Gone
Fronting“Want to watch a movie after school?”
I his hair while watching him smile right before my eyes, “We are just coming back from our
runaway, don’t you feel tired?”
He shook his head, “As long as I’m with you, Noona.”
“Don’t act cute, Mingyu.”
“Don’t smile too much, Noona. You make my heart flutters.”
“Alright.”
“But, don’t you want to know whos’s the culprit?”
“The one who’s spreading the photo?”
He nodded, “I haven’t found, yet. but, do you want to know it once I found out?”
“Can you keep it as secret? I don’t want to know, because I don’t want to hate anybody.”
“But people are talking crap about you because of the scandal, don’t you want to show the culprit that
it’s wrong to do that?”
“No, I’m already used to it. Remember? I’ve been on this position more than you know. I don’t care about
anything.”
“Liar.” he played with the straw on his iced coffee americano, and I know how disappointed is him right
now. Mingyu wears his heart on his sleeves too much. “If you really don’t care, can you stop taking pills?”
“What are you talking about, I don’t understand.”
Mingyu’s expression changed into a serious one and his eyes were locked at mine like it’s going to make
a hole. “Stop lying, Ahri!” he finally yelled at me.
No, I can’t. And without answering him, I rushed to my class. I have to make sure that my ears won’t
hear those insults towards me, but everything happened just like that. I heard them saying about
how thick-skinned I am; dating Mingyu right after broke up with Wonwoo, kissing with Mingyu at
school, running away with him after the school found out everything, and coming back to school like
nothing happened before.
Those people sure know how to make me feel like a crap. I really hate this feeling, I really want to get
rid of it but I always failed. How could I live my life normally without this ty trauma? How? Can’t
I just live without thinking about what will people think about me? Because right now, they will talk
bad about me even when I laugh; or cry.
I really want to do something to protect myself, but I just can’t do anything. My palms would sweat,
my throat would be drained, and my brain would call out all the bad memories. I feel like my brain is
eating my heart. I’m really tired.
Suddenly a bread and a strawberry milk was being thrown to my desk, and when I looked up it was Mingyu,
saying: “You haven’t eat this morning.” and he walked out of my class just like that. Oh he’s still angry at me.
Seems like people already accepting Hana? Since she’s with her old friend already now. How an easy life
she has, everything’s getting better for her now that she doesn’t have to worried about her secret anymore
and her friends are with her again now.
I hope that I also have an easy life, though.
My smile was getting wide when I saw Mingyu waited for me in front of the gate, and he linked his fingers
on mine like what we always do. Maybe he already let our fight go? Oh, I hope that he will not talk about the
pills anymore now.
“Where are we going?”
“To the cinema.” he answered.
I was really tired, I’m not even lying. But everytime I saw his smile, everything seems to be refreshed
again. As long as I’m with him, everything is getting better. I really don’t want to lose him, and I hope
he feel the same.
After arguing what movie we should watch this time, finally we get to wait for the movie to start. Still
linking our fingers, and talking about anything like the world is ours. I’m really happy with him.
“Mingyu, I’m going to the toilet, wait for me here.”
There’s a familiar girl in front of me; she was washing her hands when she noticed me and smiled. “Ahri?”
she said.
“Seulgi?”
“How are you, Ahri?” she hugged me, and I hugged her back. Oh my God, she’s so kind. We are not that
close yet but for all this time, she always take a good care of me and Wonwoo. “How are things with Wonwoo?”
I looked to the ground, “I broke up with him.”
“So, he actually listened to me?”
“Yes, thank you anyway.”
“And, how is he now? Is he okay?”
“I don’t know, I really hope, though. Do you think Wonwoo will be okay?”
“Actually he is more fragile than you know, but I’m sure he will be okay as long as you are okay. If you are
hurt, then he will also be hurt, just saying. I was really happy when Hana said that Wonwoo had found you,
but when I saw you ran to save Mingyu meanwhile Wonwoo was also in a fight back then, I realized that
Wonwoo will be in the same situation.”
“Did you hate me for that?”
“I did not, because it’s your choice whatever it is, it must be the best for you two. That’s why I told him to let
you go, because when both of you couldn’t read the same page anymore, then the relationship would be
worthless, you know. He has to learn about letting someone go for the best.”
Mingyu was on his phone while waiting for me, with his hand on the pocket of his pants. He is so tall and
handsome that sometimes I really want to paint him beautifully. Yeah, someday, I will do it.
This kid is really unbelievable, for almost two hours he didn’t look at the screen but my face. I told him to
watch the movie but he didn’t listen to me and kept staring at my face. He made my blushed, and increasing
my heart beat, because I really loved it.
Still smiling, he walked me home and we separated after that. But I still remember what he had said to me:
“Remember that everything happened for a reason. You have me, Noona.” Yeah, thank you, God, for giving
me such a present like Kim Mingyu.
“How’s your friend’s condition?” My mom asked.
“Huh?”
“Your brother said that last night you couldn’t go home because you had to stay at your friend’s because
she was sick and she had nobody at home?”
Oh, I remembered that we lied about everything. “Yes, she’s getting better.”
“Next time if anything happened, call me, Ahri. Your brother has anything else to do. Understand?”
“But I can’t turn on my phone yesterday, it’s suddenly broken.”
And suddenly Mingyu’s is disappeared in the next day, and in the next day, and in the next day. He’s gone
for one, three, five, and even seven days. I can’t call him, he’s not in his house; and he is really nowhere to
be found.
Where in the world is Kim Mingyu? Hana doesn’t even want to talk with me anymore now that she already
got her friends back. I feel so lost, i feel like everything in the world would surely backstab me. What happened
to Mingyu?
I was going to drink my pills but suddenly someone stole it from me and threw it all. He hugged me, and
this hug is really familiar. Then I heard his voice and I’m sure he was not Mingyu.
“Cry if you really want to, you still have me, Ahri. You will always have me by your side even when the whole
world turns their back against you.”
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