It was the day he always dreaded. The day when everyone came together for a special event. Whether it was a race or a match between two college teams. Jonghyun was apart of his college sports team, hoping it would make his parents take notice of him but it always was no good. He couldn't compte with his step brother Minho. For that swimming race, he was going to find out what it really felt like to have someone believe in him.

Jonghyun rubbed his sweaty hand's together, slightly trembling with nerves, It was planned months ago yet the older was still a bag of nerves. Completely forgotten what he had planned to even say. Finally metting his lover's parent's could only result in being a complete disaster and a nightmare Jonghyun wanted to wake up from fast.

It was one of the most important days in Jonghyun's life yet he couldn't crack a smile when the sun shone through the thin blinds. It was the final's and his ruby team was facing another college team to win the trophy. How could he be happy when the love of his life and roommate hated him and seemed to avoid him at all cost. His roommate on the over hand was freaking out. He had to tell Jonghyun about his secret, he had to reveal why he had been so distant.

It had been a perfect hidden secret until they were caught holding hands in the park and feeding each other ice cream. Two young lover's torn apart by their families who hated one another completely. Eight months of pure torture and hell, not knowing if the other was alright. Will Jonghyun and Key ever find each other again and escape the place's they call hell.

Jonghyun loved Key with all his heart, he was just days away from proposing. He didn't expect to find the love of his life kissing his worst enemy at a party. His heart broken, he isn't sure if he can ever trust Key or if their relationship can be repiared.

Ten years on and the younger boy felt him self in the same situation from his very first time having a sleep over, this time it wasn't nightmare's or monsters that scared him, yet he could still rely and go to that special best friend he did before. This night however was going to cause their special bond to change completely.

For 37 years I have lived with regret and sorrow. For 37 years guilt has been eating me alive. I never meant to hurt you, I loved you and I still do love you. I didn't mean for that night to end the way it did. Can you ever forgive me even though you were in love with a monster.

Life is meant to be full of surprises and challanges and it never was supposed to be easy. For Jonghyun, his life has only been full of misery and hate. After years of abuse from parents and others around, he finds him self at his lowest with no one. Someone's lies get him locked up, losing the only person who meant something to him and his baby girl. All Jonghyun wishes is to be reunited with his boyfriend and daughter.

It was a typical lazy Thursday, finally the two lover's had the dorm to them selfs. Jonghyun and Key never had much time to spend together alone. The older had promised the younger tonight was just about them. Yet that damn stupid SM Superstar game seems to always come between them and Key is at his limit, Jonghyun is just asking for it.

It was rather funny how we met. I remember how I listened to his show every single night when he first became the radio host of Blue night. I had tuned in from the very first show and three years later I had won a chance to met the man that had made me fall in love with him, just by his deep, husky, sweet and gentle voice.

On stage Key was strong, confident and out going. Of stage he was shy, quiet and self concious, his biggest fear was losing his long term boyfriend Jonghyun, despite the older's loving words, Key coudn't help but worry some one would take the older away from him so Minho, Taemin and Onew step in to hatch a plan to prove to Key that Jonghyun mean's every single word.

It had not changed one bit since they had last set foot in the place they had first met. It was hard to believe all them years ago when Key was told he ws working in some dirty, stinky chip shop for work experience, he hated the idea. Yet it had turned out to be the best thing that ever happened to him. The first day he walked in there and set eyes on the young puppy like man was a day he would never forget.

Jonghyun was so excited, he had finally finished work and got his promotion he had worked so hard for. Just like every day, the puppy like man was excited to go and see his lover, best friend and husband again. Jonghyun was hoping his slightly younger husband will be proud of him, he had done it for the angel that always light's up his life.

It had been a long, drawn out six months. Six months of hell and pure torure. Not knowing if he was alright, still even close by. Days felt like weeks, they seemed to never end. The day he ran away was the worst day of Jonghyun's life. One minute his life was complete and the next it had gone just like that.Jonghyun just wanted him back. A day never passed where Jonghyun thought about him, he couldn't break down and cry, he had to be strong for his daughter Nari. The only question that Jonghy

I was like a nervous wreak walking up the stairs as the crowds applauded and shouted. I felt so sick and I wasn't sure what I was doing. I took one last look out as this was my last time seeing the out side word for a few weeks. The door's slid open and I stepped inside, nothing good can come from this can it?

It had been well over a year since a young boy named Jonghyun had started school. He had become an out cast and never fit in. Becoming quiet and closed up, sitting at the back of the class room and never going out to play. One Thursday, it all changed thanks to a young new boy arriving and Jonghyun could see the new kid going through what he did. Jonghyun's dream had come true, he finally had found the friend of his dreams.

Jonghyun remembered that day like it was just yesterday, The day he had seen the love of his life for the first time, that day had changed the puppy like man's life but for the good. He never believed the rumours until he saw that beautiful young boy with his very own eyes. He vowed to help him, protect him and show him the world can be full of laugher, happiness and love.

It had been three years since that fateful day that had caused Key's boyfriend to have become un able to walk or see, the strain that was put upon them was tough. Hearing Jonghyun feel so ashamed hurt the younger yet he never gave up, despite the awful looks he got and the nasty comment's asking if he was the older's carer. he loved Jonghyun more and could not be prouder to call the older his own.

Key touched the stone cold window lightlym delictae finger's caressing the see through barrier stopping him from reaching is boyfriend sitting behind the closed wooden door. He missed the older and just wanted to let the older know he was there, a smile or wave would just make his day a million times better.

It had been many long, drawn out years of nothing but emptiness and loneliness. Living in a world of nothing but sound and feeling, it was a life Jonghyun didn't want to continue living in. Who knew the voice of a stranger duing a visit to the park with his sister would change is life completely.

It was only a few days till christmas and the weather had taken a turn for the worst. Imagine the panic and freaking out Jonghyun, Taemin, Minho and Onew went through when Key's water breaks and goes in to labour at home.

A little six year old Key was experiencing his first ever sleep over with his bestest friends in the world, thing's just don't go right for the younger's first ever sleep over with a nightmare keeping him awake and scaring him, he knew only one person could make thing's alright again.

Key was an 18 year old, attending college and in his second year already, he had found the love of his life there and for the past 6 months it had been a secret, that Key was dating his teacher, 30 year old Jonghyun who was madly in love with the younger boy. Thing's are just perfect between them, that is until they are spotted and all hell breaks lose, can they survive the darkest time they are going to face?

It was one of the most loved days in the Kim house hold. A year of planning for a few hour's enjoyment. Halloween had always been something special, each year getting to go round and fill their bucket's with chocolate and sweeties. Although the best part wasn't about the sweet's for Minjee and Woojin, it was which parent had the better costume and this year the stakes are high. Will Jonghyun be able to top his rather random outfit from last year or will Key just even more.

It was the day of our anniversary and Jonghyun had disappeared. I had not seen him all day, even when he left the hotel this morning. All I got was a simple peak on the lips and he was gone with out a word. I felt hurt and my heart in tatter's. As I went to use the fridge I noticed a yellow sticky note, it was going to lead me to something that will change my life forever,

From when they were babies until now Jonghyun remember's all the moments he shared with his baby Bummie. From how their friendship grew stronger, the bond strenghtened and how their feeling's blossomed in to something very rare and  beautiful. Something they cherish and teasure every day.