so, i just started college not too long ago. met my roommate, found out she and i are almost the same, except our tastes in music. but then, she couldn't stay here at the college, so today she just left to go back to El Paso. so, im alone in the room, all her things are gone. and now, i found out that some people across the hall aren't getting along too well, and so i might get a new roommate or something, which i don't want. call me selfish, but i just don't want to be forced to be nice to someone and befriend them when i just lost my clostest friend here. im very antisocial with new situations and i would prefer to find and make friends by myself here because i just feel that you get a deeper connection with someone when you do it yourself. yes, it's lonely now, but i don't really feel alone. im sort of perfectly okay with being alone because thats how i am. im an only child and im not used to sharing a room. and unfortunately, this school is really pushing the 'let's create awkward situations for them so they can get closer!!'......it doesn't really work if you're like me.

bleh, i think im getting sick >.>

i knew a guy who would always talk about how he was being friendzoned by this girl he likes......the day before he moved, he told her that he liked her......and i knew that it was that girl he liked, but it didn't click with me. and now i feel stupid

everything is just f-ed up in the people i know....everything is mixed up, and nothing is staying the same. and i hate it. i wish things could go back to the way they were before when it was simple, but nope it can't and i know that.....

my classes are good.....my roommate (ex roommate?) and i sat with some random asian guy at lunch the other day and we started talking....found out he was a junior and from mongolia......i think he looks cute :3 he was sitting alone, so i just asked him if we could sit with him.... i told him about the other night...now he probably thinks im weird. lol whatever~

the other night: so we were sleeping (my roommate and i) and then suddenly, in my sleep i started to choke and i started coughing....she woke up and got me water and we went back to bed. the next morning, when we woke up, we both thought it was a dream.....

so i told him what happened, then i said, "If you don't see me around campus, then you know i died" he started laughing......then i noticed he had finished eating and was kindly waiting for us to finish before he left. Many times i told him, if you want to leave go ahead, we won't get mad or anything, but nope he didn't leave and was just waiting....d'aw he was so nice!!! XD