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They said she was born to be a main vocalist. They said she is extremely good in singing. They said her voice is so beautiful.
But would they be able say that again once it is all gone?
No.
Just a typical in one of the practice rooms of JYP building, Hwang Jiho found herself soaked in sweat, musical sheets crumpled at the bottom of her feet and her phone blaring out a loud pop music, grasped tightly in her palm. It is just a typical voice practice that she usually did, singing and singing all night long until she felt a tingling pain in and her voice croaking. Dropping her phone in the ground, she knelt down as both of her trembling hands held . Looking at the terrified figure infront of the mirror, she shakily opened her lips and tried to sing.
Aside from the music from her phone, nothing came out.
Not even her voice.
The doctor said, her vocal cords were temporarily paralyzed, he said she had been improperly trained and because of strenuous strain from all of years of singing, she lost her voice. No sound would came out and even speaking would hurt. The doctor said, "You need to rest your voice or else you might not able to sing anymore." After that incident, she was deeply afraid, afraid that she might not able to sing anymore and afraid that the people who look up on her with smiles will turned into judgmental sneers. After a few months from leaving JYP officially, she auditioned to Pledis to join her childhood bestfriend, wherein the company only allowed her to train her dancing because of her vocal condition. It was very traumatic for her and also frustrating, from not able to sing. In order to maintain and prove to the management that she could be still a trainee despite of her inability to sing at that time, Jiho poured out all of her pent up emotions in dancing, spending most of her time sharpening her moves and perfecting the choreography, just to forget. Of course her efforts were not in vain, her fellow trainees and dance instructor would sing praises about how her dancing improved in just a short span of training. However, in that shortlived happiness will vanished once again she found herself alone in the practice room again, with no courage to sing.
When the doctor said that her vocal cords were all good, she thought it was the best news in her life. Never she have thought that the following words came after would ruined her hopes of dreaming her voice back again.
"Its all good but no singing high just like before, start over and forget everything or else you might permanently damaged your voice forever."
It was like a cold bucket of water was harshly poured on her, trying to put out all of her hopes within. How could she start over? Might as well dump her dreams of becoming an idol and start anew again. With the doctors recommendation, she started with voice therapy in order to condition her vocals and obtain a proper training in singing. She felt foreign and weird, from preparations to basics, she had already done it in the past, just as she realized, starting over means she have to start in the bottom again while her fellow trainees were all on the way towards their debut, and she was left out in the side. Just seeing them start their debut preparations, it was painful to the point she could not bear it. In the end, Jiho ended her trainee contract and didn't sign with any companies ever again.
Jiho started anew. As she finished her high school, she entered a university as a dance major. She even joined a dance crew and started being a part-time instructor in different dance studios in seoul. She's still attending her voice therapy sessions, it took years to healthily build her voice again, but it is nothing the same from her old voice, from her bright and high voice as a soprano, it transformed into more deep and richer tone of a mezzo-soprano, she'd got a comfortable vocal range and is a stable singer. However, she would not budge when her friends or her family will ask her to sing just to show how much she recovered, as much as possible she would refuse to sing to the point that the others thought that she hated singing. No, Jiho did not hate singing, she wanted to but she was afraid, she was afraid that they may judge her that her voice had changed, afraid that she might strain herself and lose her voice again. Even those improvements from her voice therapy were not enough to save her weakening faith on her self. She thought her dream of becoming an idol was such a far-away place for her to reach.
Til' one day someone have come and visited her.
"My friends said that Produce is the worst, do you think I will agree in your proposition?" Jiho sounded out with a forced laugh, looking at her helpless aunt. She just recently worked as a mnet staff and is especially working for the production of produce.
"I'm only trying but it looks like your passion for being an idol have already died." She continued, "Well then, sort yourself out, the season two just ended recently, you still have a few months, contact me if you made your decision." She trailed off, leaving the practice room of the studio. It was a long silence before Jiho broke it with a bitter laugh.
"Who said that my passion had already gone, it is just I don't trust myself in becoming an idol."
There is no wrong in trying right?
POSITIVE: GOOD-TEMPERED, LIGHTHEARTED, THOUGHTFUL, SUPPORTIVE
- She became a trainee in JYP in 2009 for 2 years then left. Then she joined Pledis in late 2011 and trained until early 2015, 4 years.
- She have never dyed her hair before so RIP to her scalp if the stylists decided to bleach it.
- She hates having bangs, she will absolutely plead to the stylist just to avoid having bangs.
- When it comes to eating meals, she have a bird-like appetite but if it's snacks such as cookies, junk foods or etc., she have suddenly this second stomach of hers.
- Only water, tea, chocolate drinks and fruit juices. She reasoned that coffee, alcohol and carbonated drinks are unhealthy.
- Has low tolerance for spicy foods.
- Her special talent is doing all kinds of facial expression.
- She is absolutely scared of horror movies but doesn't believe that ghosts are real.
- She likes to sleep, so she if there are breaks, most of the time she will take naps.
- Jiho have an instagram account that she made in 2012 but most of her feed are consists of cat pictures, her cat named Rody and some cats from a cat cafe.
- She is close friends with NU'EST, Hello Venus and some of Seventeen members.
- Even she is close with pledis artists, Jiho would try not to mention them or speak less on-air in order to avoid controversies.
- But of course her annoying childhood friend would not feel the same, despite the age three year , NU'EST Ren is bestfriends with Jiho. He said he would be an active fan of Jiho in social media.
- Her role models is Kahi, Boa and Sunmi.
- A hard-core fangirl of Red Velvet.
- If she is asked why she always look bored or sleepy, she will probably say, "I'm recharging my face", in order to save energy when she have to show her face expressions.
- She worked as a part-time instructor with two famous dance studios in Seoul, 1 Million and Viva Dance.
- Yes, she could do choreography.
- She is a perfectionist when it comes to making choreographies and learning dances. She also emphasizes the importance of synchronization when had the chance to teach.
- Jiho also started to worked as a back-up dancer in music shows in 2017, she have worked with idols such as Chungha, Sunmi, Hyuna and Winner.
- She knew most of popular kpop groups choreography, so if she doesn't feel sleepy at all in breaks, she will just dance just to spend time.
- If the staffs let them use their phone to call someone, Jiho will call her voice therapist instead of her parents.
- She have a weak busan satoori.
At a young age of 11 years old she was casted by JYP Entertainment for her voice. Since she was a child back then she was extremely passionate when it comes to training, she adapted well with enviroment of the company and comfortably trained along well with other trainees. She received more special trainings for vocals but when the incident happen wherein she lost her voice when she was 13 years old. When she informed her instructors, her vocal condition was discussed with the management wherein they decided to temporarily halt her training and give her a few months of rest. It was a sensible decision since Jiho could focus awhile on her recovery, but it was different for the latter. Temporary break from the training meant that the other trainees would be alerted on her condition, she feared the judgement that will befall on her if she ever return from her rest. In the end, she ended her contract with JYP and left the company quietly, cutting off her contact with the trainee she knew in JYP, without disclosing the real reason why. After resting for a few months, she gained a little hope when she manage to talk, meaning that her voice is recovering on its own. However, her young passionate self made a big deal of this and she became more adamant on the belief that she will recover shortly and decided to continue her training but in an another company, wherein nobody knew what she is like before except for her childhood friend. She joined Pledis Entertainment in 2011 in August, however, Pledis was reluctant to accept her as a trainee because of her vocal condition but in the end, she was accepted due to her potential in dancing. She was prohibited to do vocal trainings along with other trainees. Since she cannot practice her singing, she spent most of her time training along with other trainees in dancing and sometimes alone. When some of her friends and her bestfriend debuted in 2012 and her voice is still unstable, she started to feel the slump. She have close friendships with her fellow trainees and they did everything to cheer her up since her recovery progress of her vocal chords was really slow. However as the months goes by, seeing her some of her friends debuted again, now in a girl group and some of them being included in a line up of a future boy group, she felt like her inability to sing was a thorn in her heart. By the time it was the start of 2015, her voice still haven't recovered completely and witnessing her friends slowly started their preparation for their debut was the last straw. Jiho decided to left Pledis Entertainment and stopped being a trainee but still maintained her contact with some of her friends.
After resting for 2 years and a half month. She started training independently to start her preparation of joining the audition of the next season of the survival show, Produce 99. It was nerve-wracking for her, training independently and joining the show without a company to support her but this will be her last, if she did not managed to go through this then she'll stop.
THEIR VOCAL INSTRUCTOR JUST TOLD HER TO SCREAM IT. JIHO WILL LOSE HER TEMPER WHEN IS SHE IS FORCED TO AND WILL
START UP AN ARGUMENT WITH THE VOCAL INSTRUCTOR THAT IS IT IS NOT GOOD AND Its aN IMPROPER WAY OF SINGING.
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