Myungsoo's POV

There was no better saying than “Time heals wounds”. Well, maybe not healing completely, but it did heal a bit.  I am used to being best friend while loving Sungyeol. I have found out that I couldn’t stop loving him, no matter how hard I tried. So I just stop trying. Until someday, came this pretty little girl who approach me. Well, not little actually because she was older than me. But she has petite body, so I called her pretty little girl. I knew what her intention was, it was just so obvious. At first I ignored her advanced, because I didn’t see what a point being in a relationship with her, I am not even like her. But then she made it obvious what she was capable of. Her father had significant stock in Woollim and she kept mentioning it when she was with me. It amazed me how different she was with Sungyeol. I couldn’t help but comparing them because she was the one who want to be with me, while Sungyeol was the one I want to be with.

Firstly, she was a girl while Sungyeol was a boy. While they were both pretty, it was obvious that her prettiness was artificial, while Sungyeol was natural. Every single act she made, she obviously tried to showing herself off, while Sungyeol was like the epitome of humbleness. She was just sugar coating every little act she made that everything just seems fake, while Sungyeol being himself every other second. But what made me felt helpless was the fact that she truly wants to be with me, while Sungyeol already had someone by his side. Who was better than me, who deserve him, who had his heart. Their difference made me considered her, because I kept thinking that if I want to truly stop loving Sungyeol, maybe I need someone who was completely different from him. And she would stop bugging me and threatening me using his father influence. So I started to date her. I didn’t tell any of Infinite members, because I didn’t feel a need to. It was nice actually that I could averted my attention from Sungyeol.

That was why I didn’t even know that Sungyeol and Dongwoo have broken up. I never realize because they kept civil and close with each other. I failed to notice that they hardly holding hands anymore, even less kissing. They still hang out with each other, but the frequency kept lessening. I didn’t notice that little simple thing because my attention have preoccupied by my girlfriend. Somehow the rumors about my relationship began to spread. Even some of my fansites took a hiatuses. No one from my members approach me about the issues but the company. I told them the truth and I told them how I wish to reveal it. It would be no fair if I told a lies to my fans. But my company thought otherwise, they decided to keep it in the dark.

Sungyeol avoiding me just made everything worse like million times. My girlfriend kept distracting me by demanding this and that since the rumors, but I couldn’t help but wonder why Sungyeol avoiding me. I made a conclusion that maybe my company has told all of my members and he felt hurt because I never told him or something. But I miss my best friend and I needed him. I felt that my relationship was not worth his anger. I felt that he was so petty to make a big deal out of my relationship. We were supposed to be best friend. He had Dongwoo and he never told me directly when exactly they were together officially (I tried to ignore that the very reason why I angry with him was that he had Dongwoo, so why would he made a fuss If I have a partner? And I just miss him really really bad). So I tried to approach him (angrily just so you know). He kept trying to avoid me until I cornered him in our bedroom. He kept yelling how inconsiderate I am and tried to escape from me. I didn’t understand what he was yelling anymore until I felt a punch in my face. The punch made my head clearer. And I heard what he was yelling about then

“I am not worth your time, why would you tell me? I am just a mere band mates for you. Let’s just stop, it will spare your time! Please, just don’t talk to me for the time being”

And it did hit my nerves. It angered me how insecure he was with himself. What with he was not worth my time he was talking about? And why should I stop talking with him? It was just such nonsense. I couldn’t help but punch him back.

“I didn’t know what was wrong with you! Was it about me dating that girl? Why were you so worked up about that? Was it because I didn’t tell you? You were so childish Sungyeol!” and there I knew I said the wrong thing to be said. It was just some unspoken commitment between us not to call him childish. But I am so angry I couldn’t think straight.

“It was not because you didn’t tell me! It was… it was…” he looked so conflicted.

“What then? What was it that you are fussing about?” I snapped at him before I realized what I have done. He flinched and cowered in front of my eyes. I want to curse myself seeing him like that. Despite how he hated being childish, he hated being yelled at even more. His bottom lips start to tremble, and he bit his lips to stop it from trembling. I knew he held his tears so hard I felt like a scum of the earth. I just stay frozen in my place staring at him. He looked so hurt and I did it to him. And then Sunggyu entered to our bedroom.

“What happened? Why were you yelling? Sungyeol…?” I knew he saw our wounded lips. It felt like I could see how his brain rolled to analyze what happened. But then he looked at Sungyeol and he resorted to walk up to him, and brought Sungyeol out with him. I kept planted frozen in my place. What am I doing? After what felt like forever, Sunggyu came back to our bedroom and made me sit in my bed. He talked about something like he didn’t want other members to worry so he told me to not talk about what happened to other members, and he told me to let him know when I decided to talk about what happened. He told me to cool down and compose myself before solve everything with whatever was it between me and Sungyeol. I couldn’t think straight but I understood what he was talking about.

After he left me alone in my room, I began to wonder how Sungyeol was. Sunggyu calmed him down right? I left my room to see how Sungyeol was doing. And there he was with Dongwoo treating his wound in living room. He was fussing about how Sungyeol had to put hanger carefully so the hanger wouldn’t fell down on him. So I guess Sungyeol had made up a story about how he wounded his lips. Dongwoo saw me and fussing about how careless the both of me and Sungyeol were. He asked me to wait so he could treat my wound after Sungyeol. I tried to refuse him, but Sungjong beat me to it.

“I would treat his wound hyung, just treat Sungyeol hyung here okay?”

I could see from his expression he knew that Sungyeol lied about his wound. What am I expected? This was Sungjong. I could lie about anything and everything and he would still know the truth in the end. He brought me to another room (drag me honestly, I knew he treasure Sungyeol more than any other member even though he didn’t show it). He treated my wound (harshly, mind you) and asked what exactly happened quietly. I told Sungjong almost everything. He was the one to who I could always pour my problems with. I never told him about my feeling toward Sungyeol, but I knew that he knew, so sometimes I would talk to him about my dilemma. He knew that Dongwoo and Sungyeol were together so he knew what I was going through. One thing I didn’t told him was about my girlfriend, I never told him anything, I just didn’t feel the need to. I kept asking him about why Sungyeol mad at me? What was it if not because of how I didn’t tell him about my relationship (I knew that by now all of my members knew I had a girlfriend). Sungjong sat there quietly hearing my fussing. I knew he would talk after I had done my ranting. And talk he did.

“It really was not about you didn’t tell him hyung, he was not even angry with you. He just felt frustrated, that was why he was angry, angry to himself maybe. But surely, his frustration has something to do with you had a girlfriend”

“What were you talking about? Why would I have a girlfriend made him frustrated?” Sungjong stare at me hardly.

“You never told me anything about your girlfriend so I am not sure about your feeling to her. I thought she should be not that important for you if you didn’t bother to mention her at all. But how could she make you that blind? You were too preoccupied with her that you didn’t know?”

“What didn’t I know?”

“Sungyeol hyung and Dongwoo hyung have broken up”

What?

“They have broken up on a good term, mind you. I didn’t know how they decided to part ways. But I believe Dongwoo hyung is still very in love with Sungyeol hyung. I thought it was more about Dongwoo hyung let Sungyeol hyung go than anything. And why would he? Knowing Dongwoo hyung I could say that he must have done that for Sungyeol hyung than for himself”

I am so overwhelmed I could do nothing but hear him out.

“But then you went and got yourself a girlfriend. And now Sungyeol hyung frustrated. Couldn’t you see? On top of everything we have to know from the company and not from you” I knew Sungjong didn’t angry. But I could hear how disappointed he was. Deep down I felt like I knew what he was implying, but I just couldn’t bring myself to understand what he was talking about. But then he goes and stating what I am dreading to hear. What I was thought was impossible. What I was yearn yet dreading for at that moment.

“Sungyeol hyung loves you”.