the facts.

the idiot. 

  

 

traits — Tryhard, insecure, defensive, talkative, exciteable, dramatic, follower, defensive, temperamental, somewhat reliable sometimes, self-centered, hard working, dense

 

personality — 

"Are they called diet pills because they're low calorie?"

 

Tryhard, defensive, and insecure : In this world there are people who are actually confident and arrogant, and there are people that try really really hard to seem that way, you know, the ones who are effortless confident and the ones who spent most of their time telling people they are. Gosaeng is the latter. All of this comes from his insecurities, at one point he thought that if he started broadcasting to everyone else that he was amazing then maybe he'd start feeling like he was amazing. So now you've got a kid who's obnoxiously 'confident'  and always needs to everywhere. Whenever he fears he's being forgotten he overcompensates by being as present as possible. He's comes across as a major attention hog and sometimes arrogant but this babe is just so scared of becoming forgettable. 

 

His false confidence also means that he will pretend that he can do anything. Like if someone asked him to juggle he would be like "yeah totally I can do that yeah!" but on the inside be like 'oh god I can't juggle omg what do I do what do i do??'. He does this so often too that in the end nobody believes him when he says he can do something. These are the kinds of things that are funny on tv, they're cut when you're a fan seeing snapshots of his life, but oh boy do they get old quickly when you're a group of 13 boys living together 24/7. 

 

Gosaeng is so incredibly insecure about most things. He's the most insecure about his masculinity, anything feminine or skinship has him nope super hard because that's for girls or that's gay ew can't you see he's a real man? /starts doing pushups while drinking beer and watching football. He won't show it when he's hurt because he doesn't want to seem like a , he won't wear the colour pink because that's girly,  he won't do the kissing game cause that's gay etc. His masculinity is so fragile it's ridiculous. He's so dramatic about it too like he'll act like it's the end of the world if he'd ever have to cross dress or even wear a bow in his hair as a joke.

 

Gosaeng has a tendency of getting really defensive, too, when his insecurities crop up and he feels challenged, or he feels weak, or he just feels victimized. He'll dig himself a hole and bite when he feels threatened too. He's not someone who is aggressive in and of himself, but his defensiveness has him feeling like he has to fight back and that can escalate very quickly, and once someone is in his face he can't back down of course, that would be weak, and god forbid Gosaeng seem weak!

 

Because of his insecurities he's a classic follower. When he doesn't know what to do he'll check what others are doing and copy it. And then he's insecure about his insecurities and denies them at every turn. He's not insecure he's an awesome manly man who has all the confidence in the world. Keep yelling it at everyone, Gosaeng, see if it helps. It certainly won't make your group members love you.

 

Talkative, funny, dramatic, temperamental, and exciteable : He's easily excited about the things that he loves and just really wants to talk to everyone about it. He really tries to be chic and cool and chill but he's a giant exciteable nerd. This also ties in with his attention hogging, he wants to talk a lot because he's afraid he's going to be forgotten otherwise so whenever people get together Gosaeng wants to be heard, and he wants to be heard a lot. So he makes himself known, and he actually does love nerding out. He's also really dramatic and once he gets really into a story the gestures comes out like he's secretly Italian and he's just so very present, and it's not even fake! This part is real. 

 

So on the one hand if you catch him in the right mood with the right people he can be super sociable and talkative and generally just an alright person to be around. He's naturally funny, goodnatured about making fun of himself when it comes to being dumb or doing stupid things (as long as he doesn't feel judged for it), and generally just fun. If you catch him in the wrong mood with the wrong people he'll be moody and insecure and try to into every situation, sometimes by copying what others have done. Most of the time it's somewhere in the middle depending on his levels of comfort and his mood.

 

Generally Gosaeng has the ability to be a chill and upbeat guy. He's not insecure about his intellect at all (he's come to terms with that a while ago) and can often make fun of himself about his dumb comments along with everyone else. He's fairly reliable during performances as he's doing what he knows he's good at so his insecurities can't ruin things. Anything variety or interviews is hit or miss depending on mood/insecurities/those along with him.

 

Unfortunately Gosaeng is also temperamental, as in his mood can change quickly and suddenly. He can go from cheerful to moody in under 10 seconds. The main trigger is his insecurity, if he feels one-upped or forgotten his mood immediatelying drops. Gosaeng is the epitome of 'I came out to have a good time and honestly I'm feeling so attacked right now'. He can take friendly jokes about his smarts but he can't take friendly jokes about many other things. He gets defensive quickly if a joke or comment doesn't fall right and boy does he get defensive.

 

Self-centered, hardworking,  and dense : as you probably guessed by now Gosaeng is usually busy thinking about himself. His insecurities tend to keep him busy and he's too dense to figure out when others are trying to give him hints. He's just constantly focused on himself. Is he doing okay? Is he not being overshadowed by others? Is he upholding his masculinity? Is he not an outlier who shouldn't be counted? Is he fitting in with the rest of the group? In his head it's always him, him, him with little room for anyone else.

 

There is nothing Gosaeng wants as much as to make a living with his rapping. He's very passionate and works so hard to accomplish that. Being so self-centered and self-critical means that Gosaeng is always focusing on what he's doing wrong and what he's doing right and in terms of performance is able to identify his weak spots and work on them. He's always improving whatever he's trying to do quite quickly because of this self awareness. He knows his skills better than anyone and he's honest to himself about them.

 

 

    

"How do you say '스타일' in english?"

 

likes —

 

- Fitness and his bod looking good, mostly to make up for the nose. If they're blinded by the abs they won't notice the crooked nose right??

- Earrings and snapbacks as two things he loves wearing.

- Waffles but he's too concious of his weight to eat them anymore.

- Super Smash Bros. He's absurdly good at the game and he always plays Mr. Game & Watch. It baffles everyone around.

- He's also gotten really into Overwatch whenever they have time. He's a filthy Genji main. Avoid at all cost. He only plays him because he's the cool option even if he's not very good at him. Would have much more fun playing someone like Pharah or Dva (big impact chaos machines) but they're not cool or manly so here we are.

- He's also a very deep closet Star Wars nerd.

 

dislikes —

 

- His nose. Please don't talk about it, he's too scared of needles to get it fixed.

- Coffee, but will drink it with 3 sugar cubes if everyone else is drinking it (and the cubes are snuck in of course).

- Star Trek is obvioiusly the inferior sci fi epic.

- Fire works and stage pyrotechnics tend to startle or scare him but you better believe he'll hide it as best he can.

- He hates those way too tight pants that aren't even real jeans but are like jegging but they have to wear them anyway because apparently only the skinniest jeans are good enough for kpop idols his life. His junk needs to breeeathe (and Kiseok makes fun of him for it. Skinny jeans aren't exactly hip hap aesthetic)

 

funfacts —

 

- He still doesn't understand why there's more water when ice cubes melt. Shouldn't the glass be less full without the ice cubes in it?

 

- Has a red belt in Taekwondo and brings it up too much. You and half of Korea, Gosaeng.

 

- He has a habit of saying 'like' a lot when he gets insecure.

 

- Tells way more dirty jokes than the manager is comfortable with.

 

- Swears a lot with his inside voice. Swears a lot with his outside voice too when (he thinks) the cameras are off. The manager sweats a lot.

 

- He can do tricking because of his taekwondo skills. Also s up and gets hurt a lot while doing it but will hide it so nobody thinks he's a whimp. Boy has issues showing weakness. Boy has issues, period, really.

 

- His parents once forgot his birthday and since then he announces it several times before the date so nobody forgets. 

 

- He's so torn about their sound. In reality he really likes the bright fun sound they've had so far but his masculinity insecurities paired with his idol vs. rapper insecurities mandate that he wish they had a harder sound so he didn't have to feel ashamed about it all. (Pretty Pretty is his favourite of their songs but he's taking that to the grave with him)

the story. 

background — Gosaeng is the son of a microbiologist and a literal rocket scientist. His parents are both very, very smart. Everyone was expecting this kid to be nothing short of brilliant, if intelligence is genetic this kid must have gotten the jackpot right? But genetics work in mysterious ways and instead they got Gosaeng, who is very, very unsmart.

His parents were very hands off and borderline condescending sometimes. They didn't really know what to do with their very dumb son and most of the time just pet his head and said 'that's nice dear' when he came in with a terribly drawn stick figure family portrait, or a messily assembled father's day card, or his first taekwondo belt. It wasn't anything malicious, they weren't purposely disinterested in Gosaeng's accomplishments, they just didn't really know what to do with them. They ended up just encouraging him to do what he wanted to do but always in the abject I don't really know what you're doing but pat pat good job kinda way.

That was probably the start of his insecurities. Sometimes honestly his parents would just forget about him, dinner table talk was usually based around their work and Gosaeng could understand exactly nothing of it. They supported him in what he wanted to do, he got taekwondo lessons and then got into rap, but they never showed interest in finding out what exactly he did. They never engaged him in it because it was out of their comfort zone, they'd rather talk about science. At least they were never disappointed with Gosaeng's school results, even if he failed they were always like 'it's okay Gogo,  you tried'.

This was probably the start of Gosaeng's insecurities. They supported him in what he wanted to do and got him any lessons he wanted, but they were never actually interested in what he was doing. And that aside he felt ignored whenever the three of them were together. Even failing his classes didn't get him the attention he craved, they didn't get mad, they never expected him to do well, so they'd tell him "I'm sorry Gogo you tried" and that was it. They never got mad or grounded him or did much actual parenting things and Gosaeng was left feeling ignored.

So taekwondo  and rap became his outlets. If he wasn't going to get the attention he needed from his parents then he would get the attention from his peers. He worked double as hard as everyone else to become adept at his rap, often costing him precious needed study time but since his parents never cared about his marks he didn't really have an incentive to try (and also often studying didn't help either he just didn't get things and it just made him feel bad about himself to care).

So when he was a wee babe of 14 he started getting involved in the underground rap. Hardly any supervision meant sneaking out of the house at late hours with minimal repercussions. Even when his parents caught him they were terrible at punishments (these two should probably never have had kids lbr). Of course he was awful at first but, as with anything, he improved steadily and started getting a name for himself as thst dumb kid with the sick flow. And he was okay with that. 

Gosaeng didn't exactly decide to become an idol. More like a lot of young rappers he looked up to started training, especially at YG, and Gosaeng being the follower he is he figured he'd do that too. He tried YG but they wouldn't have him (they probably saw the ant's nest of insecurities bubbling below the surface). Then he basically did eenie meenie minie moe in the phonebook and voila! P.S. it was!

 

CONNECTIONS — 

 

"Wait, these are your parents?!"

"Yeah."

"Are you sure?!"

 

▪ Mother — Kwon Mina (54) / Literal rocket scientist / self-centered, brilliant, scatterbrained,  forgetful, lenient / 

 

Mina tried to be a good mom but she just really isn't.  She's too involved in her own work to be, and too soft to actuslly discipline or punish Gosaeng. Most of the time she just forgot about him and once she even called him Gosang for a whole week before remembering it's Gosaeng.

 

▪ Father — Lee Namsang (52) / Microbiologist / Dismissive, traditional, self-centered, intelligent / 

 

His dad is the reason why Gosaeng's masculinity is so fragile. Namsang is a firm believer that men should act like men and not wear makeup or cry or show weakness etc etc and that's one of the few things he actively taught Gosaeng. Thanks dad that's just one other insecurity to add to the list.

 

 

▪ Best frenemy — Ahn Kiseok (22) / rapper (stagename: K-tonic / charismatic, ambitious,  mean, two-faced, jealous, the kind of person who has to push others down to feel good about himself / 

 

"Yo Gosaeng my man did you listen to my new single yet?"

"Yeah it was pretty good I guess."

"Oh right how's  being a puppet going, you learn to curtsy yet? Haha I kid of course. Come on skip out and get a coffee with me."

 

Kiseok and Gosaeng met in the underground rap scene when Kiseok was a noob and Gosaeng had been there for about a year so slightly less noob.  Gosaeng took him under his wing but Kiseok quicky charmed everyone and it ended up being Kiseok who was followed around by Gosaeng. They're technically friends but Kiseok one-ups Gosaeng at every turn so Gosaeng holds quite a bit of internal resentment for Kiseok. Meanwhile Kiseok isn't afraid to rub his success in Gosaeng's face, and after a succesful stint on SMTM Kiseok has quite a bit of success now without have to resort to idol training and you bet Gosaeng is salty about thay. Kiseok often makes jokes about Gosaeng being an idol and not making it on his own, jokes which are not empty of malicious intent and make Gosaeng feel terrible. Kiseok is the cause of St least 37% of Gosaeng's insecurities.

 

Not only all of that but Kiseok is a terrible influence on Gosaeng. He often dhows up during training and drags Gosaeng away for a coffee or whatever else he thinks of and Gosaeng just goes along with it because he's a little follower who let's Kiseok walk all over him.

the idol.

you're in a 13 member group. has this ever bothered you? — "Of course this has bothered me!" Gosaeng blurts out. "I mean that means, like, 13% less screentime right? Or, wait, no I don't think that's right. But it's a lot less screentime and I'm not about that life, man. How are people supposed to realize how amazing I am when they can barely hear my wicked raps??"

 

do you think yourself better or worse than the other members that share your position? — Gosaeng scoffs at the idea. "I'm a better rapper than all of the others of course- what is that not what you mean? Eeh I just, like, know that I need to be here, you know? Can we, like, move on now?"

did you involve yourself in any physical altercations? — "You should see the other guy!" Gosaeng blurts out defensively. "I mean, eeh, yes you can say that things have gotten scrappy but it was definitely not my fault and I definitely always won."

 

in group arguments, do you prefer to speak your mind or stay quiet? — Gosaeng snorts. "Take a guess."

 

you have a chance to start over somewhat in this new unit group. what changes will you make to yourself, if any? — Gosaeng blinks. , he hadn't anticipated a question like this. . "I'll definitely be doubly charismatic because of all the extra screentime?" It's not like it's his fault he keeps getting into fights anyway he just says what's on his mind, geez. Not his fault the other guys can't take that. Right?

the end.

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