. I didn’t want to be apart from him. it didn’t matter if we argued, or fought, or whatever, as long as I was with him.

“Jin.” I choked out. “What are you saying?” I took a deep breath.

“Just a day.” I tried to defend “I need to be alone for a day”

“But…” I tried to argue.

“Tae. I can’t take the tension anymore. Leave me alone.” He looked at me with sad tired eyes. “Just for one day.”

I nodded and slowly walked to our room grabbing the back pack that had the things I planned to return to Jungkook in it. Then made my way to the front door, tears already rolling down my face.

“Jin Hyung” I sniffled as I grabbed the door knob.

“Yeah Tae?” his voice wavered, I could tell he was close to tears as well.

“I love you hyung.” My voice cracked as I looked at the floor, not wanting to let him see my tears.  

“I love you too.” He answered within seconds.

I could only nod as I opened the door and walked out without looking at him. I glanced up at him as I closed the door slowly. The only thing I saw was him holding tears back as he watched me go. 

A/N: Please don't forget to comment!! I really loved Reading what you guys had to say after the last chapter. i hope this chapter and the next explain a few things to you guys. i'm sorry that the  A/N at the beginning of the chapter was so long!! I love you all thank so much!