hi guys. it's been some time, right? almost 2 months.. i can't believe how fast the time passes by when you're busy with school and rl..

i'm really sorry i couldn't end tbly yet. it's just i haven't touched the keyboard for writing on fics ever since i went on hiatus. the only times were in school when i had to work on some school stuff.

i've gotten many ideas for new stories, like really a lot, but i can't write. i'm so insecure about writing again. i feel like i've failed being an author. even though i want to write, there's always something pulling me back, getting me to think if i really want to write or not.

i'm really failing.

at least i'm doing good in school. and starting from monday i'll be working at a daycare for three weeks and i'm hella nervous but excited as well. wish me luck!

about writing, i'll think about it. i want to and will write but not now. maybe during my time working. i'll try my best. because i want to finish the things i've worked at and start stories i've wanted to extend from the very beginning and also i need to get all prompts done.

btw infinite came to germany (i live here) but i couldn't attend the concert. no money, no time, family issues. i feel like a bad fan. but they said they'll come back and they all seem to like german beer so i hope they'll visit us again and the next time i'm definitely going to see them. (mainly because an inspirit chingu is a fanboy and he told me that he and our friend (female) got stared at the whole time because of the fact that he's a fanboy. (a jongie fanboy at that! xD)

i envy them and am a little bit jealous but i'm happy they got to have a good time! like everyone else. i hope you'll get to see them, too! (if you want to see them, that's it! hahaha~)

well, do i want to talk more? do i have anything else to talk about? uh.. i was crushing on a girl omg so embarrassing but i'm over (sadly) and now i'm kinda crushing on a boy who's a grade above me.

but you know what's funny? i'm the class'  rep. me. seriously. just because i got one more vote than the two other boys. i was really shocked.

also, the friends i've made (if i can call some classmates friends) didn't believe i'm 19. they thought i'm 16 or 15. i was laughing at them but i know i look younger than i am~ and they always tell me i'm behaving like a kid, too, so how am i 19 again? what kiddos~

my class is the best btw. really. i'm really happy with my class. though i've some problems with one of them. (she's a *****. like she talks bad about me behind my back and snaps at me for no reason only because i've not the same opinion as her. but almost the whole class doesn't like her what i think is bad because i really liked her when the school started.. so sad.)

whatever.

that's it. thanks for listening. and while waiting, read my stories! i've a lot so go check'em out!!! ;-))))))))))))))

bye~

- hanie