/reminded/

So. I don't know why I'm so bothered by the last oneshot I posted.

It's based on real life experiences and yeah, I might have dreamt again about him and thought about the past.

But.

I don't want to be reminded.

…

I'm sorry, if I bother you with this but I've like no-one that would listen to me if I'd tell them I'm thinking about him again.

Everyone said he's an (he really was one, I don't know if he changed) and even after 2 years I just can't forget and they don't understand it.

I feel really helpless right now.

My life really hates me.

/laughs at herself

My sister even saw him a few weeks ago.

She told me he was there on her friend's birthday party.

I really wanted to kill her. But I let her go and just said, "Oh, okay." because more was too much. I don't want to hear my heart breaking again.

And the fact, my sister has friends that are friends with him makes me want to throw up and die here and now.

Ugh.

Stupid life.

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Roochi #1 Jul 3, 2014 20:21:50

Don't be too hard on yourself. These things do happen; getting attached to someone (even if they're not good bcuz, sadly, we love with our hearts not with our minds).

But it's oKay. Healing takes time.
Eventually you do forgot and move on.
Now, it's okay if you can't completely forgot and get over him, do it in your own pace, take your sweet time, dear. Tell yourself: I'm not over him yet, but I will be.
I get that it's a hard task, getting over someone you truly loved- and I assume you really did love him hence you can't forgot about him despite him being a jerk. But, chingu have you noticed the use of the past tense? 'loved', 'did love'! (I assume and hope you don't love him anymore, bcu. clearly he doesnI deserve you) keep telling yourself it was all in the past and you deserve a better present.

It's okay if you don't want to have anything with him now, tell your sister to not mention him when you're around till you think you're ready, but you should expect that you might meet since your sister has mutual friends so you should be Strong ad act normal when that happens.

I don't know if that helped at all. But feel free to talk to me if you need someone and dont pressure yourself!

All my prayers to you dear~ <3

platinumbrain #2 Jul 3, 2014 20:06:17

You gotta remember that this is your life and it's too short to spend time on the past. You have to keep moving forward in life and embrace it. Embrace the freedom where no s are near you now. Life is stupid, but you have to key to making it awesome :)