'Like the tides my heart is broken Like the wind my heart is shaking Like the smoke my love faded away It never erases like a tattoo I sigh deeply and the ground shakes My heart is full of dust   Yeah, I thought I wouldn’t be able to live even one day without you But from what was expected, I’m getting along quite well by myself You don’t answer anything as I cry out “I miss you” I hope for a vain expectation but now it’s useless....'

Based off of Big Bang's popular song Haru Haru- but in T.O.P's POV.

My Dear Jiyong, Jiyong, I'm sorry. By the time you are reading this letter, I will be long gone. I am diagnosed with cancer, Jiyong. I'm sorry that I can't keep my promise to stay by your side forever. I'm sorry that we cannot grow old and continue our journey together. And most of all, I am sorry for lying to you. I love you, Jiyong, not Seunghyun. This is all a plot, a plot to keep you from the truth. Ji, I do not want you to suffer the pain of losing me. I would rather you be an

    I loved him. I really do. Which is why I chose to suffer by myself. I rather have him hate me than have him distraught over something we both had no control over.