Wow look at that, another rant coming your way. I warn you that this is personal, so beware.

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Well, I've been wearing make-up more frequently nowadays but it's not much - just some foundation and liquid eyeliner.  It started of as really nooby then became thicker and now to being fairly thin. That's as much make-up I wear, and it's only on two or three days when I'm not busy that I put it on. Recently - or for quite a while, I guess - my mother has been pestering me about her not liking my make-up. I didn't care at first because it was always her telling me that I needed to start taking care of my face more. And so I did. And when I do, she starts all her complaining. That woman can never be pleased. For the past few weeks she's been saying these things to me.

"I don't like your make-up."

"You're make-up makes you look sinket (chinky)."

And here comes the worst one.

"Stop wearing make-up like that, it makes you look ugly. You look nicer without it."

She actually has the nerve to say that to me?!

She's always the one telling me about how I should make myself more beautiful and all that crap. This woman even calls me fat and says "I'm not telling you this for me, but for you." She's the one saying that I'm too fat and that by the time I get older I won't fit into anything. Whenever we're at parties, and I go to a lot since she knows a lot of people, whenever she sees me getting my food - even if we just arrived - she'll publicly say "Don't eat too much." I actually take one helping and it's not even much. Half the time I don't even eat but just nibble on small foods at parties.

She actually feels like she's doing something for my benefit, and I get that she wants me to be healthy. But , you. I have to say that, and even though you're my mother, you. Because all that's in my thoughts nowadays is that "I can't eat that." I've even resided to eating the most in the morning - which is not a lot since I easily lose my appetite in the morning - lunch varies on what food they have in school and dinner will also vary but I usually refrain from eating too much. I'm not even ing obese! And yet I have now become self conscious because of her and I can no longer help it.

I just hope I can lose weight though, and prove to her that I can do it myself and not with her keeping food away from me.

I hate talking about this, but I felt the need to write it out or else I might confront her or yell at her or something.

That's all from me know, sorry for such a weird and personal rant.

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Peaches bruh

Aya