[Posted this up on my tumblr earlier in the morning. I thought I'd just share this with fellow BBCs and kpop fans in general.]

Well, I woke up now and it’s 5 am. I woke up this early again just to watch Block B’s new MV - Close My Eyes. I got 4 hours of sleep but I seriously do not regret it. I was listening to the song yesterday, and I died a little on the inside just hearing their voices.

So, onto the MV. When it started, I had to pause it first. I didn’t know how my heart could handle it, since it is  the first MV after the incident. Well, as soon as it started, I had my hand covering my mouth. I didn’t want to scream out considering the time. Just hearing the song again - even though I was listening to it before I went to sleep - their voices don’t fail to make my heart flutter. As I was watching, I had a smile on my face but by the part where they were all in their ‘Tell Me’ outfits for a photo-shoot, tears started falling down my face. I watched the whole thing through - trying not to look away even if my tears were continuously streaming down my cheeks. By the near end though, I couldn’t. I had to look away and actually sob - I missed them too much. And right when I was crying the part I was on was “Hey, girl, it’s okay.” It made me smile but it made me cry even more.

I re-watched the MV, the first replay I just sobbed as soon as I heard Jihoon’s voice. It always seems to hit me when they sing the chorus again at the end - it’s their voices. I can imagine them in the studio, recording, working hard and I just want to curl up into a ball because I don’t know what I’d do if they didn’t come out with this song. If they didn’t come back at all. But I’m glad they have. As you can guess, by the second replay, I couldn’t handle it. I began sobbing again and I actually couldn’t watch it anymore. So I thought it would be better if I just resided to listening to the audio, but even that made me cryagain. I don’t care though, my tears are happy tears. I’m just glad that I can hear their voices again.

As I write this, I’m listening to Close My Eyes. I took a minute to close my eyes and listen to it. The tears fell again but I didn’t care because I had to cherish this happy moment. I’ve finally stopped sobbing but there are still tears in my eyes.

Block B, I’m always gonna be a fan. No matter how old I get, even if I stop listening to K-POP, I’ll never forget the impact you left in my heart. I’ll never forget the countless times you all seem to make me laugh until I cry. I’ll never forget your music, so work hard and get everyone to know you guys by name! BBCs won’t ever leave you, we’ll stay through the thick and thin. You make us all proud, even if you guys made mistakes, we’re still proud of all of you. We look forward to the day when you guys win your first award, because, surely by then, we’ll all be crying.

우리는 사랑해요 블락비! ♥