Sungyeol POV

It was all good after that. The rumors still gave us a hard time, but after our conversation we had better understanding about the whole situation and it made everything easier. Now I could talk with Myungsoo again and he could tell me about his worries, I just felt so thankful. Sungjong asked me once if we had confessed to each other yet. I felt embarrassed when he asked about that because I still couldn’t sure yet about how Myungsoo felt. Sungjong kept assuring me that Myungsoo indeed love me too, but I couldn’t help but felt insecure and denied what he said. Deep down, I knew Sungjong never wrong, like never, could it make senses? But now I just want everything to keep flowing at it pace. We were there for each other again, and it was what matter for me now.

Thorough our world tour I heard some good news about my hyungs. I heard Sunggyu hyung and Woohyun hyung were together. I knew it. Woohyun hyung always liked Sunggyu hyung, better than me. I felt really happy for them. I never imagine that our couple ship would become reality. I did hope I would be together with Myungsoo, but being beside him again had already made me so happy. I couldn’t wish for more. Sometimes I wonder if Dongwoo hyung and Hoya would end up together. Dongwoo hyung was friendly with everyone so I am not sure how he felt toward Hoya. But considering how awkward Hoya was normally, Dongwoo  hyung really had a good relationship with him it seems. It pained me a bit imagining Dongwoo with someone else who was not me, but then I saw they were together and they looked so content with each other. I didn’t know how Dongwoo hyung looked besides me, but he was sure looked really happy besides Hoya. When I was together with Dongwoo hyung, I felt like I always receiving his love. But when I saw them, I understand that whatever their relationship meant to be, they build it together, and it looked so beautiful I couldn’t help but felt happy with them.

I asked Sungjong about them, and Sungjong said that they still had a really long way, but they will be together it seems. I thought I would feel a little sad imagining Dongwoo hyung together with someone, but I found out that Hoya was the only one I could imagine to stay beside Dongwoo hyung. I couldn’t found someone better than him. They were so different yet they completed each other. It couldn’t be more cliché than this. Woogyu and Yadong ended up together. If only I and Myungsoo could end up together too. Oh my God, just thinking about it made me felt so embarrassed. I didn’t know if it was a good sign. But lately we would hang up together and we would brush our hand and he would hold my hand.  He did it so casually I am too surprised to express how surprised I am. But then I felt how sweaty his palm became and I understand that he was just as nervous as I am. So I holded his hand back and we would end up holding hand until one of us needed to use said hand.

It happened again and again until we would hold hand in front of our member unconsciously. I am too oblivious to notice that they were noticing our holding-hand-thing. Until Sunggyu hyung came to me and Myungsoo (separately) to scold us about it. I am so embarrassed I tried my hardest not to welcome Myungsoo’s hand (he still tried to hold my hand, unconsciously it seems). In the end we reached silent agreement that we would hold hand if it was just the two of us, not even in front of our member. Somehow it made me thinking what the hell was going on. We were not even dating, but why would we did our-holding-hand-thing secretly? Like holding-hand was sin or something, we didn’t even kiss! And then it made me nervous. I am quite sure now that we liked each other. But I didn’t know what to do about it. I hope I could just confess but it sure hard as hell. We have not even finishing our world tour!

Today was the last day of our performance in Dubai. It will end our world tour before our encore concert in South Korea. Today I would appear again on Myungsoo’s performance. For now he knew about my appearance, and we discussed what would we do in advance. This performance felt so bittersweet for me. It made me remember about when I did it in Japan. I did it to surprise Myungsoo and I felt quiet accomplished that day, witnessing his shocked face and all. It somehow encouraged me more to confess that time. But then the scandal broke out not too long after that. It really broke me, and it had to happen right after I gain such confidence to confess. But this time it would all be different. Now I knew that Myungsoo was never in love with that girl. Too bad my appearance couldn’t be surprise anymore.

I actually thought that I wouldn’t felt nervous because I had done it once. Moreover we had discussed it beforehand. But no, I felt so nervous, even more than in Japan. I felt nervous because he knew I am here. And I knew we had decided that Myungsoo will try to kiss me and I would avoid him like madman. And I would throw the Teddy bear (that ungrateful doll, mind you, getting gazillion kisses from Myungsoo). My heart beating so fast I could hear its sound. We did everything smoothly, but I could feel how hot my face became. I am afraid our fans would notice how red my face right now. Right after the light died Myungsoo held my hand and we run to the backstage.

We smiled to each other and I felt so happy nothing could beat it. Oh how wrong I am because right at that moment our eyes met and I closed my eyes because I knew what will happen next. It lasted for maybe merely ten second. But our first kiss felt so perfect I wouldn’t change it any other way. We stare at each other after we detached our kiss, and I felt like we exchanged a thousand words with our eyes.

“There were a lot I want to say to you” I smiled at that.

“Me too” I tighten our holding hands.

We smiled and we walked together to our brother to finish our concert. We had a really long night ahead of us.

I found my best partner.

He was my mentor, my rival, my lover, and my best friend.

I am Lee Sungyeol, and my best partner is Kim Myungsoo.