"...Have you ever had this feeling where you just wanted to break out and cry? ...Well I did, many times, actually. Sometimes I wonder why I'm actually hoping and imagining shipping us together when I'll have no chance. I really wonder. Why do I have so much feelings for someone who doesn't even know of my existence? Why do I care and love someone so much even though I'll never have a chance to be with them? Oh, right.

The feeling of longing, yearning, emptiness, anxiety, and anguish...Why does this unbearable pain exist?  ...Yet maybe, just maybe, it's the feeling that pushes us through, the feeling that happens to occur right before a painful smile.