OKAY~

im going to be ranting about family first:

so, for the past week or so, i have had my cousin stay at my grandparents house with me so we can hang out before i leave to go back home (which is tomorrow). im always happy to have her with me even though we dont see eye to eye sometimes. one of the main reasons i get her with me is because she always has to take care of her 4 year old nephew, who i think, thinks that she is his sister because his real mom isn't here anymore (no, she didn't die, she kind of...abandoned him?) he calls his grandma, mom. but anyways, she has had migraines ever since she was little, her whole family (mom, dad, three sisters know this), but since the her nephew was born, she has to take care of him the most, because her other sisters dont want to because they kinda like to party and dont want to be brought down right now. this girl just turned 16 not too long ago, so she had to start taking care of a child like her own, when she was around 12 or so. she doesn't really get help from her family. and since the boy was born, her migraines have gotten so bad that she skips school and has missed over 10 days due to the migraines. and at her school, she is in a healthcare program there, and if you miss 7 days or more, you get kicked out of it. luckily, her dad said to not get her out of it. and so she is still there. she has had to move multiple times and the place she lives in now is crowded and messy because of all of their stuff from having a woman, and four girls live in one house, plus a new baby boy.
but when im here in NJ, i make sure to take her out of her house so she can do things without being tied down by the boy. i dont even think she gets a break during school. which frustrates me because she doesnt need any more stress in her life. so yeah, i made sure to have her here at the house more times this summer because its important for her not to be stressed out when she works hard.
also, soemtimes my cousin doesnt talk because she isnt feeling well, but my grandma doesnt understand that and she tries talking to her so i have to talk to her instead and i have to be the interpreter of this. and i know my grandma gets PO'd about it sometimes, but she doesnt understand what her feelings are and she doesnt really care too. my cousin gets awkward easily without someone she really wants to talk to (i.e., me) but my grandma tries to get her to talk and it gets on my nerves when she does, because my cousin has been like this for the longest time and she doesnt realize it at all. and everything about this family just pisses me off. my mom and dads side both. mainly my moms side, but this side is getting close up there on the list of things that piss me off. and by the way, my grandmother is starting to piss me off.

okay, moving on:

yesterday, my grandparents, my cousin and i went to NYC to go tour the library, and then around 4:30 we waited in line to go see Ice Age Continental Drift. before the movie started John Leguizamo (Sid), Keke Palmer (Peaches), Queen Latifah (Ellie), Ray Romano (Manny), and Aziz Ansari? (Squint) came and did a little Q&A. then they left. pretty good movie i must say. some singing but its good.

again, moving on:

instead of doing this, i have to do my placement exams for college.... TAT it doesnt seem that hard, but it takes awhile, after i post this i will finish them up. i just felt like i should do this before it gets away from me and i hide it in the back of my mind and it becomes something i dont want to see in the future.  today is my grandparents anniversary so we are going to dinner later. -.- i really dont want to go, but i have to be a good granddaughter and do what they want.

i guess i gotta go for now because i have to get all these different things done before i leave.

until next time,

~blazensaddles