Jay's POV

It was hard for most guys in this world to shed real tears but my emotions were not at tough as how I am physically. She meant the entire world to me that I would not mind if I were to be called a cry baby for situation like this. I'm running out of ideas on how to persuade her back and only hoped that the song that I've just released could make her forgive my wrong doings and feel my sincerity by reading those meaningful lyrics. 

Every time I would have my eyes on the main door of my apartment having really high expectations that she will come back to me but unfotunately, having high hopes always never fails to end someone up with full of disappointment. Haiz.. As usual, I could not sleep and so I was lazing around on my comfy sofa and began to scroll through every pictures of her.

"You won't be able to for give me won't you? Why is it so hard for you to accept me back?" I talked to the photo

I think I'm on the verge of going insane to the point that I am already talking to a picture which obviously would not answer me back anyways. Suddenly, a sound distracted me for a while. I'm positive it was coming from the main door and so I looked at that direction. I was about to lift my up when I paused and took some time to think.

"Nah Jay, it's just your hallucination.Must be the neighbours. It's impossible that it's gonna be her," I assured myself after all of the fail assumptions I've gone through for the pass few days

I sat back down with my heart having a strong feeling that I should checked the main door. I'm getting so uneasy so but what if it's a disappointment again? So to play safe, I rather not. The thought of ignoring it was almost there went I heard a slightly softer sound from outside again.

"Gosh, should I really check it out? No Jay no, it's just your imagination. It happen to people who misses someone all the time. Don't think about it Jay...," I kept repeating but have eyes fixed on the door

SYASYA'S POV

Should I? I had been standing right before his door for almost 15 minutes right now, having a hard time contemplating whether to knock on the door or not. Everytime my knuckles was about to make contact with his door, fear would always be holding me back. UGH! Make up your mind for God sake Sya!

Legitly with no idea on how to react, I retrieved my phone from inside my bag and went to my contact list. I stopped scrolling upon seeing his name.

"Should I call first? Hmmm," I wondered

I pressed the call button but this stupid fear was attacking me so badly that I cancelled the call upon it's third ring. I was so frustrated at myself for being a coward when I did not realised my phone was not in a silent mode. With no confident in facing him yet, I turned around and walked a few steps when suddenly my ringtone blasted out loud.

I was extremely flabbergastered upon realising that I froze the moment I heard the sound of the door bang open. Oh CRAP!!! WHY OF ALL NOW??? Wow Syasya, you're such a genious! Brava!! I do not know whether I should thank that ringtone or cursed it.

"Babe? You came back?" he said with voice filled with relief and happiness at the same time

I continued walking when my hand was being tightly grabbed causing my steps to came to a halt.

"I know there must be a reason you came all the way here. Despite all the wrong doing I've presented to you, you're just going to walk out of my life just like that? You think it would do both of us good? I know I've committed several mistakes, I've broke your heart countless of times but honestly Sya, no matter how busy I am, how far I am from you, you've never once been forgotten by me. You're always on my mind, my love. Listen, I was so hooked up in my career to the point I've neglected you. I just want to redeem back my mistakes by proving to you that I'm never going to repeat it ever again. I know actions speak louder than words, but would you give me a second chance to prove it to you? Please?" he pleaded

His sayings made me reflect big time. Am I too harsh to him all this while? Am I that cruel? What's with me getting carried away by emotions? By him neglecting me upsets me but what saddens me more now was my selfishness towards him. Humans makes mistakes, I do make mistakes before so what was so hard for me to give in, allowing him to have that chance?

With full of guilt, I brought myself to face him fully. I've noticed he lost so much weight. Tears began to roll down my cheeks as I tend to think back about how harsh and I'm thankful that he was still being patient and was still holding on to me. His touch made me feel secure. He lifted up my chin and wipe off my tears.

"Love don't ride easy, and I agree it ain't always pretty but sometimes conflict tend to get us to develop a deeper understanding and mutual respect towards each other. I'm so sorry, truly sorry for breaking your heart alright? I still love you sweetheart, you're the precious girl to my life, how could I abandoned you just like that? *caressing her cheeks*," he told me

"Im so sorry Jay..tsk..tsk.. I was being selfish, I should have listen to your explanation..I..--," I was choked with tears that it was hard for me to speak 

"Come here princess," he called and gently, embraced me warmly, my hair dearly

"Shhh....enough talk ok? Whatever it is, I forgive you. I started this whole thing, I'm the one at fault dear. I'll never leave you alone ok? You're always in my heart, my mind especially my life. *kissed forehead*. You're everything to me and no one could take that away from me. Let's forgive and forget, start anew alright? Put the past behind us," he suggested

Relief flooded through my blood and a smile appeared widely on both our faces as were caress each other's faces.

"Only God knows how much I've missed you. I thought I never get to see you again and thank you for the song. It's nicely composed," I thanked him

"I nearly died without you by my side babe. Don't you ever disappear from me again, you here me? You're mine that's final hmph!" he raged playfully, crossing his arms pretending to be dramatically mad

That was so cute of him! It was rare to see him react this way. I chuckled and went closer to him, giving him a short peck on those seducing lips of his that I've been yearning for after a long time to kiss it. His eyes sparkled with joy but trying to be funny, he continued with his great acting skills. Hahaha, like I do not know his real intentions eh? I'm not that dumb, lol!

"Ok, promise I won't disappear anymore, hehehe," I giggled

"That's it? Just a peck on the lips? hmph!"

This time I leaned in closer to his body and gave him a slightly longer kiss and move away giving him a cheerful smile.

"Satisfied now? Heheh,"

"Nope! That's all you got? Huh? My lips are precious alright? It must be treated well," he disapproved

"Aiiish so annoying. You know what I am so tired and I have no time fo-----

I was unable to finish my sentence because half way through, he used his full strength to pull me towards his body and planted a long, i-miss-you kiss that felt like it had lasted for hours. Once satisfied, he parted his lips from mine but with our forehead still in touch and our nose nudged against each other lovingly.

"Thank you for accepting my apology. A girl like you is a must to be cherished, I'll always and will forever love you. No matter what happens, I'll be right here with you, we'll go through it together," he assured

"Love you too bae, forever, and for eternity,"  

~~~~~THE END~~~~~

Forgiving someone who have caused you so much pain in your life, I admit, it has got

to be the most difficult thing to do, especially when the pain they had caused you was still stinging within you.

It hurts, it hurts so badly when you want to move on but things which was associated with your past kept appearing more and more in front of you ain't it? For me, I take all that as a challenge to see how strong I could be. Honestly, it brought me to tears most of time, that got me crying secretly in silence when no one is around but I know God hears me. 

Anyways, every human being deserves chances to redeem their wrong doings. Everyone, including me had

experienced it before. It's too excruciating to handle it till it brought tears to our eyes, swollen feeling to our hearts and many more negative emotions that all of you could think of.

However, if ya'll were to think about it again, without forgiving there would be no peace. It's complicated to put aside those things they did, but everything comes with a price I believe. With your patience, endurance and strong willed to forget about the past. I believe something rewarding awaits you.

Of course, for those who have caused your life to be a crooked one, karma awaits them.

Apart from that, be thankful for those people who came into your life because it taught you that you shouldn't be

like them, taught you how to be stronger in dealing with challenges in life.

My advice to those who are facing hardships, have some faith that everything will be over soon. Stop dwelling on the past and be someone new and better for the benefit of yourself. It's difficult but it will be worth it by the end of the day. This world we are living in is only for a temporary moment, so let's make it a better place, and find true happiness for yourself by scrapping of negative people and thoughts from your life.

YOU DESERVE TRUE HAPPINESS FOR AS LONG AS YOU LIVE!

Quote: 
"people always change but the memories don't"
 

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