SIX MONTHS

sehun/suho | 1700+  words | pg | romance, angst, light fluff

How much can a person change over the course of six months, Sehun wonders, though what he is actually more concerned about is how much can Junmyeon change within that time?

He hasn't seen Junmyeon much, neither personally - how could he when Junmyeon got a scholarship for a semester in Hongkong while he is stuck here? - nor online. They promised to skype often but with clashing schedules it's not easy. Apart from that, Junmyeon has always been rather busy with studies. If it weren't for meals and bed time, they probably wouldn't have spend much time bonding together. Not that Sehun would ever ask for more though, he isn't that kind of greedy person. He simply accepts it and hopes that Junmyeon will pay a bit more attention to him again once he is back in Seoul.

But what if spending half a year abroad has been enough for Junmyeon to re-evaluate their relationship? What if he thinks Sehun is undeserving of him now? After tall, Junmyeon is that smart kid with a bright future ahead while Sehun is just average, no, mediocre in everything he does, except for the fine art of photography. So what if Junmyeon has met someone cute and smart like himself overseas? Maybe that is why he hasn't heard much of his boyfriend.

"You're stupid," Jongin tells him when he shares his worries and concerns with his best friend. Sehun frowns. That's not the comfort he is seeking for.

"You know, Junmyeon is not the type of person to just leave someone like that."

"Right," Sehun says. He knows Junmyeon just as well as Jongin does since he basically grew up with both of them, what with Junmyeon being Jongin's older brother. "Junmyeon will wait to meet me in person to break up with me."

"You're hopeless and stupid," Jongin say and shakes his head. "Why don't you talk all this out with Junmyeon? Solve it between the two of you? If you only ever told Junmyeon what you want, he would give it to you right away. Please stop doubting him or his feelings for you."

But Sehun is not doubting Junmyeon. He is doubting if he himself is good enough for Junmyeon, that's all.





He's nervous. It's been almost a month since he has seen Junmyeon's face live through skype, and it's been two days since they last texted. Junmyeon has told him not to come pick him up at the airport, so Sehun didn't, although there's nothing he wants more than to do that. Actually, there are a lot of things he wants to do, but doesn't dare to, either because his boyfriend doesn't like them or because he assumes his boyfriend dislikes them. That's why he's never dared to initiate a kiss, never again after Junmyeon told him not now, Sehunnie, I'm busy.

Today though, things should be different. Sehun is very sure that today will be the end of everything, so he just wants to experience some more, wants to have the sweet romance he has always been dreaming of having with Junmyeon. If he can't have it for a lifetime later, then it would only be fair to have some of it now before it all crashes down.

Sehun is sitting in his usual spot in their usual place, a small coffee shop tucked away in a corner no one seems to pay much attention to. It's quiet there, that's why Junmyeon likes to meet up in this place. So they won't be disturbed, Sehun thought in the beginning, but now he knows it's so that Junmyeon can study while being with him. Of course, Sehun has never protested, though he has always wanted a sweet, romantic date. But, whatever Junmyeon wants, right? Sehun can't be selfish and be a hindrance to Junmyeon when in return, he has always received support and encouragement only.

"Hyung!" Sehun greets and gets up the moment he spots his boyfriend walking towards him. He's looking good, Sehun thinks. Hongkong must have been a nice change of air for him. He's looking fine and dapper in black slacks and that dress shirt, almost over dressed for Sehun in his simple jeans and tee combination. Junmyeon's hair is gelled back, too, a thing he's never done before, too busy with studies to pay